edited for clarity by Judy Shea 5/14/11
December 1, 2009, 19:00, It is night time. I am driving alone, the road is straight, I am not driving very fast.
An object falls from the passenger seat, I unfasten my seat belt and I bend to retrieve it. I lose control of the car. I have no memory from the moment when I bent to retrieve that object until the morning after - and even soÖ painkillers have erased my memory a lot.
Ejected 5 meters away from the car. Broken pelvis (X3), broken neck vertebra (C1), broken ribs, spleen outpouring, various pelvic bruises and brain trauma
Vital prognosis at stake from midnight to 6 AM.
Thatís it for the introduction.
(I can't be sure about when I had the experience. However, I believe it occurred when I had the accident.)
All is cold and black. Without exaggeration, the atmosphere seemed as if there was nothing on earth anymore. No ground, no sky, no skyline, just black.
I feel I am lying on some surface, though. I see a white light in the distance, like a lobby entrance or an opened door. The light is coming closer, or, rather, I feel I am going toward the light - as if I were walking but without walking, I feel my body does not move. Very hard to describe. Once I arrive close to the light, a being on my right stops me. Without recognizing him by his appearance, I know who he is - he is my Grandfather. He tells me something like, "No, not now, go back."
(I know these are short sentences. I think he said more, but I am unable to recall the exact words.) I can also tell that he is calm and kind, but, at the same time, I feel he is deeply angry at me. Then I see the light going away.
Thatís it. It's not much, but the more I think about it, the more odd I feel. I did not share it with anybody because I felt it was just for me; and, besides, I thought nobody would really believe me, anyway.
Today Iím convinced that my grandfather (and it absolutely was my grandfather) knew that I mustnít go into the light. I even believe I remember he told me something like I wasnít finished with something???
I believe I am here today (maybe) to do something, but I donít know what it is. I only know itís important.
Also, I am much more sensitive, emotional today than I was prior to the experience.
Thank you for reading.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes The memory is fragmented. It seems to be between a dream and reality.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Uncertain The accident itself.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? None
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? No
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Uncertain. I do not recall hearing any sounds.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Uncertain
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Uncertain.
Did you see a light? Yes. A white light, like a corridor entrance.
Everything around was dark, black.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Uncertain. I feel with deep certainty that I met with my motherís father.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No.
Did you become aware of future events? No.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? No.
Have you shared this experience with others? No.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain. I had heard about near death experiences before, but I hadn't paid much attention.
This happened a few weeks ago, and since then more and more about what happened
has been coming back to me. Also, since it happened, I have been doing some
research on the Internet about near death experiences.
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: At first I thought that the experience was probably not real.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Now I think that the experience was probably real.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes. But I donít know whether that is because of the experience or because of the accident.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes.