Judi M Probable NDE

edited for clarity by Judy Shea  5/26/11

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION

In my mind's eye, I would see drops of blood. They would fall to the floor. The drops of blood would morph, or turn, into red plants, like poinsettias. The poinsettias would morph into reddish pebbles on the ground. I would then see my feet walking on those reddish pebbles. Then, the ground would look more like just a dirt path. I did not have a sense that I was who I am now ("me.") It felt like I was sort of watching a movie. I never saw myself, except for my feet.  

I would find myself walking to a village that looked like something out of a rural 16th century town (or at least what I would imagine that to be). It was heavily wooded. Not real sunny. There was a stone wall, with capstones, where a few women were talking. There was a dark haired man, dressed in a sort of burlap tunic. Everybody was dark and swarthy with very dark hair. The man would initially have his back to me. When I'd get closer, he would turn to me and smile and say something like, "We've been waiting for you. Welcome back." I'd then be directed to start grinding a type of grain with a mortar and pestle. I'd chat with others at the scene. I didn't feel particularly important - I was not a leader, simply part of a larger group. The working and chatting seemed to last a while. It felt so natural and peaceful. Then, when (in real life,) the treatments would restore my vital signs and the doctors would call my name, I would go into a lighter coma stage, and the man would say, "They are calling for you. You have to go back. We'll be here when you return." And, I'd awaken...at least to flutter my eyes or groan.  

I went through this sequence of visions two or three times over what seemed like the next three days.  I found out later, that I had "crashed" two or three times, and each time that had happened - after receiving a different treatment  - I had come close to death. Subsequently, I had come back to life each time - aroused at least to the point where I could flutter my eyes and groan.

I have to emphasize - I felt that I was a female, but, at the same time, I did not feel like "me" - like the person I am now. I didn't visually see myself as that person, either; I don't know what I looked like. It just felt like I was returning to someplace meaningful, although the scene had no sense of familiarity to me (the person I am now.)  It wasn't a scene out of a movie that I've  been to, and the man didn't look like anyone I know or have ever seen. It could have been a hallucination, I guess, but it was unlike a hallucination in that it was so consistent each time.  

I struggled with several relapses over the next nine months, but since I woke up from that particular coma, I was never able to will myself back to that place again.

That is my story. 

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Yes.     I was in a hospital, in a coma that was result of a life-threatening blood disorder which caused strokes, seizures, and, ultimately, coma. I was given blood transfusions and other blood products and medicines while I was in the coma. I was X-rayed and MRI'd many times, too. My family was called to my bedside because I was expected to die (my organs were failing). 

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No        

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes.     I was in a hospital, in a week-long coma that was result of life-threatening blood disorder which caused strokes, seizures, and, ultimately, coma. I was given blood transfusions and other blood products and medicines while I was in the coma. I was X-rayed and MRI'd many times, too. My family was called to my bedside because I was expected to die (my organs were failing). 

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           Various levels of coma. 

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   It didn't feel like a dream. But it didn't feel like me. I had a sense that I was watching my soul go back to its original home. 

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain       

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Peace, and calm.  And I felt compelled to return to that place. 

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           No 

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No            

Did you see a light?           No        

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes.     Other people. 

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No        

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain.      Without showing consciousness at the time, I heard doctors asking me if I knew who was President. Then they would say, "See, no response." There were times I was able to "see" the doctors, but my family would tell me that my eyes never opened while those doctors were in my room. 

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          Uncertain    

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes      

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No        

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             No        

Did you become aware of future events?       No        

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes    

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?   No        

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes.     I am more open to the idea of reincarnation. 

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No        

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes    

What emotions did you feel following your experience?        I felt briefly that I wanted to go back there. 

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No