NDE And ADC Stories
It was a normal afternoon when I had finally gotten my two little ones down for a nap. Two days earlier I was having problems waking up when I tried to sleep during nap time and at night which I had discussed my concerns with my husband. So on this particular day I was nervous about falling asleep and decided I would just watch some TV instead. Well I sat myself down on the couch and started watching my favorite soap box and next thing I knew someone was yelling at me to wake up. I kept hearing this voice telling me to ""wake up, Diane"", ""you have to wake up"". When I opened my eyes and started to sit up (because I thought I had fallen asleep) I looked forward and there stood my grandmother. Now my grandmother had died when I was 3 or 4 years of age and so my memory of her is very slight. But there she stood in the doorway of my living room going into my kitchen, looking at me and talking to me, although she didn't move her mouth. I kept looking at her lips because that was something I had always done since I was little was watch people's lips as they talked. Anyway, I couldn't see her lips move and then I realized that she was talking to me through my senses. I asked her what she was doing and she told me I could come with her. I hesitated, not knowing where she was going and then asked her, ""where are you going"" and she just looked at me and then told me ""you can come"", ""come on"", and she started to turn away and it looked like she was going down the hall towards my little girl's room. I knew that if I didn't get up and go with her then I would not know where to go and I just couldn't stay where I was, so I started to get up.
That's when I realized that I was not connected to my body anymore. I felt weightless and light, almost airy. I looked down at my body and it was not moving with me. Then I looked back up at grandma to see where she was going and she was gone. That scared me so I knew I had better hurry and catch up with her. Next thing I knew I was high in my living room or out of it, I'm not sure. I do know that I looked back down to where I came from and there was my body. At first I thought I should be worried that I left it behind, but it looked okay and I thought to myself that it would be okay right there on the couch. I could see the colors of my clothing and the furniture and the exact way I was laying there. It was amazing! I then went somewhere for awhile. I'm not sure. I can't remember where I went. But my grandmother was not with me at that time. I was by myself.
Then I came back to this floating position above myself, but at an angle I couldn't really see myself, but I could. If you can understand that. Anyway, there were two people or things (spirits I think) with me, one on my left and one on my right. I was told that I could stay or I could go back. I looked down at ""me"", it was kind of fuzzy, and was trying to decide if I wanted to go back, because I sure didn't want to leave this wonderful, peaceful, loving, total accepting, place I was in, but then my mother and sister and my two little girls popped into my head and I knew they would need me...even if it meant that I would suffer most of my life...I was needed, I had to go back, I couldn't leave them without me. So at that very moment I made the decision to go back. And...all of a sudden I am in this dark place falling, falling, faster and faster and felt like I was being squeezed into this little tiny hole until I felt my body again. It was blacker than I have ever seen. It was darker than any night and blacker than any black could be. I almost felt frightened, until I felt my body again, the weight, the pressure. My lungs hurt so bad and I didn't think I was going to make it. All of a sudden I heard this voice yelling at me to ""wake up Diane, you have to wake up!"" It kept on and on until I finally tried to open my eyes. At that moment I remember trying to take a deep breath, it was like I had popped back into my body and I needed to start breathing again, almost for the first time. My chest heaved and my lungs sucked the air slowly in little by little and all of a sudden I took one big deep breath of air, it hurt so bad!! I took another breath and then I opened my eyes and I realized that something was very wrong with me, but yet I remembered what I had experienced. I saw my grandmother...and she was in a yellow flowered dress and she wanted me to come with her.
I sat up on the couch and then realized that I was soaking wet, my clothes, my hair, everything. Even the couch was damp from my wetness. I gather what senses I had and went to the phone to call my mother because my heart was racing and I just had to tell her that I went with her mother! Later, I started having more ESP signs and things started happening to me naturally and at any time day or night. I saw murders, I saw a baby be kidnapped from a hospital not far from where I lived. I knew what people were going to say before they even came to the door to say it. I knew when someone was going to call on the phone before it rang. As the years went by more and more started happening...in 1986, we moved to our first new home...it was an old home, but it was our first. There after living in the home for a few months, I knew we had company. Little company! Children, I think a boy and girl, who would play in our home while we were gone and when we'd return I'd catch them playing, by hearing them as we walked in, and then they would stop. Then in 1993 or 94 a man came to visit me...a spirit, from back in the horse and buggy days. He put his hands on my shoulders and I felt his warmth and love and his pain. It scared me and I jumped up and ran into the other room. I yelled at him asking him what he wanted from me...because I had heard his foot steps often and the girls had seen his shadow at the end of their beds at night and so had I.
