Jenneane E NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I was transferred from a private birthing room to the emergency room after the staff noticed that my baby might require her stomach and lungs to be cleaned because she might have meconium aspiration syndrome. I was worried about my baby at that point, hoping she would be alright. I felt weak and I remember looking out the big window which seemed opaque. The colors in the room began to slowly fade to black and white. I had never seen the world in black and white before and I felt like it was surreal, I had a flashback like I was watching a war movie and I saw a soldier getting wounded and dying and a bright light came and wiped out the whole image.  Then I realized that it was me now dying. I guess I had a flashback of my previous life and I thought it was strange that I had been a man and a soldier. I have always had a great fear of war and death. The black and white images reversed and the light became dark and the dark became bright and then the powerful bright light got stronger and stronger. I felt the bright light pass through my body and it was the most powerful unconditional love. I was in so much fear in the beginning and I felt really sad that I might not be able to ever get to see my baby. I hadn't even seen her face yet. Then all of my fears vanished and the memories of my life on Earth were dissolved and I was calm and peaceful and I felt no need to go back to my life on Earth. I liked being where I was. I felt like I was loved and at home just being there. But then I sensed I had been given some medication and I watched the bright light fade, the images reversed to their original black and white and then I saw the color in the room gradually fade up again. I was back.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Yes  Yes I was in labor and giving birth to my eldest daughter. It seemed like I was in labor for quite some time and I was past my due date. I had been sent home from the hospital twice because I wasn't dilated yet. They gave me some sleeping pills after the 2nd day because I hadn't had any sleep for 2 days. The sleeping pills did help me sleep and I still woke up to breathe through the labor pains. I went to the hospital for the 3rd and final time and I was beginning to dilate. A few hours later, they said I was ready to have the baby and they broke my water. The water was light brown in color and contained my daughter's first bowel movement so they said they had to move me to emergency as a precaution. I was really exhausted after 3 days of labor. I had an episiotomy and I may have lost quite a bit of blood during the birth because my blood pressure dropped. I heard the nurse say that my blood pressure was really low. I heard the staff scrambling to try to open the locked cabinets in the emergency room but no one could find the keys to the cabinets. Then my near death experience started and I thought I was awake and looking out the window the entire time. However, the people who were there with me said I had passed out during that time. It took me quite awhile to believe them but eventually I agreed that I must have gone unconscious. I remember medical staff giving me some medicine and it brought me back to consciousness and I was amazed that there was a medicine that could work that fast and bring someone back to life. I had no medication except for a local for the episiotomy. I had natural childbirth.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No     I had a spiritual experience when I was 8 and I was fully conscious and standing but the room suddenly blacked out and it was like I was watching a movie. I saw my Grandmother alone on a dark beach and I felt scared and then the room faded back to light and normal. I begged my Grandmother not to go. My Grandparents went to Jamaica on vacation and my Grandfather was killed in a car accident when some locals hit his taxi. I has foreseen the future in a way.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    When I saw the light getting brighter, I associated the bright light with being in the presence of God and after the unconditional love of the light passed through my body, I definitely knew that I was with God. He could hear my thoughts about being sad that I wouldn't get to see my daughter or be there to take care of her and that is why I thought He was sending me back. I never heard him speak and I never saw a human form but I knew that He could hear my thoughts.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   I seemed to be aware that I was dying because I was familiar with seeing the bright light from a previous life. I recognized the process as one I had been through before. It seemed that I already knew God or what I call God the Creator. I was going through a range of emotions like when I got hit by a car at 13 and all of the events seemed to be in slow motion because of shock. It seems like time takes on a different dimension in terms of the body coping with shock.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   My vision at first was like an observer. It is kind of like watching a movie on a screen. It felt like I was sitting like a person would be sitting in a theater watching events but being removed from them. But then at some point when the light got brighter, my feelings seemed to become amplified. Then I felt like I was directly a participant in the movie I was watching. I guess it is kind of difficult to explain that part of it.