A real experience "NDE"

Last Monday of April 1992, I got my first heart attack only 39 years old. Two weeks earlier I felt something in my chest, but I was naive thinking it could not have been the heart. I imagined it to be a rib that had been punched, I've broken them a number of times. I also thought it could be a muscle inflammation, well you now how it is when searching for an explanation. I felt like an elephant was sitting on my chest, with shortness of breath and a burning pain that was moving into my left arm. But a couple of pain killers used to help a little. This Monday I went to my work, 30 kilometers from Ulricehamn, like I use to do. I lit a cigarette and took a couple of deep drags, thinking I was going to die in the car. An indescribable pain. Arriving at work, my work-mates saw that things were not right. They nagged me about going to the hospital in Borås, but I refused as I was the only chef. There was nobody else who could cook the food, and my guests were most important. But with all the nagging, I called the emergency ward in Borås. When I explained how I felt, they more or less demanded me to come there immediately. Yes I found a person who could take over for me temporarily. I took a couple of pain killers in a little water, drank it, and sat down in the car.
 

A janitor wanted to drive me, but stubborn as I am I thought that had I driven to work I could drive back, it was about 60 kilometers to the hospital. I told them I was driving home and if it came to the worst my wife could drive me. But as I was driving it wasn't that bad, I decided to drive all the way. About 10 kilometers from Borås I began to suspect it could be the heart, this pain and severe shortness of breath I had can not be put into words. At the hospital, I was going to put money into the parking meter and behind me stood a girl, she worked at the hospital. She asked me how I was feeling, I looked at her and said it is shit, I'm just going to pay for the car. Calmly and nicely she said she would arrange that, at the same moment I lost consciousness. I woke up in the emergency unit, have never seen so many nurses there for one single person. I was lying on a stretcher, and they ran up to the ICU with me. They connected me to a number of machines, now I had five d ropping bottles hanging on a stand.
 

I was not allowed to do anything myself, because I could get another heart attack. The blood pressure was very high 220/135, and the vascular spasm attacks were getting closer and closer, even though they pumped me full with nitroglycerine. Now I was really bad, don't remember very much of it.
 

But Tuesday night my heart stopped, I was transported to Gothenburg very fast. There they were going to do an acute balloon rupture, but my heart stopped again. I was totally gone, but now something happened that I feel is fantastic. A totally different world opened up, I saw myself laying on the bed but I myself was on my way towards a light. I turned around and looked at myself, but then kept on walking or rather floating towards this wonderful light. This warmth and this joyful place was lovely. Here there were no stress, no high demands and no evil. It was so full of love that it cannot be described, everything was beauty. A place to be longed for, such a wonderful verdure and warmth. Here there was only joy, everyone were wonderful. No one was superior of one another, there I stood and all I wanted was to climb over. Then I heard somebody call my name, Lennie come back, Lennie, Lennie come back stay here. You are needed here come back and stay. I heard those words over and over again, turned around and looked at her. She was standing behind me at my right side. She was the most beautiful girl I have ever seen, with wonderful eyes that would make anyone melt. Beautifully made up, what lips. I wanted to hug her, yes even kiss her, even though I was happily married at the time. I looked at her, she begged so humbly. Please stay we need you, stay here come back. Who could resist such a woman, so I turned around and woke up in my own body. About an hour later when I was laying in my bed, I called at the staff. I asked for this nurse, everyone looked strange at me. There is no such person here, and have never been. I was laying there thinking about this for a long time, and do so often even today. Was it my guardian angel or what. However, this came to change my life, mostly my values in life. I think it does that to everyone who has stood at the gate, today I appreciate the small things. I think life is fantastic, but death does not scare me. I know it is a new phase in life, at another level. Take care of your lives and Live Well in Harmony with yourself and your Spirit.
 

Your Devoted Lennie B.