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Experience description: 

What can be said about a near death experience? It is not death it is life.  I experienced one about 6 years ago and am still riding upon the golden soft colors of heaven’s love.  I saw legions of angels bannering the sky and miles of clouds escorting me to the hospital, When I arrived the door became a golden cave of crystal waters pouring upon it’s walls.  When I collapsed into the wheel chair, the door no longer opened into the cave, but swung back into earth.  I saw the doctor’s and nurses and knew to reach and touch the one with the most Light. I took his hand and watched the healing light blazing through his body into mine.  I continued to have visions of God, angels and octaves beyond earth for months.  I could not verbalize speaking with angels, saints nor seeing all I saw.  The auras of all around me was blazing.

Even the store’s were crowded with colors, every can, product showing it’s true color of content of vibrations.   I visited temples of Light within the great mountains of earth.  I saw Mother Theresa within a church as a young girl, beautiful with dark long hair in a wedding gown.  The church was lit with beautiful golden candles and she was being wed to the Holy Spirit.  Becoming more as a great Mother of heaven.  I was then taken by her fire and was blinded by the Light for an entire night.  There is much more to share in time.  But, my greatest joy is for all to understand they are never alone, the great saints, Masters, and angels are present.   Rejoice in the day, the sky, the stars, the rivers running to meet the great and vast oceans of the Divine Mother.  

To return to this octave has been a challenge.  I had to seek angels to close my third eye, the spiritual one that sees so much, for it was very distracting, and I asked for to see only what was necessary for safety.  Daily I ask to be an instrument of that great love of heaven., to offer that cold glass of water in Jesus’ name.  I did also experience the “dark night of the soul” of which St. John of the Cross speaks.  All of heaven is withdrawn, and you go to the deepest pits of hell.  And you are only held by a strand of Light.  It is lonely, despairing, but one must be constant in the hope and faith you will be victorious.  It is a most curious initiation. Being stripped of all identity and desire.  But, after you begin to pass the initiation you feel great compassion for all of life. Not sympathy, that you can save the world, but you are a divine electron in the atom of God and very loved.   And all you say and do is to extend and adore that loving God Presence. 

All around you becomes like a movie in which you are only a player and observer.  My greatest delight are children and the Light they hold, unconditional in their love.  And I am also honored that God trusted me to experience death and hell and gave me the tools, so often forgotten  to pass these tests. To anyone who has had a NDA.  Petition God within and without for balance, guidance and simplify your life with beauty, quiet walks, majestic music.  Fine tune the heart in writing poetry, drawing, creating.  And know life is for rejoicing. Find an open friend to trust your thoughts, and be that pillar of love.  I too remain a student of the all.  Jo

Addendum:  See below

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Yes

the drug they gave me afterwards to get the sulphur out of me, I was also allergic to.  but, I believe I came "down" in levels.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes

Who would believe you?  Although in college I had just finished a NDA study class.  But, the information was too sacred to share. Also, afterwards I could not read nor write for months. Not connected enough to go there. Nor even feel a sense to do so.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I saw clearer than ever, and saw the auras of all in attendence.

           
Was the experience dream like in any way?   No, clearer than if one was coming out of a swimming pool, with water in your eyes, as a magnifying glass.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

I was apart yet connected when watching it all. almost laughing at the drama of my body straining to stay alive. When I knew I wasn't going to die.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           no

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes

            Describe:      Beautiful golden cave, rocks with gentle waters glowing streaming down.

Did you see a light?           Yes, The light was golden.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes

yes, I saw on the way to hospital legions of angels of the band of archangel Michael, a powerful blue protector of all. And later, weeks, was in a huge beautiful temple within the Grand Teton mountains at a conclave of waltzing, celestial music, and joy. the walls and floors where alabastar and white marble. Masters were present in beautiful robes of purple, white and gold.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No, I have no one to convince!

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           Yes

Peace and the softest pastels of Light, beyond measure.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

All time was merging into a floating stream of connectiveness.  No distinct lines of demarcation.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

Yes, that the healing was coming in the form of an intense ray of Light, through the one with the greatest attainment, and I was to touch that person. I did and feltand saw the Light.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes

This is funny, but I saw the door of the hospital become a metal turn style, and it turned so quickly I had no chance to make a choice, it had already been made that I was to return.