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   The last thing I heard on Earth was that my blood pressure had dropped. I did not hear anything that I recall during my near death experience. It was all visual. H When I had some spiritual experiences happening to me in March 2009, my hearing changed. I had lots of pain for no reason. I went to the Doctor and she said I was perfectly healthy. I was in a lot of pain. I met a spiritual person at the same time and he healed my ears. I have to always try to unplug my ears now. I have heard spiritual ascension can affect the body.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   Yes   I felt like the light came toward me. I did not feel like my body traveled anywhere. I felt like I was in the room the whole time but awake. When I think about it though, I must have been passed out because everyone else in the room would have experienced everything I did too. They said I was just laying there so I have to believe that they didn't see the bright light too.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   I felt fear and anxiety. It was almost on the level of terror especially since I seemed to be right in the middle of a war. then the bright light came and wiped out the war images and that was a relief. I lost a sense of time and it did seem to be more emotional changes going on. The bright light coming towards me and then passing through me was a strong feeling of unconditional love. I am not sure if that exists here on Earth except maybe in the bond humans and pets can form.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes   The light reminded me of the sun except there seemed to be no sensation of heat or cold. The sun generates heat and this light was similar to the bright light of the sun but my pupils did not seem to have to dilate. It wasn't a blinding kind of light like the sun but it was more diffuse but in my mind I thought it represented a great deal of power. Being in the presence of a powerful love energy which I labeled as God for lack of a better term. I think the powerful love energy does not seem to possess human qualities. I find a strong distinction with the gods with human characteristics as distinct and separate beings. His light is bright in terms of representing a powerful love force. It is an energy source that could conduct like electricity. I can feel the energy radiating out of some people here on Earth and I can be filled up with the energy here on Earth and I can radiate the energy out in the form of positive feelings/energy.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Yes a powerful energy. I have never heard his voice but I see things visually.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   Yes   I just realized about the vision of the soldier in the war getting killed while I was having my near death experience. I have always been terrified of war. I have never been in a war during my lifetime here. I have only seen it on TV, etc. I have had dreams that I was a soldier fighting in a war. If a war did breakout, I would run out of terror. I am not afraid of death anymore but I still am fearful of war. I had no scenes from my past in this life play out.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
It seemed like I was there but maybe floating. I seemed to be waiting and the light was diffuse. I could hear my thoughts in my head and I knew that God was listening to my concerns. I felt calm that He was hearing my concerns about my baby but then my memory of my life and everything I knew about Earth was wiped away and forgotten. When I came back here then my memory of my life and baby etc returned as the color in the room faded back up. I don't understand why we lose the memory at birth and I don't understand why I still remember being in Heaven for lack of a better word. If a near death experience is like birth then why do we retain the memory of one but not the other. I have heard that some children remember their past life up until about age 4 and then they forget.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time is only a reality on Earth because we have the sun rise and set and days are measured in 24 hour increments. Out in space or in Heaven, their is no sense of time as we know it on Earth. The Alpha and the Omega is referring to the beginning and the end. Time seems to have no meaning because time is not needed in the other dimension.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about myself or others
I did not understand why my thoughts would manifest afterwards. Everything I would think of would appear and it concerned me so I made a promise to myself that I would keep positive thoughts and images because I learned that our thoughts are powerful either negative or positive.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   Uncertain
It seemed like I wasn't there for a long time. I would be curious to find out the actual time it took for me to be passed out during that time. I think it was a short period of time. Traumatic or overwhelming events tend to make the real time events go in slow motion. Even my wedding day seemed to be a kind of surreal blur of events.

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life
My motivation for returning to Earth in the beginning of my light experience was the overwhelming love and need to be with my baby. I forgot all about coming back to Earth and I am not sure if I was sent back or if it was the medicine that brought me back. I believe the medication was instrumental in my coming back. I am not sure if it was because of my conscious decision.

