Karen S NDE
Edited for clarity by Judy Shea 3.24.13
All I remember is being up above where the nurses and doctors were working on my body, and looking down and watching. But it was not "me" anymore. I was floating up toward a bright light. I saw angels with wings! I never saw God, but I knew he was there—I just knew. I talked to him but I don't know how, since I had no life form that I knew of. I begged God to let me stay on earth. I had a daughter who was just seven months old, plus I was enrolled in college and planning a future. I begged God, "Please let me stay! I need to raise my daughter! She is named "Maria," and that was my grandmother's name. She was German and went by "Mary," but her given name was "Maria." And really, until now, I haven't thought of 'Mary, Mother of God!'" I fell down, back into my body and then woke up several days later. One thing strange to me was when my body was no longer "me." But at that age I had never even thought of dying or heard any stories of near death experiences or anything like that.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain. I'm not certain about that question. My illness after the surgery was approximately three days later.
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes. I have only shared it with a few people and I felt uncomfortable, I'm not sure why.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Not when I was in my body on the hospital bed. Then I was aware only of the hustle and bustle of them working on my body.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. Oh yes—I knew where I was going and did not want to go. I knew in my mind without question. And I was not usually secure or sure of myself at age eighteen.
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The beauty of it all! It was perfect, and there were the most clear, bright colors I had ever seen.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I talked and knew what I was saying, but I am not sure how I was talking.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? Yes. I watched them doing what I know now were compressions, and they were using a bag valve mask to try and get me to breathe. I really did not care what they were doing to that body because it was not me.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace, no fear, and a strong need to return.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes. That was where I was heading. It was a beautiful, calming light that I had never seen before—nor since.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin.
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual.
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes.
After I asked God to let me go back, for my daughter, I fell.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to "return" to life for my daughter.
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? Yes. I knew I was going to my everlasting life. It was calm and peaceful.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? Yes. Just a presence, like me. I saw no body form of myself or of God, but I did see angels. I talked to God in my mind, without speech.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? Yes. My baby was in my thoughts and that was the only reason I wanted to stay on earth. And I saw my body, even though it was no longer me and didn't matter.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? Uncertain. I knew where I was going, even though nothing was said to me. It was nothing I had seen before or ever thought of. Like I said, at age eighteen, you do not think of or consider death. My mom had just turned forty and I thought that was so old.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? Uncertain.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? No
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? Yes. I was with GOD and I really never considered or thought about being with God.
What occurred during your experience included: Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs I had at the time of my experience. All I really believed was that, if you were good, you went to heaven and if not, hell. I never thought about the death, I just assumed that it would be like it is on earth in my body. I didn't think of being a spirit, free of a body.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I had been sick but aware and had talked to people who had come to see me. But after I fell back into my body, I was not aware of anything for what seemed like an eternity. I remember—my mom told me—that a nun told her under no circumstances was she to leave me and that it had been hard for her to stay, as I had four siblings at home.
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: Even though I went through the experience, I still want to be sure. I have lost so many, and just want to be sure that I will see them again. I FEEL THERE IS AN AFTERLIFE. But not certain, for I have read so many scientific explanations of the experience. But I did know until I read things. It was not talked about at all in 1973.
My experience directly resulted in: Moderate changes in my life.
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Uncertain. I still question it and have some fear.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Getting to go back. Sometimes I think to myself, "Karen, you might have given up the only chance you will ever have to go to heaven."
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes. Years before, I shared it with my younger sister. We were older and she was questioning about life after death.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was probably real. I believed it to be true once I was completely aware and awake.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was probably real. There are all these explanations, for example, the metabolic changes that cause you to hallucinate.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No, except that it is true.
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes