Jewel H's NDE
Was at the beach, body surfing for about 30 minutes. I was exhausted because the surf was very rough and there was a very strong undertow. The waves were getting larger but I couldn't get out of the water because of the undertow. I dove under a huge wave hoping that it would carry me to shore. Inside the wave was a tremendous wall of water that hurled me around like clothes in a washing machine. I had absolutely no control of my body as the water slammed me into the ocean floor, I didn't know where the water surface was. The force of the water had knocked all of the air out of my lungs, so I decided that I was not going to make it. At this thought a voice in my head said that all who have died have lived. So I began to relax and realized that I didn't need to breathe anymore and the pain of my lungs sucking in water had stopped. I began to feel very warm and sleepy and was floating in a grey space. I was overwhelmed with a wonderful sense of unconditional love and such a sense of wholeness, being connected to everything, everything being equal to everything else. Then I was floating just below the waves as a point of consciousness. I felt super-aware and could see farther and think faster. Then I thought about how my father, who was on the shore, would react to my death. Suddenly, I was above the water surface looking at my father who was scanning the water to see what had happened to me. I knew that he would continue his life just fine without me and that he would get over it. Then I was below that surface again and wondered when my life would flash before me. I felt that there was an invisible someone with me. It was communicated to me a vision of the activities of my short life. It was like it was all in a book with pages flipping by except that the pictures were like little movies. It was a disappointing movie as I was only 17 at the time.
I feel that it is important to share these kinds of experiences with others. Certainly after my experience it took me a long time to figure out what had happened to me.
It was late summer and I was swimming in the ocean at Zuma Beach California. There was a strong rip tide and I was very tired and wanted to swim to shore. The undertow was so strong that I could not get to shore so I turned around to face the next wave in hope that it would carry me to shore. It was a VERY big wave but I dove under it. I the midst of this wave was a very strong current which spun me around like a rag doll in a washing machine then slammed me face down on the ocean floor. There was no air left in my lungs and my lungs were spasmming and taking in water. At this point I knew that I would not make it, then I heard "all who have died have lived" and I found that I didn't need to breathe at all.
I began to feel very warm and sleepy. I was in this gray space and felt so much love and peace and a wonderful sense of wholeness that is hard to put into words. It is a feeling that cannot be experienced while in a body, the body has too many limitations. Then I was floating just under the surface of the waves. I was simply a point of consciousness, I did not have arms or legs. I was aware of the waves rolling back and forth above me and how the colors of the water were florescent in appearance. I remember that I was able to experience my own thoughts clearer and faster. The waves appeared to have more dimension to them.
Then I thought about my father and how my death would effect him. Suddenly I was above the surface of the waves and I was looking at my father scanning the water for me, hands on hips. I knew that he would be ok without me and that he would get over it. Then I was below the surface again and had the thought that I should see my life review.
All of a sudden there
was a book of my life before me (in my case a magazine, I was only 17) with
scenes of my short life on each page, but the pictures moved like a little
movie. The only thing that I can remember seeing is a birthday party when I
turned eight years old. What significance this had, I don't know. Afterwards I
felt that I hadn't accomplished what I had come to earth for, although I still
don't know what that is, and didn't then. I did ask what the purpose of life was
and I heard "to help other people." The voice in my head said that if I chose to
stay and not go back to my life that I would just have to come back in another
life and do it all again. THAT shocked me, because at that time I was unaware
of past lives. I could hear beautiful music that sounded sort of like a hum or
like a vibration of some kind. Indescribable. It was so intoxicating, it was
irresistible and was drawing me away from my life. Then I heard what sounded
like a school bell off to my right and that was drawing me further into another
dimension, a point of no return like I cared! All of a sudden I heard the voice
in my head say "it's not your time yet!" and I was violently sucked down into
my body, which of course was still face down in the water under the waves. I
felt two hands, one under each foot and I was pushed up to the surface by these
two hands. I stood up in chest deep water, ALONE! There was absolutely no one
out in the water but me. I cannot tell you how angry I was at being back in my
body, I was so pissed. For about two hours after that I could not respond to
people talking to me, I just couldn't speak. I had no idea until later what had
really happened to me.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain some of it is and some of it isn't.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes drowning
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Probably when I was under the waves and the water was so intense visually.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: Probably when I was under the waves and the water was so intense visually.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes see question 5
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Uncertain I heard only the voice in my head, not the sound of waves or anything.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? profound peace, feeling of unity of all things, feelings of everything in the universe being taken care of. Unending love.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Yes I was in a gray space that was filled with peace and love. see question 12
Did you see a light? No
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Yes see question 3
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes see question 3
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain I was aware of past lives more than before.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes It was several years and my family did not know what to make of it, they probably thought that it was a dream.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real I was confused and couldn't figure out what had happened. I had never heard of a near death experience, and I can't remember how I discovered what had actually happened. Maybe it was through an Edgar Cayce book. Surely I no longer had a fear of death, that's for sure!
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? see question 3
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real Surely, when I see the experiences of others, my NDE was not really that !