But my husband had never heard or seen anything. Anyway, someone had told me that if it wasn't a spirit of God and you told it to go away in his name it would...so I did. I have only had a couple more occasions where he returned to talk to me...he wanted to know why I thought he would hurt me. I was really scared now. I didn't want anymore to do with this stuff. So after a while I just started ignoring everything that happened. I quit allowing my senses to recognize anything that was put forward to me...I just went on my way. There for awhile I could even use my hands to make people feel better...I could feel the heat in my hands as I touched their body to rub out a knot in their back or shoulders. Everyone in the neighborhood wanted me to give them messages. But then when I started learning more about the ""chi"" and tried to tell others, people thought I was getting ""weird"" and began to be scared of me...so I quit that to. When my mother was in the hospital very ill and dying...the spirit came to her beside next to me. I told him he could not have her yet, that I wasn't finished with her and he left. Day after day she got better and better and now is living a full and pretty healthy life. Anyway, I have always felt like I was here for a reason, but now I feel like I don't know what that reason is and I feel lost, misplaced.
If yes, please explain: We found out a few days later that our heater had been leaking gas and had to replace it due to poisoning in our air.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes
If yes, what was it about the experience that makes if hard to communicate? The peaceful, loving, non-judging, pure acceptance feeling that I got while floating and wherever it is I went that I can't remember. I just knew I didn't want to come back here. And I was sad for along time that I had chosen to come back, even though I knew I made the decision for loved ones. I also had a hard time explaining how it was that I came back...the blackness, the excruciating pain in my lungs and chest when trying to take a breath once I did come back into my body.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes
If yes, describe: The gas from the heater leaking into the room. I was only about 5 feet from the unit.
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? Wonderful!! I knew exactly what was happening after I realized I was floating and it was okay with me to be doing that. I was unsure how I got back to the floating position and was anxious about where I had been, but had to concentrate on making a decision as to whether I wanted to come back or stay there. So I guess I didn't think about my trip as much until it was all over. Then I tried to think real had about where I had went. But I just can't remember.
Was the experience dream like in any way? At first when I saw my grandmother and when someone was yelling at me to wake up. That was the only dream like time I had. Except that my body was fuzzy when I looked back down at the time when I was trying to decide what I wanted to do.
Was there any medical evidence of cessation of breathing or heart function? yes! I knew I had not been breathing when I re-enter my body. The breaths of air were bringing me back to life. I remember when I finally came to...I thought that must be what a new born baby feels when it is taking it's first breath of air! Then my heart raced so hard, it felt like it would pop right out of my chest!
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
If yes, describe your appearance or form apart from your body: I was light and moved very quickly around and up and down. It was incredible! I felt so free and open and honest and pure. I love it!!
Describe in detail the events (in order) that happened: I did that above on the first question
What emotions did you feel? Frightened, anxious, lost, and then safe, light, loved, loved so much! then I felt upset and confused and then determined and then scared and then relieved. yes
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises: yes, a voice telling me to wake up, shouting at me to wake up. I felt anxious and frustrated that I couldn't wake up! I felt so scared that I couldn't wake up and I didn't know why!! But I tried and tried and I just couldn't open my eyes. I fought and fought to open them, but they weighed too much for me to open them. I was getting so upset at that voice!
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure: Yes
If yes, describe: I went through a black, black tunnel downward a long way. I was getting scared because I didn't think there was an end to it and the blackness scared me...there was not one speck of light!
Did you see a light: Yes
If yes, describe: It wasn't a glowing light, it was iridescent, glowing all around me with warmth and love and understanding, total understanding...of everything...no more questions to have answered it was already known! I knew it all!! and it was okay..
Did you meet or see any other beings: Yes
If yes, describe. Where were they? Did you know them? What was communicated: I saw my grandmother who died when I was 3 or 4, I knew her! I saw two beings one on the right of me and one on the left of me right before I decided to come back.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life: No
Did you learn anything you did not have previously know? Please provide details. Did you learn anything that helps you live your life now: Not that I remember. I just knew I was to suffer if I came back and I knew my life would not be easy.
