Kathleen M NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

Meanwhile my stomach was bloating more and I started having chest pains, I told them I needed help I was having a heart attack.  They called in a bunch of doctors who were crowded around my bed, giving me nitro and deciding what was happening (I guess).  I kept telling them it hurt and I was going to die, they asked me who they should call.  At some point I remember Looking through what it seemed to be a big window and I was on the outside.  There were lots of people mulling around some together some by themselves.  No one spoke or looked my way.  None were close to me they were all far away, and they were all like black shadows of people, there were a few trees and grass, but the only colors I saw was a pink that kind of covered all I looked at including the people.  These people were neither happy nor sad but I didn't say any communication.  When I came to it dawned on me that those were all of my loved ones who had gone before me, I wished that I could see them clearer and talk with them.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     I had surgery, and should have been improving.  Complications kept making my stay at the hospital more serious.  The nurse had put a tube thru my nose into my stomach because my stomach kept bloating up after surgery.  She accidentally knocked the container that was on the wall and hooked to the tube down, which caused it to break.  While the other nurse stood in the back ground (seemingly afraid to move).  She picked up the container and put it back together.  A comment I heard the one nurse make to the other, "doesn't this figure our first t

night left alone and this happens"  My life partner had passed away in 2002 of Alzheimer's.  I remarried an old friend in 2004 he had passed away 2 months before my illness.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    I believe that was after it was after the vision of the people, when I was thinking that the people I saw were all my relatives who had died before me and that I loved.  I am not sure now but I thought they were concerned for me.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            I believe that was after it was after the vision of the people, when I was thinking that the people I saw were all my relatives who had died before me and that I loved.  I am not sure now but I thought they were concerned for me.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Uncertain      What I saw were people walking, but I didn't see faces, because they were all black shadows with a pink haze covering all including them. Those were the only colors I saw.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            No       There was nothing to hear.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            just curious, why was I outside, but yet when I looked through the window they were the ones outside in a field of grass and trees.  Confusion over why everything was shaded over with pink.  Why weren't any of those people looking at me, why were they not talking with one another? 

I did feel happy though having seen all of my loved ones, they were all walking around.  I knew I would get to see all of them again.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain      I very well could have been in that tunnel, because around me there was no light, the only light I saw was off in the distance were all of those people were.

Did you see a light?           Yes     The light was were the people were, not where I was.  I felt I was looking through a window and all of the light was on the other side

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     As I saw these people in the distance walking around in the far off distance, not seeming to talk with one another, almost as if they were waiting for something.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No       I didn't realize they were my loved ones that had died before me until after the vision or the picture or the dream was over.  I couldn't get back to them.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     I believe that is when those 2 nurses had come in and were talking about their first night alone their, for some reason I had a feeling that they might have been smoking pot.  I don't know if that was a smell or the look of the one nurse who stood away from me looking very scared.  Then also all of those doctors and nurses surrounding me, for the most part they did nothing.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain      I knew whoever those people were they were not of this time.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            They were walking and all seemed quiet but concerned, none were unhappy but none seemed happy either, there was no talking or banter.  After when I could no longer see them, I knew that there is more that was to come.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     I couldn't cross the boundary, because of what seemed to me at the time to be a window frame.

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     With my family a few weeks after I got home.  Then I went to see this movie with a friend that I had never shared this with and I was floored when I saw almost the same setting as when I was having that experience.  That's when I told my friend, " Oh my God, look at that, how could that be?  that was what happened to me when I was in the hospital"

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Uncertain            I had heard of it and I had heard talk of a tunnel and extreme light, but this was not what I experienced.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I didn't mention it to my family until after I got home from the hospital.  It didn't feel real or relevant until after I got home.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    I believe realizing the people I saw were people in my past was an eye opening experience.

Also while watching them walk past one another in silence was curious to me.

What were they concerned about?

Why didn't anyone look my way?

Were they sad?

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    I felt it was real after I had told the kids about it, then when I saw the movie the Hereafter, I just could not imagine how they could have put my dream in their movie.  That is when I was positive what I had seen was real.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Uncertain      My family has always been very important to me, but it was then that I realized I should make plans for when I am not around, for the sake of my children who seemed to unravel through this whole experience.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Uncertain      I always believed in God and yes that would prove to me there is more after death.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No       Only that movie the hereafter, that was almost a shock to me.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        It was an eye opening experience, although maybe not so great at the time.