Karen W Probable NDE
Drove (in shock) by
myself) to the nearest hospital-Citizens General - which was in the process of
bankruptcy at the time & collapsed in the ER-3 pints of blood in my
The reason that I was on the respirator, ding 100% of my breathing, was that every time the doctors tried to bring me out of the anesthesia/drugs, I went into a Panic Attack, cutting off my breathing (thus, the trachea tube). I was at that time also diagnosed with COPD. I have only one sibling, a 3 yr. younger sister, Mary. They told her - "she's not breathing on her own, pray for the best, but expect the worst". The only good thing she has on her side is that she's fairly young. My sister went home, found my cemetery lot documents, called my bank to see if my mortgage was paid off in the event of my death, and it would've been-I had life ins. added to the loan. She had to write out my utilities, bills, etc. for that month & take care of my dogs, and my mother, who I was taking care of - 120lbs. with CAD/Congestive Heart Failure-30% functioning & 2 replaced hips (osteoporosis).
As I said before, I was
reaching out toward the light with such a force, when I woke up, I really could
not move my right arm-it felt like I completely pulled out my shoulder & back
muscles reaching & grabbing, trying to go into that light.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes for years could not tell the story without crying, don't care whether anyone believes me or not. It was the most warm, peaceful, beautiful experience in my life. The Light was like one hundred times the hot sun on a July, clear day. No medication could ever simulate that feeling. I was reaching toward the light with my right arm-wanted to go into the light. No thoughts of anything else at all-I could make out the figure from a distance inside the light, which I KNEW was the Resurrected Christ. He had his Right hand up, along with his index & middle fingers only. As I got closer, those 2 fingers went down & that's when I went backwards with unimaginable G-Force. I explain it to people in my area as "like going in reverse on the "Laser Loop", and older roller-coaster at nearby Kennywood Park, now defunct. I DID NOT WANT TO GO BACK!!!!!!! No words were spoken & I did not have a decision to say or go, either. I went into a very DEEP depression in the hospital afterward, could not stop crying, since I thought I wasn't good enough to go with The Master. Asked my sister to bring me my Bible, so that I could find ANY reason that I was sent back. That's when I encountered a very large African-American man (in green scrubs), on the day of my hospital release, emptying the "toxic" container. He noticed my Bible-and told me that he was a member of "Promise-Keepers", of which I have heard. I told him my story, crying again, and he said to me: "How do you think Moses felt after being in the presence of GOD receiving The Ten Commandments, and then having to come down from Mt. Sinai to all of the evil people worshipping the golden cow??? Well, a light bulb went off in my head-he was right-my answer was given. He said to me: "Well, I guess I'll never see you again". I replied, "Oh, yes, you will-in Heaven!". He grinned ear-to-ear & left the room. I called the Hospital when I got home, to get his name-send him a letter for helping me. Gave the floor, Room#, described the man - to the Supervising Head Nurse; she said "I'm sorry-no one who fits that description works or has ever worked on that floor in the 20 years that I've been in charge!". So, therefore, not only am I not afraid to die, but I now also believe that angels CAN and DO take human form. Great is our Creator!!!!
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes Diverticulitis, punctured intestine, causing me to hemorrhage abdominally. That's why I was flown in a helicopter, where I had no pulse, breathing, heartbeat for 4 minutes, according to Dr. Weinstein, who was beside me the whole time. (I thought it was a dream, until he came in, after I got out of it, grabbed my arm, and said "we almost lost you, there!").
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? As I said, I thought it was a dream, and as I was unconscious & clinically dead for 4 minutes in the helicopter, I vividly remember - no tunnel, no hovering above my body, no seeing deceased relatives, it was as if I went directly into & toward the light! I could not see the face of Christ, but DID notice the flowing white robes-I concentrated more on the right arm - why was it raised?
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: As I said, I thought it was a dream, and as I was unconscious & clinically dead for 4 minutes in the helicopter, I vividly remember - no tunnel, no hovering above my body, no seeing deceased relatives, it was as if I went directly into & toward the light! I could not see the face of Christ, but DID notice the flowing white robes-I concentrated more on the right arm - why was it raised?
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes At first, the light was SO BRIGHT, I thought that surely I was going to go blind, so I shielded my eyes temporarily with my right arm. Nothing was transparent-things were solid.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
No There was absolutely no sound at all-no words were spoken-I was NOT told to go back. I just proceeded to go backwards when the 2 fingers on HIS right raised hand went down.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? There are no words to describe the warmth, peace, love, joy, happiness and security that one feels when this happens. It just CANNOT be described.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? Yes So very bright was the white light, that Mentally, I felt as if I could go blind, so I shielded my eyes at first with my right arm.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes Fairly far off, where the light was the brightest, I knew I was seeing the outline/solid figure of My Lord, Jesus Christ, clothed in white, flowing robes, as if the wind was blowing HIM.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes As I indicated before, the very large, tall black gentleman-most likely an angel of GOD, but AFTER the experience - more to answer my depressing question about WHY I came back (would you believe-on the very day-hours before my hospital release!). I would have gone home deeply depressed, if not for his intervention!.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes Just the light, but never got past it-believe me, I WANTED to, but was unfortunately sent back here for some unknown reason....I believe that beyond the light, was HEAVEN, but I didn't make it - not this time.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes Time was absent, and did not really matter to me at all!
