Hazel K NDE
Edited for clarity by Judy Shea 7/14/12
I went for an emergency heart catheterization after having had some mild chest discomfort and doing poorly on a stress test at the doctor's. Although it was considered an emergency case at the hospital, I was told it was routine and not to worry. My family doctor and I are friends, so she came over to the hospital to check up on how my procedure went. She was actually standing next to me when I woke up and she told me that my heart looked good and I would be in recovery for a few hours and then I could go home. She told me she would go tell my husband, who was in the waiting room. She left the room and the heart staff nurses pulled out the needle that was in my groin. I felt like I had been stabbed and I started screaming and thrashing around and grabbing at my groin. The nurses restrained me.
My husband ran into the room and asked what was going on and the heart doctor started yelling at him that we had never told him I was on blood thinners, which I was not. He informed my husband that I was bleeding internally. The nursing staff picked me up from the bed, sheet and all, and literally ran down to the CAT scan machine. The pain was incredible. They laid me on the board that goes into the CAT scan machine, and I heard a nurse starting to bark orders at my husband to tell her what my religion was or something, and that was the last conscious thought that I had. I remember that all of a sudden I felt very cold. I seemed to be headed up an incredibly long flight of steps, like those that you climb up to get to your seat inside a football stadium.
The steps were very narrow and dark where I was, but I could see at the top it
was very bright as if some kind of light source was there. I also sensed
that someone was up there but I never actually saw anyone. I remember
getting closer and closer to the light, as if I were being swept along up to it.
I remember feeling very calm but puzzled about what was going on. I don't
know how long the experience lasted, but if I had to guess, maybe fifteen
seconds. I never made it all the way up to the light. I woke up in intensive
care with a giant clamp attached to my leg. I was told that I had been headed to
the operating room for surgery to repair the damage but that it had been
discovered that my own body had sealed the tear, because I am tall and thin and
in very good shape. Therefore, they had decided against the surgery. I
have never forgotten this experience and I think about it every day.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes. An artery had been severed in heart catheterization surgery and I was bleeding internally because the doctor had made the incision in the wrong place.
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I'm not sure how to answer. I don't think I was conscience – but I was very alert.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal. I was keenly aware that something was wrong and I couldn't explain to myself why I was on those dark stairs.
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Same. It was dark around me except for the bright light I saw.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Didn't hear anything. Quiet.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt safe and I wasn't afraid.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes. The tunnel, for me, was like dark stairs.
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes. Incredibly bright, yet I felt chilled.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? It was an unfamiliar and strange place.
Reminded me of a stairway in a sports arena because I kept climbing and climbing. But it was very narrow.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain.
I know I never got to the top of the steps.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? No
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? No
What occurred during your experience included: Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs I had at the time of my experience.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: I have a greater appreciation for life. My take on this experience was that God pushed me back from heaven because I still had two kids to finish raising.
My experience directly resulted in: Large changes in my life.
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes. I didn't take anything for granted anymore.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The fact that I didn't make it to the top step.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes. I believe now that a spirit watches over me and guides me.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes. As soon as I woke up, I told my husband about it, and he informed me it was because the drugs they gave me caused me to have a vivid imagination.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real. Never leaves me. Always there. My question is always why did I not reach the top step and what is my purpose now.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes