Louise S NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

As I have already noted, I had suffered a miscarriage after being pregnant for three months.  I had been to the hospital to have a check-up, and was told that there were still parts inside my womb that would come out on their own and not to worry. 

Three days later, I had been to the rest room and noticed that blood was coming out of me and was running down my legs when I stood up.  I thought it would just be some of the clots coming out after the miscarriage and told myself to not worry too much.  So I waited a couple of minutes and checked to see if the blood had stopped which it had not.  Now I was starting to panic, my husband was out at work and I was alone in the house.  Being a registered nurse, I knew I had to do something quick.  I remembered that the maternity hospital that I had had my check-up had given me a card with their telephone number on it and had told me to phone them if I had any problems.    So I called the number trying to stay calm.  The nurse who answered told me to go unlock my front door, to telephone a relative to let them know that I had to be rushed to the hospital, and then to go and lay down on the sofa in the living room.  She said that she would call an ambulance and that they would let themselves in the front door and they would take me to the hospital. 

So that is what I did, I unlocked the front door and left in open slightly so the paramedics could get in and then I phoned my mother-in-law to tell her that I had to go to the hospital.   

Around ten minutes went by, and I was lying on the sofa waiting, my mother-in-law arrived and started crying and wailing to which I started to cry as before I was trying to stay calm.  Then the paramedics arrived and got me into the ambulance, they took my blood pressure which had dropped, and started to take me to the hospital.  My husband had arrived just after them and he followed in his car. 

It took about ten minutes to get to the nearest ER hospital.  I was put into a cubicle, given IV fluids and told that they were going to get me transferred to a specialist ward in the hospital, so my husband and myself waited and waited.  Time was going by and I started to become frantic, as I knew that I was losing too much blood, they had covered me up with blankets, and I could see the blood oozing through the blankets. 

Eventually, someone came and took me to the specialist ward and left me in a small room with my husband.  Again we waited and waited, I started to feel light-headed and agitated.   

Again eventually, someone came and asked us a lot of questions, a young female doctor and a nurse, they took my blood pressure and gave me more IV fluids.  They went to take my clothes off, but I warned them that there would be a lot of blood and told them to put on aprons and gloves, they gave me a strange look and put on the gloves and aprons then when they took my clothes off, they went pale and gave each other a 'look' as if to say, "Get a doctor, now!" 

They had to put my clothes in the rubbish, as they were covered with clotted blood.    

Then I started to get light-headed again and started to feel sick as if I was going to vomit and told them, the next thing I knew there were about four doctors around me all putting more IV lines into me and putting up more IV fluids, one doctor started to examine me to find where the blood was coming from and the pain was terrible, I think I screamed at one point and started to thrash around as I could not take the pain, then I vomited and I was sweating and shaking, I could not stop shaking.   

Then suddenly I felt a crushing pain in my chest, like a vice, squeezing the breath out of me,  I shouted out to the doctors that something was happening, that I felt that I was going to pass-out,  and I remember that one of the doctors said not to worry, that I could not pass out because I was laying down.

The pain was too, too much, I remember thinking that I could not take any more. I had decided that I had enough of this pain, I did not want any more. That's when it happened. 

The next thing I knew I closed my eyes and felt my spirit lift out of my body. It just slipped out like a snail coming out of its shell. I felt very light and floating and the pain suddenly stopped and the stress that I had been feeling stopped and I felt very relaxed and at ease with the world.  I had no worries any more.  I felt at peace but aware of my surroundings at the same time. I knew that I was out of my body and I was floating just above near the ceiling of the room, I was aware of the doctors and nurses panicking over my lifeless body, I 'looked down' and could 'see' my still body, it looked a very blue color.   

I felt so comfortable and serene, floating above, no worries, no pain, I felt wonderful.  I remember thinking, "Wow, this is GREAT!!"., "What a feeling!"  I felt myself floating upwards and away from the scene below, still feeling amazing, but I wanted to go further, as I was enjoying the freedom from fear, pain, worry, stress, that I wanted to stay in this wonderful state forever, I did not see anything else, just floating upwards and away.   

Then I heard a voice (it was a woman's voice), saying that if I went any further I would not be able to go back, I had to make a decision.  To go further or to go back? 

The feeling was so wonderful that I did not want to go back, I wanted to go further, but then I heard one of the nurses below asking me about my two daughters, she was shouting "Tell me your daughters names !?, "Tell me your daughters names !?"  I stopped.  

I suddenly thought about my two daughters, my eldest was 20 years old and my youngest was 2 years old.  I couldn't leave them without a mother!! I couldn't leave them to go through lives on their own! 

I thought "I will have to go back."  The woman's voice told me that it would not be easy if I went back.  But I could not leave my girls, alone. 

So it was accepted. The voice said no more and I started to think about getting back to my blue colored, lifeless body lying below, surrounded by the medics.   

It was not easy getting back in to my body, I had to concentrate very, very hard before I managed to slip back in. 

I remember feeling the cold of my poor body.  Then the pain again. The pain. I opened my eyes and took a breath, much to the relief of the medics standing around.   

Then I answered the nurse's question that I heard her asking when I was floating above. 

"My daughters names are Laura and Sophie." 

All the medics and nurses standing around looked amazed, their mouths hanging open in shock.  How did I know what had been asked ?

I looked at the poor young doctor who I had told to put on an apron before and she was shaking like a leaf with shock!  

"I'm sorry."  I told her. 

I was then quickly taken down to the theatre for them to operate and stop the bleeding.  While I was wheeled there, one of the doctors asked what had happened to me, did I remember anything, how did I know what the nurse had asked me as he said that my body had turned blue and they thought that they had lost me for good. 

I said that I was floating away and could still hear them. 

He just looked confused. 

I had the operation and recovered in a couple of days.

It took about ten minutes to get to the hospital

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     For a long time I was in shock at what had happened to me.  I knew what had happened but found it difficult to tell people in case they thought I was crazy.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     I had suffered a miscarriage three days earlier and then suffered a hemorrhage where I lost most of my blood by the time I was rushed to a hospital Ward./department.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    While I was floating above the room.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness

            While I was floating above the room.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     As I 'saw' the medics below me, the clarity was not as clear as using real eyes.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     I did not hear background noise only what the medics were saying and the nurses were saying.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Elation.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain      I was not aware of seeing a tunnel or anything.

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     I did hear a woman's voice talking to me but did not see her.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     I saw my life less body below me colored blue.

I could hear what the nurses were saying to me.

The doctor later told me that my body had been blue while unconscious.