Karen D's NDE
The day it happened I remember writing a note to my husbands parent's pastor telling him to watch over my husband. I knew the end was near. I remember looking at my husband and seeing the anguish on his face, it hurt my heart. Then I was in what I can only describe as a hallway but it seemed fluorescent white but no lights were in it. I sensed my mother, not like seeing her here but the best way to describe it is like she was all around me and through me, like a mist but more real. A very wonderful feeling of peace, no stress, no worries, no pain, no issues but this enormous peace words fail the experience. It was like we communicated without words, just a knowing, and I knew I had to come back, I did not want to. I felt assured at that time that, and the way that I have said it to any one I tell, it was like we are (visualize a large spot, then superimposed over that spot the same spot) here, but also here! That God IS....... I to this day am ready to go back!!! Now for the real interesting Part! I saw my husband when I came back, the first words I said to him was I had to come back for you. I have to tell you part of his life for you to truly understand this. My husband lost his son to a drunk driver who hit him on a bike and has been terrified of death. Last year my husband was diagnosed with stage IV cancer, he is terminal and has months to live. I believe with all that I am that I had the experience to share it with my husband and others to help them to not be afraid.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes The intensity and overwhelming awe and feeling of a peace that to this day I can not truly explain, also the feeling of regret that I had to come back
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes I had a very unusual disease that had me in the hospital 38 days. Bi-lateral obliterating organizing pneumonia (BOOP). CDC called in it took lung biopsy to identify what is was because no medication was effective. Doctors told my husband I would probably not survive the biopsy but it was necessary to determine what was wrong.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Within the presence of my mother
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: Within the presence of my mother
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes Much more clarity
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Uncertain Hearing was different, as I said communication was not like here, it was more of a knowing
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Uncertain
What emotions did you feel during the experience? peaceful, joyful alert
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Yes I didn't pass through it, more like stayed in a hallway of light
Did you see a light? Yes like very brilliant fluorescent light
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes as I said the presence of my mother all around me. She expressed without words that I had to return. On question 20 you asked did I see deceased spirit. my mother is deceased but it was more like an enveloping presence
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Uncertain My doctor asked me whn I went for follow up, or rather stated to me. "You had a spiritual experience didn't you. when I confirmed it he said he knew or could tell while I was in the hospital that I had
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes Time there isn't relevant
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes That GOD IS.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes I sensed I could go no further than the hallway
Did you become aware of future events? Uncertain
I knew I came back for my husband, it was years later I felt my experience would help him with his dying, but I always felt I came back to assist or help or do something for him
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes hours
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real I viewed it as hope of things to come when we leave this earth. That that place is more real then this one will ever be.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? The peace. It was the one thing I cant put into words correctly and the one thing I long to return to
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real I know without a doubt it was real, I share it because I know it to be truth even when people think I am crazy. If it was not true why would I subject myself to speculation. I know my experience will help my husband transition through his cancer, even if he doesn't understand truly he knows I do not lie
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes