Kelly K's NDE

It suddenly became easier to breathe. I knew everything the doctor was about to do, before he did things. I began to ascend, face first, through a tunnel that was a warm, reddish color, like color of tomato soup, but soft and similar to clouds. There was an unearthly golden white light at the end but not very near. I was concerned about my son at home and the son I was having. I knew I was dead but wasn't concerned about that so much. Instantly it was made known to me that they would be alright. It was very reassuring. The next thing I recall was being shown the universe. I remember thinking, "So, THAT'S how it is! I was in awe. It was like a huge net, or chain link fence, everything in the universe is connected. (Whenever I see pictures of what DNA composition looks like magnified, I think of what the universe looks like). Very colorful and beautiful. It was made known to me how important life is, all forms and that destruction of life tears a hole in the beautiful composition of the oneness of the universe and everything in it. ( Murder is abhorrent to me to this day and I don't even kill a bee.) At the same time I was being reassured in my mind that all was well with the earth and going according to how it should go. (I cant explain more on this point.) But I was struck by the simplicity of it all. While man runs around looking for complicated solutions, it is not complicated. Very simple.

     Continuing to ascend towards the light the next thing was the beautiful stringed music. Nothing like it on earth. Also I was aware of beautiful colors and that color has sound and coordinates with music. And the light became more brilliant surrounding me, and I was breathing it in, not with lungs but it seemed like osmosis, through every pore in my being. Each taking in of the light made me feel more and more exhilarated, full of healthy energy and brightness. Along with this, I had gained universal knowledge of all things. Drawing closer to the end of the tunnel, the light became stronger and more lovelier and I could see outlines of people, about four of them, who were telepathically sending me messages of unconditional love (greeting?) and I remember being able to reciprocate in same, sending it back to them from me, immediately, unconditionally. I had the sense that I knew one or two of them but didn't know who! I was ready to exit the tunnel, or I had just exited it and the light was so indescribably ethereal and wonderful I wanted to keep gravitating to it, to it's source. But I was held back by the entities very gently and told not to do that, and I had the sense that it would be dangerous to go to the very source of the light, yet I was not afraid, but exhilarated. But I obeyed their caution. At that point they told me that it wasn't my time yet and that I had to go back. I didn't want to, I begged to stay but they gently and lovingly refused me. I began to go back down the tunnel in reverse, I was still facing the light and the entities as I descended. On the way much was being erased from my memory. Not the event itself, but the newfound universal knowledge, the details.

     I felt sucked into my body and woke up and the air was heavy, movement more difficult, even moving an arm, not from any physical inability but this is the way earth is, very primordial compared to where I just was. I recall asking if I was in heaven. The doctor was frightened and upset and said they nearly lost me. I still knew some things and when alone with my husband I told him to listen carefully and remember what I was telling him because it was being erased. And as quickly as I was telling him things it was being erased just as quickly. When I finished I asked him if he got all I told him. He looked at me strangely. I asked again. Then he told me that I sounded like I was speaking a foreign language and he could not understand anything I said to him previously. He was alarmed. By then, all of the universal knowledge was gone. But not the experience. The strange thing is, that no matter how many years go by, I never forget it. Even writing this is like it just happened. Back then, it upset my husband so I didn't talk about it anymore. I didn't want people to think I was crazy. I couldn't understand why that happened to me, I had never heard of such a thing. But, occasionally, I will have a flashback. For instance, one time about 15 years ago I was reading an article about the Ghia theory, that the earth is one large living organism and how scientists were arguing over it, pro and con. Suddenly I knew that this theory is correct, with absolute certainty, like something I knew all along but forgot about it until reading the article. I said to myself, "of course it is! earth is one giant, living organism, but I cant say how!"

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          Yes    earthly words, language, not adequate to describe experience without making it less than what it was.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes    childbirth complications and I believe I was given an overdose of anesthetic

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?  in the tunnel and just getting out of it and being sent back

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?          More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:        It seemed I noticed more details than I usually do in normal consciousness.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?          Yes    the colors of things were heightened, much better than normal.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
          Yes    hearing extremely pronounced during experience. Nothing was loud.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?          Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          awe, love, happiness.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?        Yes    it was quiet, reddish color, soft.

Did you see a light?         Yes    an all pervading light that grew stronger as I ascended to the end. It was a loving brilliant light.

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    They were waiting for me at the end of the tunnel and I didn't see their entire bodies. I had a sense of familiarity with one or two of them but never got to see their faces or know their identity. They telepathically communicated an unconditional love for me, told me not to go to the source of the brilliant, loving light and told me it wasn't my time yet.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?   No      I had universal knowledge of the all, until shortly after I awoke from my experience

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         Yes    The doctor said that early on I was describing medical procedures to him. ( I knew nothing about them at age 21)

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?          Yes    Saw the universe, as it is put together, how it works. But cant now give details or a formula for it.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes    there is no "time" where I was, not as we on earth know it.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes    Everything in the universe is connected. To murder someone is destructive to the order of the universe. People's religion doesn't matter. We are all loved.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes    I was told not to go to the source of the light as it would be dangerous. I had a sense that my spirit would be extinguished. I did not cross it.

Did you become aware of future events?      No         

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?       Yes    sense of hearing and light was sharpened somewhat. Occasionally have visuals of future things or a sense of danger for others. Cannot do it at will, it comes when it comes. I don't buy watches any more, they always stop running for some reason when I wear them, usually months later from wearing them. A strong sense of healing ability but I mainly try to ignore it.

Have you shared this experience with others?        Yes    first shared with my husband in 1961. He didn't like it, it upset him. Later I told my mother, she believed me and I told no one else for about 35 years, and only within the last ten years have I told others. Reactions brought interest lately, also have been able to comfort some people who have lost loved ones. It seems to make them feel much better to know their dead loved ones are very happy, in another place after death.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No     

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   It was different from my dreams. Sometimes when I dream I know it is a dream. The NDE is very real, more like you went on an amazing trip. You are more aware of things that happen in NDE.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? the whole thing. It meant to me that I have to accomplish something on earth. I had a completely different, sharpened sense of God and us. God is more forgiving and loving than we are to one another.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:          Experience was definitely real         It is as real to me today as it was in 1961. Nothing has changed to make me change my view of the NDE, not even time. I cant explain why.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?          Uncertain     My husband thought I became deranged somewhat and he just wanted it to go away. So I didn't speak of it after the first couple times.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes    yes. Man is too hard on himself and others. Most ministers, parsons and priests are a bit off the mark in their view of God. Man has built up too many man made assumptions about God and heaven.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    No         

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?          Well, it was the most significant experience I ever had in my life so far. It changed my outlook on life and death significantly.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes    Most of the questions dealt with what I described, before I came to the questions.