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Jewel H's NDE

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EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

            Was at the beach, body surfing for about 30 minutes.  I was exhausted because the surf was very rough and there was a very strong undertow.  The waves were getting larger but I couldn't get out of the water because of the undertow.  I dove under a huge wave hoping that it would carry me to shore.  Inside the wave was a tremendous wall of water that hurled me around like clothes in a washing machine.  I had absolutely no control of my body as the water slammed me into the ocean floor, I didn't know where the water surface was.  The force of the water had knocked all of the air out of my lungs, so I decided that I was not going to make it.  At this thought a voice in my head said that all who have died have lived.  So I began to relax and realized that I didn't need to breathe anymore and the pain of my lungs sucking in water had stopped.  I began to feel very warm and sleepy and was floating in a grey space.  I was overwhelmed with a wonderful sense of unconditional love and such a sense of wholeness, being connected to everything, everything being equal to everything else.  Then I was floating just below the waves as a point of consciousness.  I felt super-aware and could see farther and think faster.  Then I thought about how my father, who was on the shore, would react to my death.  Suddenly, I was above the water surface looking at my father who was scanning the water to see what had happened to me.  I knew that he would continue his life just fine without me and that he would get over it.  Then I was below that surface again and wondered when my life would flash before me.  I felt that there was an invisible someone with me.  It was communicated to me a vision of the activities of my short life.  It was like it was all in a book with pages flipping by except that the pictures were like little movies.  It was a disappointing movie as I was only 17 at the time.

I felt that I had not accomplished what I had come for in this life.  It was communicated to me that if I chose to leave my life at this point that I would have to come back and do this all over again.  This invisible someone did not have any judgment to offer and I felt that the judgment would come from myself.  In fact, I have come to the conclusion that this was only myself, a higher version of myself.  At some point I asked what the purpose of life was and the answer I received was "to help other people".  Then I began to hear wonderful music, not like any that I have heard in life, I could not identify the instruments or the melody.  Next I could hear some far-off school bells, the sound of which was luring me off to the right and into another dimension from which there would be no turning back.  I did not hesitate at this barrier, I had no regrets of leaving anything behind from my life.  Without warning I was suddenly and violently sucked down toward my body, still face down on the ocean floor.  On the way down I was told "It's not your time yet".  Once I was back in my body I still had no idea where the surface of the water was.  Then I actually felt a pair of physical hands, one under each foot, push me to the surface, where I was able to stand up in chest deep water.  How very angry I was!  I felt so cheated.  I did not want to leave that place to come back to this life.  It took me many years to finally get over that anger and forgive God for sending me back to my life.  How silly, huh?  It was never my life in the first place, he was the one who gave this life.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain     

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     drowning in the ocean

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    after emerging from the grey space and being up at the water surface.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            after emerging from the grey space and being up at the water surface.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     colors more vivid and brighter.  didn't notice being able to see through anything, but I was in the ocean.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Uncertain      I experienced incredible music and the sound of school bells.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Experienced great unconditional love and the feeling that we are constantly cared for in our lives.  The feeling of being connected with all things and that nothing is more important than anything else.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     Grey space, were it was very warm and in which I wanted to go to sleep.

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     This "being" was communicating mentally with me and was unseen.  I also think that it was only myself.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes     Just like flipping through the pages of a cheap magazine and it was done, nothing outstanding, I was only 17.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No      

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     I was not allowed to go farther.  It was just a sense of a barrier nothing visible.  Certainly I would not be here if I had chosen to cross it.

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     It was a few years before I told anyone about it, and the reaction was that they didn't know what to make of it.  Some people are interested in it and it gives them a sense of not fearing death.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    It took me a few years to figure out what exactly had happened to me.  I remember that right after I staggered to the shore I was unable to answer people asking me even if I was ok or not.  I couldn't respond verbally for a few hours.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?   

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    I learned that we are all involved in love and are all connected in that love.  We are all constantly cared for.  God cannot forget a part of himself.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     Certainly it is in the best interest of yourself and everyone you meet to be the most kindest and courteous that you can be.  Treat everyone as you would like to be treated.  We meet simply another version of ourselves everyday.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?           
Yes     I used to think that I did not believe in God at that time.  Currently I am a  Hindu monk.  There is nothing more important in our lives than learning not to resist God.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        no.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     pretty much.

