It was my
first time at the ocean at age 7 and a day after a hurricane had been out at
sea, warnings posted to swim at own risk and warnings also on radio. I was with
my best friend and her family on the beach and they said we could go swimming.
I got sucked out by the undertow and pulled under. I swam for my life but my
body was hitting hard against the sandy bottom, even my face pounded into it, I
couldn't make it to the top and I couldn't hold my breath any longer and I
remember the terror as I inhaled the cold salt water into my lungs, the pain,
and I was still being thrown against the sandy bottom, beaten until I gave up.
I just gave up, it hurt too much to live another second and suddenly, I simply
left my body. No one could have been more surprised than me. Instant pain
relief is first thing I felt. Then I began soaring very fast and I was filled
with joy and relief to be free of my body, never realized what a pain in the
neck our bodies really were, so frail, so confining, so limiting. I knew I
would never go back to it now that I had experienced this freedom. And I knew
all these things suddenly, what life was all about, how humans were living with
all the wrong ideals and I was filled with pity for them, that they fought so
hard for things and survival, they suffered so, out of ignorance and greed and
it was really so simple to be happy (except for the body confinement issue) and
that their time on earth was a millisecond compared to eternity.
worried about my mother also and suddenly I was thinking to others and they were
thinking back at me. They said I had to go back and I cried and said no, I
wouldn't. That they had to make my mom understand somehow that I was much
better off now and she shouldn't worry but they insisted I go back, that my
mother needed me, others needed me, I had to heal others and again I said no (7
year olds are very selfish) and I meant it. I said I would go to my mother
myself and tell her I was ok, that they had a way I could do that right? and I
began traveling towards my mother and suddenly I couldn't move anymore, they
stopped me and they said no, there was no way to do that, I couldn't do that,
that I had to go back and I began moving backwards, back to my body and when I
hit it I hit it like a ton of bricks and I hurt so bad and people were yelling
in panic, a life guard was forcing water out of my lungs, I was all beat up from
the ocean floor, don't remember being pulled from the water or how I got on
shore I just knew it was very unpleasant. I was soooo sorry to be back. And I
will never forget this experience so long as I live.
neglected to explain every conversation was via telepathy of some kind. We were
all souls. And though they were very firm about my going back, they were
loving, concerned, wonderful souls and I felt a sense of pity from one of them
that I must go back (my grandmother?). I asked them if I would remember this
upon my return and they assured me I would. That I must. There was also no
sense of time where I was, for eternity was all we knew. I was very angry when
I was revived.
kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes I was only 7 years old and it was very difficult for me to explain the
experience, I told no one of it until I was much older
time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes I drowned
time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and
Immediately after I left my body, soaring very fast through some cloudy corridor
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare
to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different
from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:
Immediately after I left my body, soaring very fast through some cloudy corridor
vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such
as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes It was neither light nor dark, almost like no vision at all but a
feeling of soaring very fast, incredibly fast, toward something....safe and
wonderful, tunnel possibly (uncertain) but clouds all around me
hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect,
such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Yes I heard nothing, I sensed sayings or thoughts from other(s)
experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
emotions did you feel during the experience?
elation, joy, pity for humankind for their ignorance, their senseless
struggles, relief, calmness, peace
pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
I was moving very fast, soaring but I couldn't see where I was going, just knew
I was going somewhere wonderful, seeing was not relevant to me during this
experience, I didn't care. I knew I was safe. Possibly I was in a tunnel with
clouds all around or heavy fog.
see a light?
Uncertain grey and white clouds soaring around me
meet or see any other beings?
Uncertain Things were conveyed to me and there was a brief struggle which I
lost, they (I sensed more than one) told me I must go back and I cried and said
I didn't want to, I wanted to stay with them but they gently conveyed to me my
mother would never survive without me, I must go back.
experience a review of past events in your life?
observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that
could be verified later?
Uncertain CPR was performed on beach, they pumped water from my lungs
see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
Yes I was not of this earth, possibly a different level or dimension,
at age seven, I was certain I was in route to heaven, nearing heaven and in a
have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes I was definitely not here anymore, time was irrelevant and I was
definitely in a different space, certainly not on earth anymore and was moving
very fast through, possibly a tunnel, a big tunnel with clouds in it
have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes That was the most amazing part of all, the feeling of all
knowingness, purpose, it was as if I finally understood everything and wanted to
share it with all humans, how wonderful death was, that humans were struggling
for all the wrong things, that love was all that mattered, possessions meant
nothing, remember Jesus' example and they could all be happy on earth as I was
reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes They stopped me and said I had to go back, it wasn't my time yet, people
needed me, I hadn't finished and I cried and said no, I want to stay here...I
even asked if I could just go back to my mother and tell her not to cry, that I
was much better off here but they said no.
become aware of future events?
They told me I had a purpose still to be fulfilled, people needed me
and I had no choice, I had to go back but I did not understand what my future
responsibilities were other than they said my mother could never survive without
me and that many would not make it to heaven if I didn't go back.
have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you
did not have prior to the experience?
Yes No longer afraid of death. Feel closer to God. My faith is much
stronger as a result of dying that day.
you shared this experience with others?
Yes I was too young to understand or explain what had happened so I said
only "I drowned, it was wild". I was much older when I first attempted to
explain it to others. Only religious people were interested. Now, in my
profession, I share it all the time with my patients and their families to help
them find peace and overcome their fears. Perhaps that is why they made me come
back? To be a nurse and tend to others and take care of my mother who has had a
have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
Experience was definitely real Again, these are the kinds of things,
especially the knowledge and understanding, a seven year old could never
conceive of. I knew Gods angels that day and have never forgotten.
there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
The joy, the
peace, the knowledge, things a seven year old could never conceive of.
you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real Same as above though I'm still a
little peeved they didn't let me stay. (Still selfish after all these years).
relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
I serve instead
of expecting to be served. I forgive and love and don't think the effort would
have been made were it not for that experience and the knowledge that that's all
that really matters. I look after others well being at least as much as my own
and I actually love doing it
your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
I was a
Christian then and I am now. However, it is easier to keep the faith since that
incident and know God is with me, even when I don't understand stuff. Nothing
could convince me there is no God as a result of that incident.
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
wonderful, I wouldn't have missed it for the world. I would like people to
stop telling people like me that it was the result of oxygen deficiency to the
brain, etc., giving me some kind of high. Oxygen deficiency doesn't give a 7
year old the understandings of a 40 year old.
questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes I think
there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?
I think you did just fine.