Cono J's NDE

I had started to bleeding 2 days before.  On Friday morning we went to the hospital and they told me I was having a miscarriage.  The strange thing about it was that when they did the scan, the fetus was only 9 weeks, but by my dates when I took the pregnancy test, I was 12 weeks. 

The last thing I remember before my experience was sitting on the toilet and saying to my partner that I wasn't feeling very well.  The next thing I knew I was drifting, gliding, weightless as if in outer space. I was surrounded in an intense, warming feeling.  There was no light, just the most amazing dark blue color everywhere.  I was aware that I wasn't breathing but it didn't matter.  All I felt was love, joy, happiness, and every wonderful emotion you could feel all at once. My thoughts had changed - not what I thought, but how I thought. Each thought was like a stone dropped into a still pool of water as if time had slowed (maybe it had for me). Then I became aware of others. There were hundreds of thousands of others. I couldn't see anyone's face at first, just their outlines.  We were on the edge of a cliff.  They were all waiting. I tried to see what they were all looking out at, but just as I was going to ask, a man in a very old uniform turned to face me and in a forceful voice said, "you're not meant to be here!" The next thing I knew, I could here my partners voice.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     major blood lose

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    when I came to the cliff with the others

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness           

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  No      

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     I felt cocooned and even when I was starting to return and I heard my partners voice he sounded a long way away.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            joy, blessed, intense happiness, love all the wonderful emotions you can experience all at once.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     standing on a cliff's edge waiting

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Uncertain     

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     to me it felt like the experience lasted for at least 15-20 minutes but I was later told by my partner it was only a matter of seconds and the I had had a seizure

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain     

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     about a week and no everyone just thought I was crazy.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    the emotions stayed with me for weeks after, it was strange I had just had a miscarriage and had to have an operation of which went a bite wrong so the nurse told me, while I was on the table I had an asthma attack and stopped breathing.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    the intense emotions and the fact that I'm ok with death now when their ready to have me.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    the memories I have of that day are as strong as they were the day after it happened

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           No      

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        prior to my experience I had a gift sometimes I knew things before they happened people visiting without them ringing and dreams of death which was a prediction of birth, but after my experience I suffered major depression and lost my gift. I miss it and wish I had it back

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes    

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?   prior to you experience did you have any spiritual gifts, dreams, visions,