John D Probable NDE
I do not remember this experience now, but my parents and my cousins remember how I described the experience to them when I was approx 4 years old. On a beach trip, I insisted that every family member play "operation" with me. I asked them to lay down on the floor, and then I went through a long series of motions, moving back and forth between their chest and an imaginary table. At the end of the "operation", I always said something like, "you are all better now". When asked about how I knew how to play operation, I was very matter of fact in saying that "I remembered my operation". My mother said that she was concerned by this answer. and asked what I remembered. I told her that during my operation I went to live with God. She asked more.... what happened when I went to live with God? I told her that God said I was supposed to go back and live with my Mom and Dad for a long time, before I would come back to live with him. My Mom asked if I was scared, and my response was something like... "how could I be scared of God?". I wish I remembered the experience myself, but my Mom's memory of the way I described things is still very clear.
It was shortly after
this that our next door neighbor died of cancer. My mother recalls how
distraught I was that in this case "Randy" went to live with God, but didn't get
to come back to his wife Janice. I insisted that I needed to talk to Janice,
and so my Mother and I visited. My Mother remembers that the message I had to
give to Janice, was that Randy went to live with God and so he was ok.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes As an infant I did not have the words to describe the experience, but my family reports to me that at 3 or 4 years of age, I acted out and described experiences that could only be described as out of body, and near death approaches to heaven.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes Open heart surgery repair of Tetrology of Fallot, heart defect, at 7 months of age.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I don't know.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: I don't know.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? No
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? No
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Uncertain
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt happy and safe.. (or that is how I described the experience to my mother at the time.)
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Uncertain
Did you see a light? Uncertain
Did you meet or see any other beings? Uncertain Only reported that I saw God.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Uncertain
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes Only as a small child acting out an experience i felt to be real.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real I have no reason do doubt what I reported a fact at a very I young age... even though I no longer have the memories.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I do not fear the loss of loved ones.... Since I was a baby, my favorite person has been my grandfather. He is now becoming feeble with old age... at 85 years of age I know I know I won't have him in my life forever. I will miss him every after he is gone, but will not fear his loss. I believe he will be waiting for me when I join him, to live with God.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes