During major surgery on my kidney, the medical staff was unable to control bleeding which caused my heart to stop. Surgery was stopped in the attempt to resuscitate me. All I can remember is thinking that I was dreaming. At first, I was afraid that I had woken up during surgery and just couldn't move but I didn't feel any pain. Then, I realized that I was in one of the corners of the operating room, floating there & watching the staff working. I don't know how long that lasted but I eventually woke up in the Intensive Care Unit (ICU) for Heart Patients, drifting in and out of consciousness. I found out a couple of days later what had happened.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes It was just a feeling like I've never had before so it makes it difficult to explain in words.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes Surgery being performed, uncontrollable bleeding caused heart to stop.
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? Hard to say. It's like being half asleep & half awake at the same time.
Was the experience dream like in any way? Definitely in some ways.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes I was under general anesthesia at the time but I can clearly remember floating in the operating room & watching the medical staff doing something.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peaceful, dreamlike state of mind.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? I don't believe so. I can remember seeing what the medical staff was doing but I don't remember anything that they were saying or any sounds.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? No
Did you see a light? Uncertain I can't remember.
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes I could see the medical staff running around, working very hard. They were working to save my life. The staff included a class of interns that later visited me in ICU.
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? No Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Uncertain I did lose alot of my memories. I still struggle to remember things that happened in the past which was not how I was before this experience.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes In the beginning, right after the experience, I went through a very difficult time in my life. I began to ask the question, "Why was I brought back to suffer?". A few years later, I knew why when I met my husband.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No I believe I would have died if I crossed the boundary.
Did you become aware of future events? Yes I have always had the gift of being shown through dreams that someone close to our family will pass away. It has somewhat intensified since the experience.
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? Uncertain I can't remember that part. I do remember waking up to see a sign that said "Intensive Care Unit-Heart Patients", tubes coming out of my mouth & nose, and my sister looking at me really sad.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes Excited, wanted to know more about the experience.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The worst part was memory loss. The best was being able to see a few years later why I came back.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I would like to know if the memory loss is part of the experience. I would like to know if anyone else has experienced this after OBE.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes