J.R. M's NDE's

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Experience description: 

I was part of a larger picture, then I sensed the three souls in the ambulance with me, not only their presence, their love, their hearts, their emotions, feelings, senses-physical and mental.  No I'm not a cat, but people who come across my circumstances seem to think that I have nine lives.  I've been shot, ran over by a one ton truck, fractured my skull, operated on various times, and am still walking and talking.  All of these things have happened to me and have been well documented. 

One of my near-death experiences was manifest in an ambulance en route to Lexington Ky.  I had fallen from a three story building and my neck and head were swollen. I felt a lot of pain and then, I felt like I had just woke up in unfamiliar surroundings, until I realized where I was.  The realization I received was combined with sudden awareness of every living soul around me, beginning at my  immediate center and flowing outward/inward.  I was part of a larger picture, I sensed the three souls in the ambulance with me, not only their presence, their love, their hearts, their emotions, feelings, senses both physical and mental.  I heard their thoughts, I felt their caring hands, I looked through each of their eyes, and saw not only their immediate physical future, but their past as well. 

I also noted animals and other souls around me such as;  an angry bus driver in Seattle, a lady killing an annoying spider in Ripley, WV,  a bug hitting a train in Oklahoma.  All of these feelings were felt in a split second, and seemed like an eternity.  I felt love, hate, famine, awe, destruction, revolution, caring, hope and a barrage of other feelings.  What was so funny is;  I realized the purpose of it all.  *I understood the meaning of famine, the purpose of confinement, the glory of opportunity. 

Why doesn't God stop the violence?  Because God didn't start it in the first place. You see when God created us in his own image, he literally gave us the power to choose our own destiny, but not the destiny of others.  I think that when God created man, he did it out of a longing to share works bestowed upon the earth ie... Gods' creation of a flower, or the Sequoia forest, or a humming bird, small miracles that unfold  into master plans that revolve around never ending cycles of self regeneration. 

I think that the world we live in now was created solely by us. Yes we chose all of the hurt, all of the violence, all of the pain and suffering.  We also chose; rewards for our sacrifices, the love and caring, smile of our loved ones, the smell of the roses, the touch of another, the freedom to be free, the wisdom to look ahead, and the fail/safe system so we wouldn't become confused by it all.  I believe that God is our mentor, teacher, guide.  He loves us, and wants to watch us grow. 

He knows we can't walk without skinning our knees, he knows we can't love without the knowledge of hate.  He sees the future when there is no future up ahead.  The end result is a like soul mate to share what he has created.  How wonderful it will be to co-create a butterfly.  To supervise a sunset!!  To feel his warm, loving hands on our back for a job well done!!  Most religions are so naive.  I also believe that in ten lifetimes, one soul could never accumulate enough knowledge to even say ga-ga or goo-goo to the supreme being .  Look at the stars, the endless universe, we see in three dimensions, imagine how many dimensions there really are, just in the physical world. 

As we learn, as we grow, we will be rewarded ten times ten for every forward step, and penalized ten times for every backward step.  I would think that most people would say, "well how will we ever reach our final destination if this is the case? "  With God there is no time/space, only love.  His patience stretches the far reaches of the pluraverse.  Sure, he could say "presto you now know what I know."  Would that accomplish our ultimate goal of companionship?  No!!  Look at our existence, what variables that are tossed in front of us, mere chance?  I think not!!!!  

He helps us by teaching, understanding, and not by interfering unless asked first.  When we finally realize something has fallen into our pathway, by no means of our own, we will be on the path of enlightenment and the road to discovery.  Lets open our eyes and think numbers for example.  Look at how numbers influence our everyday life.  We could not exist without them.  How about music?  Look at all of the messages that are sent by just one song.  Feelings, where would you and I be without feelings? Physical reality, what would life be like if, we could not touch anything?  Perception, now here is a word within itself.  If we teach ourselves using all of these common, everyday planes of existence we will succeed in accelerated advancement and knowledge accumulation.  In short our search for knowledge will grow, by the power of a wisdom.

Perception, when you get out of bed tomorrow morning, before your feet hit the floor, imagine what it would be like if, there were no floor.  Just another person on a life raft, in the middle of the ocean, with no food.  How about the smell of coffee?  All of the simple, everyday things we all take for granted, could be misery to another soul. 

Lets look at the other side of the coin;  What about the pain we feel every morning just getting out of bed, the feet pain associated with broken bones/arthritis and shifting our perception of how another could be worse.  How much we have to be thankful for, and how our lives could possibly become, is the stuff miracles are made of!!  If you believe within your heart that God can heal your sore aching back in the morning, he can, and will!!!  All that it takes is faith.  If we believe that the pain will never subside, it will not. 