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain I knew the boundary was the Bright LIGHT (containing the image of OUR LORD), but I was pulling & pulling with my right arm-mentally saying "Please take me closer - I want to go with YOU-NOW!" I was POSITIVE that HEAVEN was right behind JESUS CHRIST and THE LIGHT !!!!! And that I would once again be reunited with my Daddy, my Uncle Mick, my Grandpap's Eli & John, & both Grandmas (that died before I was born), along with very many, very young friends, who died unexpectedly during my childhood, during high school, and afterwards. I have always been a giving, friendly, Kind-to-a-fault, outgoing person who always looks for at least ONE good thing in each person, no matter how bad they are reported to be. I have ALWAYS made the attempt to make friends & stick up for the bullied, making many friends where ever I can. I believe that I should treat ALL people (regardless of creed, color, ethnic background, religious beliefs, etc.) the way that I would like to be treated. I'm basically poor, but see a beautiful heart in everyone, not material things, which no one takes (or will ever take) with them upon death.
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes In my mid-20's, I began to experience premonition-type disastrous nightmares-but these tragedies would happen to ME-so I had NO WAY of warning anyone of impending doom. I knelt down on my knees, prayed and asked OUR LORD to take these from me, as they were affecting me mentally, and I was not ready to harness/deal with these dreams. Example: I grew up in a very close small-town, Caucasian neighborhood, & down the street, about 5 houses away, there was a basically "poor" family with 7 children, some younger, some older than me. I became very good friends with "Karen", 2 yrs. older & she married a "mafia-type" man, who both mentally & physically abused her-SHE WAS GORGEOUS & EXTREMELY well-built; but quiet & a good girl. I was also friends with her brother, Larry & (being the "Caretaker-type"), he called ME at 3AM, after slitting his wrists, when his wife was out with another man, and 2 toddlers were in the house sleeping! I immediately sped up to his house - 10 miles away, & took care of the situation. But, anyway, Larry's sister, Karen-died at the young age of 29; the night she "burned in a fire-to cover up the evidence"-(we knew who killed her); I had a nightmare-I was smoking a cigarette, I dropped it & it started to burn & smolder my mattress-I woke up-patting my bed to put out the "fire"-of course-there was none. Five minutes later, my bedside phone rings, & I get a call at 5:00AM EST from my friend, Larry-(I still thought I was dreaming)-he said to me "Karen, my sister, Karen burned to death in a fire (the SAME night); and I have to go to identify the body! This experience COULD NOT have been a gift from GOD, or I felt that I would've been able to warn her, so I began to pray-"GOD, please, take this from me", and HE did. I KNOW HE exists, since I've had no such "nightmares since...
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes Immediately. Of course, most people said "you were drugged-up"-an insult to me-since Hospitals do NOT release a patient-drugged-up!!! Especially, after about a month-most of it in ICU. I was weak, lost a lot of weight, But I was thinking clearly! Later on, I made friends with "David", who needed a liver transplant-he has some blood disease-alpha-tripten (I think I got it right-& it's hereditary, too). He has to go for a lot of "blood-letting", whatever that is, and he lost a twin to the same disease. He was only 49 when he had the successful liver transplant. It eventually attacked his lungs, after about 1 yr., and I think he knew he was going to die soon-he MADE me tell the NDE story SO OFTEN that I was getting tired of telling it! He & his wife, Donna, (He made me PROMISE that if he should die-I would become friends with her!). We have been very close friends since his death - 1 year after his transplant-in 2004. Maybe I survived just to ease friends in the transition of passing to the other side-Dave was never saved - but DID believe in GOD! I pray that he's at peace - in Heaven...
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes While I was sole caretaker for my dear mother, one of 3 nurses came to assist her, and I asked her if she's ever heard of an NDE. She told me of a website to look into - afterdeath.com; and 2 days later-she was unexpectedly killed in an auto accident! I tried to visit the site, but it is "under construction", you ALWAYS think - either you're crazy, or the experience was drug-induced!
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real No more fear of death, even to this day-almost 11 years later, I believed it in the beginning, now, and will in the future. It's just a matter of time until I get there again, and I'm actually looking forward to it!
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? I now have absolutely NO FEAR OF DEATH!!!!! I cannot state this of many people that I know, including family members...I guess one has to experience it before they truly believe. I feel that ER doctors believe it, & I don't know if you get BIO (Biography Channel) or not; but in PA, on Sunday nights, they have a series called "I Survived", & then later, one called "I Survived-Beyond & Back"; if you can, watch it! Seems everyone's story is different-some have been "Clinically dead for up to 15 minutes!!!). (Even an Internal Medical Specialist!). It changes peoples lives, & there aren't many who WANT to come back! I've also seen stories of atheists who claim they've gone to HELL-and asked GOD, due to the painful torment experienced-to save them; one is now a preacher. There IS Life After Death-I'm living proof-(not suicidal, but can't WAIT to experience that beautiful peace once again)!
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real If I had faked it, or it was just a "drug-induced" dream, I would not remember every single detail - vividly - to this day. IT was REAL, and that, I'll carry to my grave-when I finally get there! I guess, that is why on many tombstones, you see "R.I.P.".....This will be the ONLY time you will rest in peace!!!!
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I'm a kinder, more gentle person, and since the experience, not materialistic any more. I donate & volunteer more than ever, and love to share my story with whoever will listen to me. Maybe it can somehow get people to think that the body is just a shell, the real self is within - in the soul itself. I can at least plant a seed, if anything, to make people think about eternity-not just today, this weekend, or the near future. I have a totally different outlook on life, now.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes My NDE just completely proven my reason for my faith-and made it even STRONGER!