Glenda Probable NDE

Integration Experience - submitted 2011 & 2013

Edited for clarity by Judy Shea 1/9/13

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION 1/4/13:

I was sitting in my chair at the computer. All of a sudden I felt a strong, deep, sharp pain in my chest. I grabbed my chest and cried, "Ow..." All I remember after that is that everything around me went black. It took me a few seconds to focus and get my bearings, and when I finally did, the only thing that came into view was the microwave, [refers to: "microwave oven"] which was about three to four feet away from my chair. That was it—that was all I could see.  I remember having no body weight—I felt as light as a feather, as though I were floating. I remember thinking that I felt "weird"— very odd, because I had no body weight whatsoever, nor any emotion at all—no fear, no pain, no sadness.  It was a bit confusing, and I was not so certain I liked feeling that way. Well, I use the word "feeling," but at the same time, as I said, I can not recall having any emotions at all—free of my body and free of any emotion. Then I remember thinking that I didn't like being in the dark, and the next thing I knew, I was in a grey place. All I saw there was one man, sitting on what looked like the top of some stairs or on the edge of a ledge of some sort. He had semi-long brown hair and was wearing what looked like a grey sackcloth loose garment of some sort. His back was to me. I heard him mumbling something, and I could tell he had something in his hands that he was trying to do something with. He seemed agitated, to say the least. All of a sudden he whipped his head around and looked at me with this not-so-happy look on his face—almost as if he were mad at me. It was at that instant I heard my first name called very loudly. I felt that someone was displeased with my presence there and that I must have done something wrong. It was at that very instant that I had to back—I was not "told" in the normal sense to go back, I simply understood that I had no choice but to go back into my body. And I woke up still sitting in my chair.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   No.  I'm not exactly certain what this question means.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes.     Yes, because it all seems so surreal.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    When I was in the grey area.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal.   I knew everything and nothing all at the same time.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   It was as if I was without my body—just a traveling brain, if that makes any sense.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   Louder.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   Yes.   I could see the microwave in the room. At first I didn't know where I was because it was all black, but when I saw the microwave, I thought, "Oh, okay..." and then I knew I was still near my body in the chair. It was like I really had to squint hard and focus before the microwave was viewable in the dark.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Confusion at first and then nothing—until I arrived at the grey area and then I started feeling like I was in trouble.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   No  

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin.
All I saw there was one man, sitting on what looked like the top of some stairs or on the edge of a ledge of some sort. He had semi-long brown hair and was wearing what looked like a loose grey sackcloth garment of some sort. His back was to me. I heard him mumbling something, and I could tell he had something in his hands that he was trying to do something with. He seemed agitated, to say the least. All of a sudden he whipped his head around and looked at me with this not-so-happy look on his face—almost as if he were mad at me. It was at that instant I heard my first name called very loudly. I felt that someone was displeased with my presence there and that I must have done something wrong. It was at that very instant that I had to back—I was not "told" in the normal sense to go back, I simply understood that I had no choice but to go back into my body.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   Uncertain   I did not recognize this man.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   Uncertain:   The next thing I knew, I was in a grey place. All I saw there was one man, sitting on what looked like the top of some stairs or on the edge of a ledge of some sort. He had semi-long brown hair and was wearing what looked like a loose grey sackcloth garment of some sort. His back was to me. I heard him mumbling something, and I could tell he had something in his hands that he was trying to do something with. He seemed agitated, to say the least. All of a sudden he whipped his head around and looked at me with this not-so-happy look on his face—almost as if he were mad at me. It was at that instant I heard my first name called very loudly. I felt that someone was displeased with my presence there and that I must have done something wrong. It was at that very instant that I had to back—I was not "told" in the normal sense to go back, I simply understood that I had no choice but to go back into my body.

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm.
A grey area—the floor was grey, the whole "area" seemed grey.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning.
Time was not meaningful, but it seemed like the whole experience only took a few minutes, like five minutes or so.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No.
It just seemed like I was "devoid" of everything. I knew me, the man, and the voice—that was it.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   Yes.
The man was sitting on a drop-off of some sort. I could not see beyond him, though.

