Juanita M's NDE
I was shown my newborn baby boy-felt love for him- then I blacked out - I could hear the doctors and nurses talking in echoes - and I felt very cold! The echoes stopped and a terrible very unpleasant shrill but rushing noise filled my ears. The noise frightened me, it was unbearable, and I wanted it to stop - I could not determine what was happening to me. I was "in a dark place" and then became aware that I was in a tunnel lined with multi-fine concentric circles (gray colored) and that my body was moving rapidly down the tunnel feet first (I was aware of my feet (I was barefoot) but they were not solid - more of a filmy nature. My eyes focused on the beautiful golden light at the end of the tunnel where I was headed!
Before I came to the light (I never entered the light!) what I presumed to be an "angel" appeared at my side. By this time the terrible noise in my ears had stopped! "He" had no wings but had shoulder length light brown hair and a plain white gown. I had never seen this being before in my life. I recall now seeing him at my side from waist up only. I do not recall if he "glowed". As I picture him in my mind now, he didn't. We communicated by telepathy only - not in words. I did not ask the angel who he was - I just surrendered to the "experience" whatever would happen next. The "angel" being showed me a rapid movie of my life me as a little kid playing, then school, adult. Nothing remarkable, no scolding for "sins" I surely had done, or any lessons mentioned I needed to learn -only a very quick look. This quick look at my life didn't seem important, and later as I recalled the whole experience I wondered WHY I was even shown this movie! What was the point? Then the angel asked me, "Would you like to go back or continue to the Light? (I interpreted his words "the Light" as being Heaven and God). You can go there if you choose to!". After he said that I thought about my "difficult" (alcoholic) husband, my 2-1/2 year old firstborn son, Tommy, and the wonderful little baby boy I had just given birth to. There was no hesitation - I told the angel "I want to go back. My husband needs me and I feel so much love for my two little boys who need me as their mother".
Immediately, I was aware of being back in the world, waking up full of energy
and a most wonderful inexpressible feeling of joy. I remember trying to raise
myself up off the bed - full of energy as I told the nurse (who was smiling and
pushing me back down )"I feel so good!" The nurse replied, "You feel so good
because we are putting blood back into you. Look at your arm" and then I saw
that I was receiving a transfusion. "We almost lost you" she said, and doctor
verified that they had endeavored to resuscitate me and were successful as I was
"gone" for a few minutes. The wonderful feeling soon left but not the experience
of being "somewhere near the next world". This was not a dream, a "real"
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes I had just given birth to my second child and the doctor laid him on my belly for me to see - a wonderful loving experience! Then I blacked out - doctor had cut the episiotomy, and told me later that he had "unknowingly cut a vein" - they had trouble finding it and I bled internally - and that they "almost lost me from hemorrhaging". My husband heard the code blue alarm, then nurses & techs running to room with equipment to get my heart going again and blood transfusions.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? From the time I met the "angel being".
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
From the time I met the "angel being".
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes I cannot describe normally the appearance of the light I was approaching. It was golden, so very bright, but it didn't hurt my eyes as looking up at the sun would! There was some transparency to myself and the angel.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Yes My ears were super-sensitive to the rushing shrill noise I was subjected to at the beginning of my experience. My thoughts were - "I just can't stand this noise - whatever it is!" I was so relieved when it stopped.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Uncertain
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Fear (of the noise in my ears!) Surprise (appearance of the angel being). Love (thinking of my two little children (one a toddler, one a newborn baby!) Sense of duty to difficult husband (I don't know why I felt this way!).
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Yes Concentric circles in fine lines (dark gray lines in lighter gray tunnel) As I moved feet first along the tunnel the bright light at the end became closer.
Did you see a light? Yes Very very bright and golden yet it didn't hurt my "eyes" looking at it. In my thoughts I perceived the light to be the next world (heaven) where God reigned.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes What I perceived as a "male" angel, appeared at my side in the tunnel. I had never before seen this being. Communication: He showed me rapid movie of my life so far. Then he "said" (telepathy) "Would you like to go back? You can go back if you choose to". That was the only communication I remember.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Yes This part of my experience was unremarkable. I learned nothing from the "rapid review" (only pictures) - I experienced no emotions as the review happened so fast. I watched this brief "movie" unemotionally.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes I "knew" that I was no longer in my body, and that I was in a space "somewhere" that led to "heaven" and God. Time was irrelevant - time never entered my mind.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No I was not aware of any boundary, except while angel being and myself had our conversation I was no longer "moving" along that tunnel and no longer lying down, but sitting up!
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes I saw and communicated (telepathically) with two spirits years later. One was my deceased mother who returned to tell me she loved me, and the other was an unknown female spirit who told me my mother-in-law would die within 4 months and I should tell her son (my husband) and her husband to be kind to her!) My mother-in-law did pass away four months later!
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes I told my husband the same day. He took my "story" seriously and did not laugh at me. I never told my doctor or nurses. I felt they would think I was crazy! I told my mother a week later. She did not think I was "crazy". It was almost 10 years later that I told others, and I chose carefully to whom I told my experience , if I thought they could "understand" the experience and already had a spiritual outlook on life.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real This was definitely a real experience, and I felt even closer to God as I saw Him. I was eager to share this unusual experience with others! It was one of the highlights of my life!
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? A question was answered to my satisfaction. "Is there "life" immediately after death or do we go to "sleep" awaiting the Resurrection? I was also amazed that I had a "choice" to go on to the Heavenly realms or go back to my earthly life.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real I can still "see" in my mind what I experienced! I KNOW there is a hereafter, and that I will one day enter the tunnel again but next time I shall enter the Light! As I grow older (now 70 years old) I think even more about this experience, and that I must spread as much love to others as possible as perhaps my days on Earth may or may not be many more.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain I have always strived to be a loving person. After this experience I perhaps thought more about my spirituality (not religions) and endeavored to perfect myself with others so far as treating others (even strangers) the way I would like to be treated, as the Bible says, "God is Love" and I "knew" that golden light at the end of the drab tunnel was full of God and Love!
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I now believe we don't "sleep" when we die - but go on immediately to the next dimensions. I am also more aware now of "angels" God sends to help us! I feel there are so many man made "beliefs" in the religions. I choose to keep a simple spiritual life - and stay away from the various denominations with all their conflicting rules, regulations and beliefs and often "hate" of each other!
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I've told all I remember!
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes Nothing further to tell. Your questions were thorough! Thanks for the opportunity to share!
Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I feel you covered all aspects of the experience very well!