Attitude is just a word.  Faith is a way of life.  If every morning the dog brings you your paper, do you have faith he will do it tomorrow?  If we never watch a sunset, does that mean the sun wont set tomorrow?   When we are reunited at his side, armed with the knowledge of untold ages, and perceptions, we can truly appreciate the value of a tree.

 I hope that this helps. L.A.L. J.R.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  No

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  Vivid.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  Maybe in trying to make sense of it socially.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  Several, even some not experienced on the human level.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  No response

Did you see a light?  Yes

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  Yes

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  Yes

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  Yes

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Yes

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  Uncertain

Did you become aware of future events?  Yes

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  yes.

I personally feel these incidents are sort of a fast forward- if you will, into advanced  reality.  In retrospect I have decided, "this time", I will; 

1.  Look after my family, and close personal friends (which I consider family anyway).

2.   Educate myself so that I may train others, even when others are elders in mortal years.

3.  Prove that ALL faiths can work together in harmony, while respecting one an others beliefs. 

4.  Explain Gods' separate/unified meanings for each of us.

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  several

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes

JR's Sessions:
Survival of the Soul  

The soul, essence, manifestation, entity, being.  Different words with the same meaning, different ways of looking at them.  Someone once described it as a never ending wind, blowing to and fro with no where to land and no where to go.  Perception; a simple task of ordering breakfast can become a complicated interaction ie..  four people walk into a Denny's.  All speak French, most speak English, but only one places the order.  From this point forward all English based communication is filtered through this single soul, even when this soul is not directly involved in the subject matter. Taking it to another level, four Americans walk into a French restaurant.  All four will speak, all four will order their own food.  In most cultures aside from American, unity, delegation and simplification of the communication process is a practiced attribute, when dealing with others.  Here is an exercise called, "perceptual thinking"  that helps us focus on new ideas, concentrate on old habits, justify new actions and by developing self-improving techniques of self awareness: 

The next time you change your appearance, the next time you put on a watch, chain or some other ornamental attire, imagine how you would do it, and practice the same if you were left handed (right handed if you're a south paw), one armed, wheelchair bound, quadriplegic, during a bout of depression, anxiety, after an all-nighter of love making, drinking, talking, sleeping, immediately following a crisis, increase in monetary status, or just plain hung over.  All of these states seem to motivate us into an alternative awareness, hindering the "present" decision making process, and require us to maintain complex strategies to enable simple everyday behavior.  By stimulating each of these circumstances compiled with more personal talents and strategies compiled by you,  we become more attuned and can subconsciously accept and understand a lot of the environmentally social conflicts that burden society. 

Those little things that used to bother us become figments of a passing memories no longer requiring immediate attention.  When situations arise our minds create complex data searches dedicated to locating the closest possible scenario that has happened in our past and that matches to our current situation- sometimes creating a feeling of emotional trauma or confusion.  By effectively simulating all of the possible perceptions and different angles and dissecting common behavior patterns, we can create alternative solutions paving neural networks of synapse highways or just get smarter.

When you have a headache, the kids are screaming, the phone is ringing, the rains pouring, and a wasp gets in the house, we won't over-react because we will have already prepared for it by perceptual thinking.  By enjoying what we already have, imagining life without them, or life altered by extenuating circumstances, such as:  a sunroof when it's raining, a wheelchair for a man without arms, a collar for a chicken, or anything else we can imagine, we effectively manipulate our subconscious mind with intertwined pathways from alternative sources linked to common objectives.  So without consciously thinking about our current situation our mind will focus on possible solutions to anticipated behavior patterns giving us; "intuitive" mindsets capable of eliminating the need for crisis management! 

Isn't it weird when we approach a situation requiring immediate adult supervision in an area in which we have no prior experience but are forced into acting? Usually we find the correct solution without outside assistance.

This process of perceptual thinking is an everyday occurrence, we sometimes fail to recognize it.  Practice makes perfect, imagined dreams become reality, if we write it down it will come to pass, why not use our ninety percent brain to accomplish our ten percent lifestyle, and increase and build highways of information.  If we get a thought on our mind or a dream you can't stop thinking about, maybe it is our minds way of telling us that a perpetual search is being established to located a goal.  By perceptual thinking through the situation and imagining every perceptual way of looking at the situation that is troubling or healing us, our minds will accelerate into the computerized database sequential data gatherers that we were created into becoming.  Help yourself, help yourself.  I think that every soul  has a higher self that keeps us in kilter with our current dimension.  When either of these worlds are threatened or intermingled without the adequate support necessary to accommodate accurate translation, without perceptually thinking, catastrophic circumstances could abound in every direction.  or we could just become mute to ourselves. Behavioral managed, focused and productive souls will forge the pathway for a newer, enlightened surroundings.