Denise H NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

As I waited for the ambulance to pick me up, I was pulled out of the car, which was in flames, and put on the back of a pickup truck. I could barely breath ( my lung was punctured) and felt nauseous ( my intestines and stomach, in addition to other organ, had burst) The met by my side kept telling me not to close my eyes. I couldn't help it. I was getting tired, my eyes were feeling heavy and I wanted to rest, but I fought as much as I could - eventually, however, I couldn't hear the EMT's voice anymore and I felt warm and all my pain went away. There was light, I remember, just an illuminated space and nothing else that was visible. I was very aware that I was passing over and I was not afraid. I did not see or think of any of my loved ones. I was completely alone and totally at peace. I remember being surprised that I wasn't afraid. For a second I thought I would die but shortly afterward realized that I had to go back and needed to fight for my life with the EMT. I remember coming back and feeling pain and discomfort but with confidence that I was being looked after and would be okay. I remember being very calm and thinking that I was in that truck for an hour when in fact it had been more like ten, at the most.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     I felt more than I saw or heard.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     It was a car accident. We were in a new suburban merging onto the freeway when a probe lost control driving in the opposite direction, drove over the grassy median separating the two-lane freeways going in opposing directions, and hit us head-on. The car I was in crushed the probe, killing the three passengers in that car. The people in the suburban all survived but were knocked out instantly except for me. I was conscious in the moments right after the accident and on and off afterward. However there was a moment, while I was waiting to be picked up by the ambulance where I had my NDE.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    In the middle - toward the beginning and end, I was confused and disoriented. In the midst of the experience I was at my most certain of what was happening to me.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            In the middle - toward the beginning and end, I was confused and disoriented. In the midst of the experience I was at my most certain of what was happening to me.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Uncertain      There was not much for me to see, it was mostly light so it is difficult to make a comparison.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     I heard nothing.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Peacefulness, exited, happy, confident

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain      It was a space of light. I am unsure as to whether it was enclosed or not

Did you see a light?           Yes     It was bright and I felt like I was being supported by it. It was bright but not blinding at all. I felt entirely comfortable and warm.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     I say yes because in that moment space and time were no longer relevant.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            Nothing matters yet everything matters at the same time. Acceptance is more important than anything.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         No      

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I knew it was real so it helped me get through my recovery period. It helped me get back in a car without fear.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?   

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was probably real    I'm unsure because I very well could have been hallucinating.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I feel different.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     I am more certain that a god exists however I feel less connected to him now. I am unsure why.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes     My parents both passed shortly after. The part of the experience that was recreated is the feeling of wanting to live with a great amount of energy.           

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         No       It's still hard for me to relay this. I have some kind of block that keeps me from fully accepting what happened.