Lynn M's NDE

Experience description: 

      My experience was in 1987 after my first open heart surgery which had been lengthy.  It's after recovery and now I'm back in a room and I'm dying and I'm aware those caring for me know I'm dying and they cannot understand why.  I was doing some serious praying because of this.  I was not aware of any movement, such as going through a tunnel.  Instantly I was in the presence of God and I was hearing that I was not to fear as I was alright and instantly all fear was gone and I knew that I was alright.  I do remember many other people being there, some I recognized and some not although I was aware that I knew them all.  It is impossible to explain the love God has for us.  No one would ever voluntarily leave God.  I ache to return.  Then a female preacher whom I had met once about a year before stepped forward and our task was to pray with and for specific people in different areas of Baylor Hospital in Dallas where I was located.  We went to these people through space, walls and closed doors.  I could not tell that I was out of my body.  Everything looked and felt normal and I remember thinking that this must be the same kind of body that Jesus was in after coming out of the tomb.  He went through walls, yet ate drank, was seen and was felt by his companions.  I do not know how much time was involved.  When I returned to my bed they were giving me blood and I was told that my blood had been damaged by the machine processing it during surgery. I intended to check to see if the female preacher had died, but I never did.  Maybe she could have been there and been alive.  For years after this experience I could not tell this story without crying like a baby because I would remember the feeling of God's love. 

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  Uncertain

      Explanation:  open heart surgery lasting over 8 1/2 hours

My doctor to whom I attempted to explain what had happened to me clearly believed it to be caused by medication.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  Only the part about the intensity of Gods love.  That is indescribable.

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes 

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  normal

Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  I thought that I was in my normal body although I could see my body on the bed.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  extreme joy

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  no 

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  No 

Did you see a light?  No 

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  With God with the exception of the one woman who traveled with me 

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No

      Describe:  I understood everything and  about our future which now I cannot remember 

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  Uncertain

      Describe:  I had intended to contact the woman, but never did.   

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  No

      Describe:  Everything appeared normal except all attention was toward God from everyone. 

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No 

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Yes

      Describe:  At that time I was dumbfounded that I understood everything. 

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  No

      Describe:  Total freedom 

Did you become aware of future events?  Yes

      Describe:  I cannot remember. 

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

      Describe:  I did not wish to return. 

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I am much more aware of other peoples actions and intent.  And what they are going to do.  I read people easily. 

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  No fear.  Everything is positive. 

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  Those that I love, I love stronger.  I am aware that I was driven to worship God prior to the age of 5.  I do not attend any church for various reasons.  I do firmly believe in Jesus. 

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  Good to uninterested.  I am told who to tell and then I do.  I told an elderly man at a restaurant that burst into tears and thanked me telling me how badly he had needed to hear of God's love. 

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Love

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  Being in Gods presence.  The worst was having to return.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  I think it possible that I am alive only because I am intended to tell some people of Gods love. 

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I have no fear of anything. 

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes

      Explain:  To the best of my memory.