Did scenes from the future come to you?  Scenes from my personal future 
Yes in a way. One day I was driving down the freeway on a clear sunny morning and I thought that it would be nice to see a rainbow. At 5 PM that day, I came back to the same spot where I had been thinking of the rainbow and there it was in the sky. It was a coincidence but I knew without a doubt that God heard me and was showing me that He was still there. I am always not wanting to stop feeling Him around me. I miss Him. After that day, anytime I was really sad and going through some hard times, I would see a rainbow and tell him thanks for the peace and calm. I knew without a doubt everything would turn out fine and I didn't have to worry and that was peaceful and comforting to me. His love showing up in my life makes me cry.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes   Yes I definitely believe that there is life after death and reincarnation. I believe that we are here to learn about spirituality. I am not sure why we lose this memory at birth. It must be for us to learn lessons and it is critical for our survival on Earth. The powerful positive energy is healthy for us and the Earth. The love energy carries power which can heal and grow plants for example. Life is an energy which does not die. Positive love energy and negative hate energy within us allow us to choose because we have freewill.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   Yes I believe the powerful love energy exists and is in all of us or rather we can be filled with that energy from the source. He is a pure form of love. Plants and animals can sense the positive energy and I can sense it. It is what makes the planet survive. I am afraid that people do not understand this and they follow human gods. I can tell the difference between a human god and the real God because I was there. I have seen the past from the beginning of man to the present time. Life is very simple. There is love and hate. The way to recognize God is by love. I believe that near death experiences should be listened to and learned from because I believe it holds the truths to our existence. We can learn a great deal from one another. I am glad to share my experiences because I feel a great overwhelming need to share spirituality with everyone. I love God deeply and I want to honor and defend Him. I get upset when people blame Him for things. They don't realize that the negative energy felt by themselves and others is a cause and effect. God put the world into motion but we control ourselves. He is always there for love but we are here to learn. When we love ourselves deeply like He does then we will understand that He lives in us. This world is a beautiful place. I love the Earth as a gift to us from God. I hope we don't destroy it and each other with hate energy.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   Yes   I have always seemed to understand things from the past and I feel like I may have some residual memory from the past passed down through my DNA. It is the same condition seen as the instinct in animals for behavior which seems to be known instinctively and not learned. That is the memory DNA passed down from the parents. I am only becoming aware of a past life recently. I believe I was a male soldier in a past life. I have had dreams of being on a tile roof with a rifle so I must have lived in a time when there were rifles. I tend to believe that I had a past life because of the emotions I carry with the dream. I am terrified of war so that leads me to believe I have a memory associated with a negative thing that happened. Our unconscious mind holds information that our conscious mind interferes with. Having a near death experience allows the unconscious mind to be accessed and once the conscious mind is not blocking our unconscious mind, we are able to see the truth more clearly. It is like having the third eye awakened or a spiritual awakening. We have Karma we carry with us but deep hypnosis may be similar to accessing the unconscious mind.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   I believe in the oneness that I share with other spiritual people. I feel the God energy radiating out of them and we have a common understanding of the positive love energy of God. It overtakes my body physically in the form of goose bumps or chills when it is not a result of a temperature change that is similar to how the skin reacts to cold. I still feel at oneness with God and I will never lose that. We humans live in duality here on Earth but we are not used to that on the other side. We are naturally supposed to live in love and harmony but the negative side of us prevents that when greed, lust and the other seven deadly sins overtake our seven virtues. Their is an invisible energy that most of us cannot see visually. Some spiritual people can see auras around people and can heal them. I can only feel negative and positive energy. I cannot see it. I am sad that people live selfishly and negatively because it damages everything. I hope that with more and more spiritual awakening among people that the love will flow again like it did in the Garden of Eden. Man destroys himself sometimes with negative feelings and thoughts. True love is the most powerful energy and I could only image how beautiful the planet used to be. We are able to heal ourselves with our positive thoughts.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   Yes   My life seemed to change so much. I had so much negative energy around me in my life and I recognized it and fear had always held me back to change my circumstances but I learned that I needed to surround myself with positive energy and positive people and I did start a change but I still got into terribly bad situations because of my caring and helpful nature. I learned that I needed to avoid negative hurtful people for my own survival and start to recognize the patterns early on. I still have trouble with relationships. I hope to get stronger. I believe God was trying to reach out to me so much with love to comfort me. I believe He saw my pain and made me realize that He was there in ways that seemed unexplainable.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   Yes   My life seemed to change so much. I had so much negative energy around me in my life and I recognized it and fear had always held me back to change my circumstances but I learned that I needed to surround myself with positive energy and positive people and I did start a change but I still got into terribly bad situations because of my caring and helpful nature. I learned that I needed to avoid negative hurtful people for my own survival and start to recognize the patterns early on. I still have trouble with relationships. I hope to get stronger. I believe God was trying to reach out to me so much with love to comfort me. I believe He saw my pain and made me realize that He was there in ways that seemed unexplainable.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   Powerful unconditional love and it is a feeling of just knowing what it is. I felt like I was a sinner and I was amazed that He would show me love like that despite my mistakes in life that may have hurt others or myself. I listen to a Christian person and I am amazed that some of their words describe God exactly and it makes me cry every time.

