I donít know how many days I was in the clinic but I was in the Izmir Ege University Neurosurgery Section. On the right temporal lobe was a bleeding and I had in my brain 9 times more veins/arteries than an average human. (I had a kind of veins/arteries accumulation). This was the cause of the haemorrhaging. Since 06.06.2000 I was in the clinic but the date for surgery was on 20.06.2000, because the doctors had to make the decision which of the veins/arteries they had to cut out.
In the 3 weeks of my time after the surgery in the clinic, I was conscious but I donít remember that, but raising above my bed. I felt raising up above my bed, taking direction to a white, very bright light. Meantime, I saw my uncle, who died one month ago, while passing me he said ďnot yetĒ. I was surprised how I understood him without spoken words, but I felt very peaceful. Later a lady came to me, if I see her now, I would recognize her. She took me to a wonderful place with mountains and said that this was the place of my life. The place we went was beautiful, but I said to her that this place is not my lifeís place.
Then we came to a sea shore with a little village and she said again that this place was my life, but I donít know this place and I said to her that this is not the place of my life. After we travelled some more very beautiful places she said that I was not ready to stay in these places and asked me what I remember about my life. The first thing I remember was my mother and I fell with high speed down. I felt how I fell into my body and woke up and asked my mother if she was my mother, who was sitting at my bed side. My mother was confused and said that she is my mother. I had a blanket on me, a gift from my close friend and I wanted her to verify this. I said the name of my boyfriend and wanted to know from her if he was real. She said that he was real and started crying.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Because I donít think my experience was unique to this world. Thatís why the words I use from earth canít define my experience.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? In that time, I was in the clinic and the surgery was just over.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? From the beginning of my experience Ė raising above my body, till I fell into my body Ė I was conscious.
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: While I was in the clinic, I was conscious, too. I spoke to the visitors and could make jokes but while I recall only very few of this, I remember my experience like it was yesterday. I think the wonderful white light and the peace I felt canít be made forgotten by anything.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Nothing can compare to the white bright light I saw.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? It was like the communication was not with voice but with brain waves. We talked but didnít move lips.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Great happiness and great peace.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Not like a tunnel, it was like a path with a white light in the end.
Did you see a light? I saw very bright white light.
Did you meet or see any other beings? I saw my uncle. I saw a lady, whom I think she is my guardian angel. And I met some people but I didnít felt like a stranger.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? The mountain place with green nature. A small village near a sea shore. A place in a forest. They said, these places were my life, I felt they wanted me to stay there, but I said to them, I donít know these places.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? There was no definition of time. Universe and dimension were not, because earth time can be scaled in seconds Ė in seconds, we changed places and travelled.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? The definition of peace is very personal. I learned that death is nothing to be scared of. I can write more better and beautifully and I can make more beautiful paintings.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? I was in various places and I didnít felt home so I went back. They were definitely beautiful places.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?High premonition, In some places I feel the energy of this place, in my body. People come to me when they have pain, and I can say where their pain is, before they say it to me, I touch the painful area and I can take it away. I think this has to do with raising up my bio-energy. I donít think I am a healer.
Have you shared this experience with others? I am now a happy person, smiling in my eyes, spreading positive energy in the places I go. I told my experience at first to my close friends, they were confused. My family knows only a little of this, because I know, they would not believe me. My physician said that the painkillers and drugs could have caused the feeling of living this experience.
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: I think you can not interpret this, you only know that it is real.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? To see my uncle was very important to me. The white light and the great peace was definitely wonderful emotion. My guardian angel and being greeted when we die made me not scared of death anymore.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience. I know.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? I meet people with more joy. I hardly get angry. My daily life is full of love and peaceful. I feel pleasure by helping to strangers.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I think that my life ended in one point but I think I live the time which is a gift and that is why I try to make the best of it.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? I never told my experience so openly like this.