How did you verify this: No. the girls were still sleeping in their beds when I went into check on them later.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions: Yes
If yes, describe: I was in a higher level of atmosphere. I was in another dimension, in the light. I can't explain what it was I just knew it was nothing I had every experienced before in my entire life and could never imagine being in on my own.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time: Yes
If yes, describe: Yes, I am not sure how long it took me to get from the couch to the higher level I was in, but it couldn't have been more than less than a second. The blackness lasted longer and was awful. I felt like was going straight down with such power and force! It horrified me!!
Did you have a sense of knowing universal order and/or purpose: Yes
f yes, discuss and share what you came to know: Everything was known. There were no questions to ask because it was known. I didn't feel the need to ask anything. I just know that we are definitely dots in this universe...that there is more to what God has made than we will ever actually know of until we die. That's the way he planned it. We are to accept and not question...to live following his direction. Our lives are planned out for us...already, we cannot change those plans. But we can grow to know what to do with each episode of our existence...by having faith.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure: Yes
If no, did you have a sense of what would happen if you did cross the boundary: Yes, when I went up I stopped there and then I realized I could look back. After that I'm not sure how I got passed that area but I know I was on the other side of it when I came back to my destination and had to decide to stay or come back.
Did you become aware of future events in your life: Yes
Based on your life following the NDE, how accurate was this awareness: I knew that if I came back I would suffer, painfully, mentally, by my husband and others, and I have and I believe I will always.
Did you have any psychic or paranormal gifts following the NDE you did not have prior to the NDE: Yes
If yes, describe: ESP, telepathy, moving things with my mind, healing with my hands, healing myself with my mind, seeing and talking to spirits, I had a full understand of life and didn't worry about the future...it was set forth already..
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the NDE: Yes
If yes, describe: That I didn't have to ""go"" to church to be a believer of God. I felt a very close relationship with him, although I always had since childhood. I could feel my guardian angel and the holy ghost with me. I knew that the ""light"" could bless and heal. I passed it on the friends in need and they felt it without even knowing they received it. (I know that sounds strange, but it was like a miracle, I it saw happen)
How has the NDE affected your relationships? Daily Life? Religious practices etc.? Career choices: I knew there was more to life than working a high paying, boring, non-existent job. I changed to something that could I help others. Then after a few years I had to change back to a high paying, job, but I'm still helping others. At the time I first changed, I didn't worry about where things were going to come from...I just knew we would be taken care of...and we were. Then after my husband was laid off...I started doubting...and returned to the ""other"" workforce to make the money...slowly I have lost most of the senses that I was given. I think I lost them because they were so strong that I became afraid that my husband and other family members would try and take my children away from me and that my life would not be in my control any longer. That scared me. My daily life became very frustrating with all the things popping into my head I saw, real life experiences, and the frustration of not knowing what to do about them. I was terrified of seeing anymore murders and evil things...I was drained from worry about those people and who they were and where things happened and what could I do about it? I became scared of my own home, the spirits. I wondered about my sanity. What people thought of me. I felt different, it was a good different, but how do you explain these differences to others who don't understand and thing you are going crazy?! I was getting sick and weak. I had to stop paying attention to it all and start living one day at a time with ""real"" experiences. Sometimes, those things still pop up and want to surface, but I try to keep them laying low. I don't know why exactly...I am still confused.
Have you shared this experience with others: Yes
If yes, what were their reactions? Were they influenced in any way by your NDE? How: Their reactions were that there was something mentally and/or physically wrong with me. They started staying away from me and wouldn't let me around their kids alone.
What emotions did you experience following your NDE: Sadness, from coming back, some depression later and sometimes now, wishing I could go back. Excitement from the trip! Love and understanding from the light.
What was the best and worst part of your NDE: The best was being there with ""them"", I'm not sure who ""them"" is though. The light was the best part though, I will never forget the light and love and total understanding. The worst part was being in the black going down, it was awful!
Anything_Else? When I "came back"... I felt that I was being born... not 'born again' in the current vernacular, but thinking... this is what it feels like to come from nothingness into life.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the NDE: I have always wondered if it was due to the gas leak...could I have just dreamed this up? I don't know how it came to be that I was able to see the things I did and sometimes do...but I wouldn't take it back for anything in this world. I know that I will will not be scared to die...I might even been relieved...satisfied when it's my time to go. I wish everyone could experience what I did...it would change how they see life and the people they live it with. The possibilities are enormous for us to learn from each other and other entities...if we could just accept things they way they are.