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was "sent back" against my will.
I heard my name called by a man's voice, and I knew I had to come back to my body, against my will—I remember thinking it was not fair to not be given a choice. I felt a total lack of will, like my will had been taken away from me. When I got back to my body, I remember feeling mad and hurt.

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes.   The whole experience assured me there is life after death.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes.   I know there is a God because he was why I had to come back to my body.  And, the voice came from him; it was a male's voice that loudly called my name.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Uncertain.   I wasn't there long enough to gain a complete understanding of anything.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   No  

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs I had at the time of my experience.  I want to know who that man was, why he was mad/aggravated and what was he fiddling with in his hands at the time of my arrival.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.  

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   Now I am worried about where I will go after I die.

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life.

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes.   I believe in God more now, and know that some people are not living right, according to his plan.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Yes.   Now I sense things more, and also children smile at me as if maybe I give off light. Children stare at me, whereas before, they didn't.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     Yes, about the man... who is he? And whose voice called my name?

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes.  I did, a few months or so afterwards. I think some people do not believe me, others just look at me in wonderment.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Yes.   I had read about a white tunnel, and the light.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real.   It was real, I died. It was not a dream—my chest hurt for a month or so after it happened.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real.   It was real, I died. It was not a dream—my chest hurt for a month or so after it happened.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes.   I am more alone now, and it doesn't bother me as much as it used to before this experience.

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes.   Now I am seeking good churches for me to attend.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No     

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes  

What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to you?span>    Give polygraph tests to those who claim to have had near death experiences. 

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience?      None.

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION 3/26/11:

My heart hurt really bad for a split second, and then I remember slipping down in my chair- I got about two foot away from my body and it was totally dark, and I remember feeling total weightlessness, and at the same time I was totally void of any emotion at all... then without hearing a voice I "knew" that I was being told to go back into my body, and I remember saying, "Ok" and then a split second later I was back in my body. I didn't take a mental note to remember the date/day it happened. It was just totally dark, I was no longer in my body. I just know that I was about two feet away from my body when I had to go back. I saw myself slipping down into the chair for only a split second and then all the sudden it got dark. It was the best feeling to have no emotion at all... but it is very hard to describe.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     There was a total void of emotion- and total weightlessness... like total freedom from everything. My "mind" was told to go back into my body, although no words were spoken, I recall saying, "Ok" and then I was back in my body.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    A few seconds after my heart started hurting and it got dark.. right before I knew I had to go back.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            A few seconds after my heart started hurting and it got dark.. right before I knew I had to go back.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Uncertain      It all happened very fast, there were no colors. My heart hurt, I was out of my body, then I was told "mentally" to go back to my body so I did. It was almost as if I had absolutely no will at all.. I had to do what I was told.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Uncertain      Please refer to above statement, question number eight.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            NONE, TOTALLY VOID OF ANY EMOTION.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     I knew I was no longer in my body, but dark, yet comforting.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No       It all happened so fast--- I only reached a certain point then I had to come back. I know I got as far as the microwave from my body which was about two feet.

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     One person, about 3 weeks after the event. He believed me, told me I had a reason to live. He seemed inspired in a way.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I heard a few stories, did not believe any of them. Now I "know" this can happen because it happened to me.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    It happened. I had a heart attack and died, and then I came back a few seconds later... (however long) I was not fully slumped out of my chair- it was real. There is a God.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            Yes, the part where God seemed to tell me by using ESP to go back into my body... I heard no voice at all, I just knew I had to go back. That was very meaningful to me, to have a total loss of control- no will of your own.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    It happened. I had a heart attack and died, and then I came back a few seconds later... (however long) I was not fully slumped out of my chair- it was real. There is a God.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I no longer think people are without souls.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        Believe. There is a God.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes    

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?   No.