Judy G NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I was brought to the ER by ambulance.  While in the emergency room I was awake part of the time and remember being stuck with more needles than anyone should ever be stuck with.  The doctors now tell me that my skin was grey, my heart rate was 20, my blood sugar was too high to read and that they needed to put an IV in my neck with a temporary pacemaker or I would die.  I told them do whatever they needed to do.  That's when every got really far off in a distance.  I could hear voices, but they were so far away. 

There wasn't just one light.  There was a black tunnel-shaped hole with hundreds of white lights literally flying from the tunnel and coming at me, trying to pull me in.  The pull was extremely strong.  I started going toward the lights.  Then something went off in my brain and I mentally blinked my eyes to see if the lights and tunnel would go away.  They didn't go, the pull got stronger.  I was terrified.  I yelled "NO......I'm not ready.... Go away". 

The next thing I remember was waking up on the table in the emergency room crying from fear.  The doctors started apologizing to me for hurting me because of the tears.  I couldn't tell them that I didn't feel any pain, I was afraid of the lights and tunnel.  I know what that means and I'm not done with my life yet. According to the doctors, for all intents and purposes, I should not have made it and it was incredible how fast I'm bouncing back.  I was actually released from the hospital the next day.  But that memory will be with me forever.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     Stomach Virus/elevated blood sugar (unreadable)/heart rate of 20, grey skin

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    Mentally, I knew exactly what was happening when the voices faded into the distance and eventually disappeared.  As far a consciousness physically, I don't remember what the doctors did.  I didn't see it.  All I could see were the tunnel and lights.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            Mentally, I knew exactly what was happening when the voices faded into the distance and eventually disappeared.  As far a consciousness physically, I don't remember what the doctors did.  I didn't see it.  All I could see were the tunnel and lights.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     The tunnel and lights flying towards me, pulling me toward the tunnel were very real, very clear.  The tunnel was way off in the distance.  The lights were pulling me towards the tunnel.  I remember the lights looking like stars.  Brighter than I've ever seen.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Uncertain      There was no sound at that point.  The voices of the doctors and staff had disappeared.  It was just me, the tunnel and the lights.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Calmness at first, then total fear.  I just wanted to go back to the ER and live.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No       The tunnel was distant.

Did you see a light?           Yes     The tunnel and lights flying towards me, pulling me toward the tunnel were very real, very clear.  The tunnel was way off in the distance.  The lights were pulling me towards the tunnel.  I remember the lights looking like stars.  Brighter than I've ever seen.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain      Being nowhere with a tunnel and the flying bright lights.  There WAS nothing else at that point.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            Mentally, I knew exactly what was happening when the voices faded into the distance and eventually disappeared.  The lights were there to draw me into the tunnel and pass on.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     About 6-8 hours later.  They started crying with me because they all believe that I was there and say that the lights were my deceased friends and relatives coming to lead me to my final destination.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes            Only from movies.  I knew what the tunnel and lights meant.  That's why I was afraid.  I am NOT ready to leave this world.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    There is NO question in my mind about that event.  It was more real that I could ever have imagined.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?   

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real            There is NO question in my mind about that event.  It was more real that I could ever have imagined.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I'm much closer to my family and now cherish every moment with them.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No            I've always believed in God and continue to thank him and pray for others who are in pain.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I may not have gone as far toward the tunnel as others have, but the entire experience scared me beyond belief.  I've seen stuff like this in movies, but I always thought it was just script and that it wasn't based on any facts.  Now that I've been there, there is NO question in my mind at all about the reality of it.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     I feel that I've recounted my experience fully.

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?   I think it was all covered in the questionnaire.