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes

I can tell who is calling, who is coming to visit, who is thinking about me.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       No

A greater source already decided that. But, I did see my 4 children as the magnet for that decision.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

Seeing auras clearly. reading person's intents, be it evil or benign.  Clearly seeing Light and darkness around everything and person.  Feeling records of pass events when I go somewhere. Very sensative to all.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

God and angels are closer than one can imagine. And I am a old soul, in that I now remember former lifes, that are only like watching a movie, no big deal.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I blew off most of my friends. And only those who are spiritual with a desire to be love are in my circle.  I am not a snob, but cannot fake the great love that is real. I do work with abused children, and am able to see much more than they imagine, and have been blessed with greater trusts. I also have a sense of sponsorship when I am defending a child, that all of heaven is there.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

My children are still concerned for the miles I went far away. But know I am spiritual and they respect that. Those who have heard some of my story have been elevated to share their deepest gleanings of the meaning of God. A renowned Rimpache from Tibet stayed with us for two weeks, a consultant to the Dalai Lama, and he understood all I said. I feel as though many barriers were shattered in a fast form. ha.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  A very dark night of soul.  And all my senses on overload. So, was forced to quit the Master's program, not work, retreat to home, not socialize. Continue to go far into my heart and return to this octave slowly.....

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      the fear my children had that I was not going to live. The best is that song, prose and beauty continue to pour from my heart.  And i know I have a greater purpose.  One of the person I saw, I asked why, and was told it was so I would not be late for my graduation. It was in a beautiful banquet room.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        That all should respect those who have crossed over, and not prod them to reveal what they should not for now. Only because much of it is sacred and is to be respected.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Uncertain

I could go on for chapters on the follow up after the experience, as it was extended for months of spiritual experiences

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    Perhaps ask how long did it take before the person told anyone.

Addendum:

Greetings! Isn't it curious how we all are students?  I regret most folks don't travel out of the circle of the familiar. Before my NDE, I was forever seeking hidden messages and meaning into the great religions.  I knew even at age 12 there was more. I read the Tibetan Book of the Dead, all of Edgar Cayce, and the Upanishads before age 13.  It was like I saw the current flux of info on religion and it was only 1% of the real deal!  I remember as a youth going into large stores, and leaving my body and waiting in the furthest corner, watching all go on. I was still able to function, but it was a way of coping with all around me.  I once, later in life was on a bus at New Years from Las Vegas. A most curious and heavy place, drunk, hookers, pot smokers sharing the ride. I sat in front of a young mother and two children from Central America, farm workers, clothed in light clothing, coughing and weary. I turned and said in Spanish, I have so much food, a pillow and a blanket, would t

     One thing in the NDE, was for the week afterwards, I had to battle with dark forces, wolves trying to maul me, storms of unreasonable measure, so apparent it was "real"  I just kept calling to the Master of Light, and an explosion would move the forces away. I was being taken to a Sun behind our Sun, where dwells the Light of Alpha and Omega.  It was extremely painful, climbing this white ladder.  But, when I finally reached the brilliant white Light of that Sun, after about 18 hours of intense battling, I saw the brilliance of a God unnamed.  I returned able to decipher the meaning behind many words, like emotion, being energy in motion. Mary being Mother Ray, attunement. At one with.  And felt these were ancient intonations that created an intense Light ray of God, as a laser beam.  Also, I remembered in ancient civilizations pass when there were great temples of Light, with altars in the center of unfed flames. And there were priest of the sacred f

     I work with troubled youth and teens, unpaid, they just seem to forever arrive.  But, I can clearly see if they have been abused, neglected etc. or are lying.  They know they are under the spotlight. ha. But, in my assessments, seeing auras etc. it is not critical. Imagine yourself peering upon a beautiful flower, sunset etc. You do not feel you have to criticize it, categorize it. it just is.  And that's how I see an aura.  If someone is deep, as an intense drug abuser, I will see a red orange muddy brown. And also see beyond that to a pink, yellow and white.  I always ask to hold the healing presence of the angels for anyone I see.  I believe I see these things, that I can "make the calls" to the angels. Not to send critical, demeaning thoughts.  I do feel like a Saint. Not from my efforts nor any great achievements. But, a certain office that I am to hold.  I am not the office, but the participant in a greater service only by God's grace.

Onward, and thank you for your simple support. Much of this I have never shared. But, for this juncture, it is fine with me.  As a NDE "expert" you seem opened to more connecting others that otherwise would be alone upon a boat without a sail.  Stay humble by simplicity and I assure you God will fill that Tao of a bowl, each time you empty it, and rinse it with gratitude, praise and an understanding that you are not the bowl, only one holding it for a time and a time and a half,  by God's grace.

Lovingly, I too remain a student, more than you can imagine.  But, isn't discovery so joyous