 

First Sharing

I feel that it is important to share these kinds of experiences with others.  Certainly after my experience it took me a long time to figure out what had happened to me.

It was late summer and I was swimming in the ocean at Zuma Beach California.  There was a strong rip tide and I was very tired and wanted to swim to  shore.  The undertow was so strong that I could not get to shore so I turned around to face the next wave in hope that it would carry me to shore.  It was a VERY big wave but I dove under it.  I  the midst of this wave was a very strong current which spun me around like a rag doll in a washing machine then slammed me face down on the ocean floor.  There was no air left in my lungs and my lungs were spasmming and taking in water.  At this point I knew that I would not make it, then I heard "all who have died have lived" and I found that I didn't need to breathe at all. 

I began to feel very warm and sleepy.  I was in this gray space and felt so much love and peace and a wonderful sense of wholeness that is hard to put into words. It is a feeling that cannot be experienced while in a body, the body has too many limitations.  Then I was floating just under the surface of the waves.  I was simply a point of consciousness, I did not have arms or legs.  I was aware of the waves rolling back and forth above me and how the colors of the water were florescent in appearance.  I remember that I was able to experience my own thoughts clearer and faster. The waves appeared to have more dimension to them.  

Then I thought about my father and how my death would effect him.  Suddenly I was above the surface of the waves and I was looking at my father scanning the water for me, hands on hips.  I knew that he would be ok without me and that he would get over it.  Then I was below the surface again and had the thought that I should see my life review. 

All of a sudden there was a book of my life before me (in my case a magazine, I was only 17) with scenes of my short life on each page, but the pictures moved like a little movie.  The only thing that I can remember seeing is a birthday party when I turned eight years old.  What significance this had, I don't know.  Afterwards I felt that I hadn't accomplished what I had come to earth for, although I still don't know what that is, and didn't then. I did ask what the purpose of life was and I heard "to help other people." The voice in my head said that if I chose to stay and not go back to my life that I would just have to come back in another life and do it all again.  THAT shocked me, because at that time I was unaware of past lives.  I could hear beautiful music that sounded sort of like a hum or like a vibration of some kind.  Indescribable.  It was so intoxicating, it was irresistible and was drawing me away from my life.  Then I heard what sounded like a school bell off to my right and that was drawing me further into another dimension, a point of no return like I cared!  All of a sudden I heard the voice in my head say "it's not your time yet!"  and I was violently sucked down into my body, which of course was still face down in the water under the waves.  I felt two hands, one under each foot and I was pushed up to the surface by these two hands.  I stood up in chest deep water, ALONE!  There was absolutely no one out in the water but me.  I cannot tell you how angry I was at being back in my body, I was so pissed.  For about two hours after that I could not respond to people talking to me, I just couldn't speak.  I had no idea until later what had really happened to me.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain      some of it is and some of it isn't.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     drowning

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    Probably when I was under the waves and the water was so intense visually.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            Probably when I was under the waves and the water was so intense visually.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     see question 5

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Uncertain      I heard only the voice in my head, not the sound of waves or anything.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            profound peace, feeling of unity of all things, feelings of everything in the universe being taken care of.  Unending love.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     I was in a gray space that was filled with peace and love. see question 12

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes     see question 3

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     see question 3

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Uncertain      I was  aware of past lives more than before.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     It was several years and my family did not know what to make of it, they probably thought that it was a dream.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No     

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I was confused and couldn't figure out what had happened.  I had never heard of a near death experience, and I can't remember how I discovered what had actually happened.  Maybe it was through an Edgar Cayce book.  Surely I no longer had a fear of death, that's for sure!

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    see question 3

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real            Surely, when I see the experiences of others, my NDE was not really that !

 profound or detailed.  I am, however so grateful to have had that experience.  It made me realize how important it is to be kind to each other and how that power of love and peace can exist on earth, we have access to it!  And how death is not the end of consciousness, we just keep experiencing.  It's like when we go to another room we don't just stop existing, there is always more.  We all come from the same place so why pretend that we are all so different and that we each deserve more than another.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     More aware of wanting to be kind to others.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?           
Yes     When I was 17 I was going through a phase where I didn't think that there was a God.  Now of course I know that there is a God and that we are all part of what God is.  We represent God when we are loving and kind to others.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No       no

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        God Bless All His children and all who think they are not.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes    

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?   no, God bless you.