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   Uncertain   I feel like my experience with God has never ended. I thought that my near death experience was a one time encounter with God and I became a confirmed believer instantly I had no doubt of His existence anymore. I was a skeptic but a seeker. I always need proof for me to believe strongly in something and I got my proof. It felt like a big burden was lifted from me. I have been sent continuous messages of His presence so He has never just stayed in Heaven or is separate from me. He merged into me permanently and I am able to see His presence by symbolic things like rainbows, music, people, and numbers.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   I understand how we were created and all the dynamics of the Earth from the beginning of mankind. If I were to relay this knowledge to people then they may not believe it but in my research of which I have a gift, I have found many proofs to support what I have seen. I wish I could share this information with everyone because it could have impact on those who care. Our past is so important to know and especially to know the truth. The past repeats itself and I know the past so well and I am afraid that if everyone doesn't know about the truth of our past, then we will suffer the same fate. God may have orchestrated the near death or spiritual awakenings in people to try to protect the Earth when the negative energy gets too strong. I believe God has angels here on Earth so the planet doesn't get totally destroyed. An angel is by definition a messenger. I feel like I am a messenger but people have to want to hear the message. I try to find a way to present it. It is kind of complicated to write about all of the history but one day I want to try.

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   I heard about God from others but I was raised not to believe in God because He wasn't real so I struggled to be a good child and not believe in God. I just felt God's presence around me in nature and when I studied Biology and Science and logic then I changed my ideology to think that nothing is created out of nothingness and love seemed to be so important.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience   When I was having my near death experience I cannot account for the time on Earth. I was aware of a few things but most of what happened was hard for me to accept but I understand it now. I did not float above the room or see my body or anything like that. For me it was like a vision and then becoming part of the vision. I can see some things that will happen in the future but I cannot say when or how it will happen. Only that something bad will happen. I see things through images and then I get a feeling associated with the images. I feel like I have no control to stop some things from happening. I try to put the negative thoughts or images out of my mind. I try to focus on positive thoughts and feelings. We are only human though.

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   My Grandfather that died when I was 8 came into my dreams and told me to go to Colorado in the basement of my Grandmother's house and find something. I kept asking what am I supposed to find and he didn't answer me. He just kept coming into my dreams bothering me. I didn't really remember him that well. I was now 31 years old. I couldn't figure out how he could be able to be in my dreams after all these years. But it was a few years after my near death experience. I went to Colorado and I was in the basement and my 2 daughters had just fallen asleep and all of the sudden at 10 PM, the old radio beside the bed came on and was playing Unchained Melody by the Righteous Brothers and I recognized the song from the movie Ghost and it made me cry because my Grandfather was able to play that song for me. I think if I didn't have my near death experience, then I would not have seen my Grandfather in my dreams or heard the beautiful song that night. I think the angels or God or our loved ones reach out to us when we are in a bad situation especially from my experience. They can go through the computer, radio, or show us numbers, rainbows, etc. to get our attention. I used to think it was coincidence but the coincidences turned into synchronicity and then into serendipity.

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   In 2009 I had a series of coincidences in seeing the same numbers repeating for 6 weeks. 11:11, 222, etc and I learned that it was a message of spiritual awakening. I learned that the Dominion angels are represented by gold and silver and they represent metal or conductors of metal. I found that out because on the periodic table of elements, gold is 11 down and 11 across and the Golden Age in our history is a key in discovering many truths. Metal can conduct through electricity and that is why they can send number messages to get our attention. I haven't figured out if it is a warning or if I see the numbers when I feel a strong love energy.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?   I can relate to Jesus in that he was spiritual, John Lennon, Michael Jackson, Walt Disney, Mother Teresa, Lewis Caroll, Leonardo DiVinci, Sylvia Brown, Joel Osteen are people who I feel are spiritual in their messages. I feel like some people who are spiritual get attacked sometimes. I am glad they decided to go against the norm and send out positive messages.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Yes   I always had the gift of research. It seems like this gift has increased and helped me to find out about what spirituality really is. I feel like my understanding of spirituality grows everyday. I have stepped up my research after March of 2009. We have the internet now. I see throughout history that spiritual people have been sending messages through art, science etc. I see the true meaning behind some of the stories. It is amazing to see the message of God's love there. I have to admit that I am afraid to be a spiritual person and I am afraid to write about what I have learned and believe to be true. I feel like there are positive people, negative people and apathetic people. I feel like sometimes I am negative and sometimes positive but if I had a choice, I would try to be as positive as possible and definitely not apathetic. I feel like the information I know would be a threat to some people. I am kind of afraid of the pure negative energy people who thrive on hate. I am the worse kind of threat to them. This fear may only be imagined on my part but I probably should write it as science fiction. Some religion is based on things that I see as controlling or false. There is truth in some religion as well.