Emmett M NDE

edited for clarity by Judy Shea 6/12/11

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

As I said before, we were playing good guys - bad guys.  I was the bad guy and was hanged for being the bad guy. When I woke up on the garage floor, I remembered that I had just had a sort of dream, but didn't understand it and soon forgot it.  However, off and on through the years after this happened, it would keep popping up in my mind. This would happen at no particular time or circumstance.  When I was in my late 30s and early 40s, I figured there must be a reason for this to be coming up and reminding me about itself.  I started to look into it a little bit and then it dawned on me that it was probably an NDE.  However the NDE did not have much of all the "Bells and Whistles" as others have had. No Angels, no Christ, no Heaven or Hell visiting, and no dead relatives. 

The Experience - I was in a sort of a room area that had 3-5 Monks in it.  There was something like a table that had little televisions on it and what I thought were funny typewriters.  Later in my life I recognized these as computers??  At least three of the monks were standing in the left-hand portion of the room. Towards the back of the room was something like a large round doorway with very light colored fog in it. There appeared to be a bright light behind the slowly circling fog. If I recall correctly, the fog was moving in a counter-clockwise direction.   On the left-hand side of the room there was another large round door. This one had a dark fog in it.  I asked the Monk who was closest to me (just a few feet away, to the front right of me) if I was supposed to go through the round doorway with the light colored fog, and he told me something along the lines of, "NO, you have to go back and do (or learn) something."

No other Monk said anything. I woke up on the garage floor.

I relate this to something that happened when I was around 7 years old when I almost drowned in a lake.  I was having problems not being able to touch the bottom of the lake and then being able to pull myself up into the air in time to catch my next breath. I knew that I was going to die and I had to say my prayers. I felt relaxed as I started to say my prayers. Then the next thing I knew, I was lying on the beach and my brother (10 yrs older) was leaning over me and performing what I now know as CPR.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain.      Mostly because I still don't understand it. So it is in some ways hard to relate it.  I did not go to Heaven or Hell, just some type of place in between. There were no angels, or bright colors etc.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain.      It was not intentional, just kids playing a little too realistically.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    When the Monk told me that I could not go.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness when the Monk told me that I could not go.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  No       

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Uncertain.      Either my hearing was unclear at the time, or I just can't remember.  I have not been able to determine whether the Monk told me to "do things" or to "learn things."

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Surprised.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain.      I just remember that all a sudden I was in this room-like place.  I am guessing that they didn't want to go into the tunnels.

Did you see a light?           Uncertain.      The room had some light source that was above and behind me.  Also, there was a light coming from behind the light-colored fog that was through the round open door. 

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes.     I refer to them as being monks. I am assuming that if they had a gender, it was male.  They wore full length robes (very dark brown or black) that had what looked like pointed hoods that covered the whole head except for a clean shaven face.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Uncertain.   I have no recall of any vision of past events.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No       

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No            

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No       

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Uncertain.            As most people do, I get my share of hunches, or whatever.  I can usually talk with new folks and I just "know" if I want them as friends.  Sometimes it almost seems to me that some people wear a sign that tells me that they are not good people, for what ever reason.  I, however, have not usually paid close attention to this.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain.  I was told that I could not go through the round door with light-colored fog in it.

Did you become aware of future events?       No            

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes.     I have a sometimes uncanny ability to "read" some people that I have just met.

  Also, when I was in the USMC, I was promoted to E-4 in 19 months - pretty good for a peace-time Marine.  I was told by "quite" an insider that when I "shipped over," (re-enlisted) I would be promoted to E-5 pretty quickly.  My insides told me not to ship over.  So I left the USMC. This was in Feb. 1964.  Within a year we were at full war in Viet Nam. 

I have been married twice, the 1st marriage ended due to my stupidity, and the 2nd - my insides told me not to marry her, but I did it anyways and have paid dearly for it.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes,     for a few years.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Uncertain.            I already talked about my "drowning" as a little kid.  It had no effect, as I never related either of them until just the last few years.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            At first, the way I saw it was that the experience was probably not real.  I used to think it was just a dream.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Now I understand that the experience was definitely real.  The incident kept coming back to me over the years in a way that was telling me to check it out.  So, as I check it out now, I find that it is "talking" to me and that I have a BIG BIT to learn yet at bald old-age!

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           No       

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes.     My method of saying prayers is different now.  Instead of just repeating the words as I used to do, I now think about what I am saying and visualize the actions of the prayer.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No                   

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes.     I still don't understand it.  I had described this before a few years ago on a different site (don't know the name anymore.)  I read a portion of what someone in England thought of it.  He/she said something along the lines of "he was visited by the ??? Angels"  Then the site was cut off, and I was not able to locate it since. But I have not worried about it.