EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
I was in a filed and this place was the most beautiful, peaceful
place I had ever been. There really wasn't anything spectacular about it.
It was a field but there was a hill with one tree on it and this tree was
beautiful the leaves where swaying and all I wanted to do was walk to the tree.
There was no sound but there was sound a singing like I have never heard before.
The closest sound came after I was finally home and seen a boy on TV they
claimed he had the voice of an Angel and he really did, I cried!
While in this place I
began walking toward this tree and my guardian Angel came to me she spoke not
with her mouth but clearly in my head and she said you need to stop and wait and
I kept looking past her and moved around her to get to this tree, her voice came
more forceful and she said remember and held up her hand and on each one of her
fingers there was a moving photo of my 4 children and she said remember them you
have to wait.
I can honestly say I
didn't know them as my children at the time I felt nothing toward them, the
purpose I felt I had was to get to the beautiful tree. I went to move around her
again and she said look and pointed to the sky where clouds were making shapes
like a bunny and she said rest here watch the clouds remember and I went to side
step her again and it was like this powerful screaming from her she said to wait
rest here I was needed and so I did as she asked. I laid down in the field to
watch the clouds.
The next thing I felt was this powerful force lifting me up and then I was being
thrown down and I landed in the bottom of the bluest water and it was so far
down I was struggling to get to the top to breath. When I woke up I was on a
ventilator in ICCU, but I felt like I was coming out of the water and trying to
suck in a mouthful of air.
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes The doctor had cut a major artery and failed to realize it until I bled
out
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness
and alertness?
My experience was so vivid I couldn't say what time it was or where I was it was
just beautiful and I didn't want to be here. I would say waking in the ICCU with
the doctors and seeing to male angels with me. I had one at the foot of my bed
and one on the right side near my head. Neither spoke with their mouths, but the
spoke in my mind they said we are not here to take you we are here to comfort
you and your family and watch over you till you get to leave!
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was
different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please
explain:
My experience was so vivid I couldn't say what time it was or where I was it was
just beautiful and I didn't want to be here. I would say waking in the ICCU with
the doctors and seeing to male angels with me. I had one at the foot of my bed
and one on the right side near my head. Neither spoke with their mouths, but the
spoke in my mind they said we are not here to take you we are here to comfort
you and your family and watch over you till you get to leave!
Did
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes I wear glasses or contact lenses and there I was seeing a tree far away
on a hill and yet I could see it clearly and see the details on the leaves, the
trunk, the clouds were so white and the sky so blue and the water felt and
seemed so real.
Did
your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
Yes being there I didn't have to speak my thoughts were read and
I could hear everything but nothing and when she spoke to me it was in the most
peaceful voice, comforting.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Complete Peace! No regrets, no sorrow, no sadness, no anger, no hate,
no rage, nothing came to mind that mattered not even my husband or my children,
not my Mom and Dad no one mattered! I didn't feel any sadness for leaving them I
was totally accepting of where I was.
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No
Did
you see a light?
No
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes I met my guardian Angel when I started to walk toward the tree. I didn't
know her prior to that moment, she made it known that I wasn't to go to the tree
that I was to wait that I had more to do and that I had 4 little kids depending
on me. I honestly didn't really register my kids, all I could think about was
getting to the tree and feeling more peaceful
Did
you experience a review of past events in your life?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Yes I have no idea where this field was or the tree on it, I have never seen
any like it here or in books or magazines. The softness of the flowing grass,
there was no coldness, it wasn't to warm it was an amazing level of complete
comfort and peace.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
No
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes in a sense the Angel made it clear I had to stay where she wanted me Lay
down watch the sky and stay there do not go to the tree, she was instilling the
fact that if I went there that was my final place and I had things (kids) that
needed me.
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes I was on a ventilator so as soon as I was off it I began telling my Dad
he is a Catholic and my husband who isn't a church going person. I explained it
to my Mom, Step-Mom, Mother-n-law and after I was out of the hospital many
friends and some people I didn't know but felt urged to share! I think at first
they felt a bit shocked or maybe thought it was the medicine I was on, but then
I explained a few things like my Dad was praying and he was upset and the angel
at the right of my bed laid his hand on my dads shoulder and to me it was a
relief for my Dad to know I was going to be OK! My husband was wondering about
the angels in the room with us, I explained they were there while I was in ICCU
to make me feel calm, not to take me! They stayed with me till they wheeled me
out of ICCU and down to recovery on another floor
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real Because for a year I was depressed and hurt I
couldn't figure out why I couldn't stay and why anyone would want to be here on
earth when every day someone is shot, ran over, wars, gang violence and adults
hurting their children or someone else's child.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
I
know now that death isn't meant to be feared that there is a much better place
waiting on us and that if the majority of people knew this they would welcome it
when it is their time to go. That we do not get to choose when we go that time
is chosen for us and it is GODs time to decide if we stay or if we are not
finished here not ours! I wanted to stay, but I understand now why I needed to
come back!
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real I will never forget the time I spent there.
The amazing way it felt, I have never and will never experience it again until
it is my time. Death holds a new meaning to me. I shared things with my Grandpap
who was passing this past December 8th. I told him it is a far better place then
here and that there is no pain, no regret and he smiled and said he felt a bit
better about what was waiting for him.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
I
try to forgive faster and let things go that use to bother me, I say I am sorry
because I don't want to have regrets here they are not something to carry with
you day after day! I have a brother far away and I have had more contact with
him the last 3 yrs then at any other time in our life!
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
When
my time comes to go I hope I will get to walk to that tree and find out what its
like on the other side for now I am valuing my kids and the life GODs let me
have.
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
