Christina T NDE
This if from my book and in a way, my editor toned it down but it conveys much of what happened.
Up until this time, I had been very left-brained when it came to playing music—I could only play music by reading sheet music or playing from memory. I felt empathy with each composer and could interpret music with great feeling but I was frustrated because I lacked the ability just to jam with other players and create my own music. And then, it all happened. While sitting by a stream with my small harp beside me in the redwood forest, I experienced the most amazing event in my life. It is far too personal to put down on paper, for no words will ever describe the magnitude of this spiritually transforming experience (STE). I can only write that I have seen the Source, the Light, God, the Creator, the other side. I have experienced the awe, the total LOVE, the JOY, the BLISS - so much so that I just wanted to continue with it forever and ever.
As a result of this experience, I have never again been the same. Sitting by a stream in the Redwood forest in Philo, California, I was lifted above the place I was sitting so that I was looking down upon the bushes around me. I realized someone was crouched in the bushes. I started to rise higher and could see that there were soldiers in the bushes. As I went further away, I could see that I was in a war zone and eventually looked down upon Central America and saw that I was hovering over Nicaragua. From there I kept going further and further away into the void of darkness watching the earth become smaller and smaller in front of me.
Then, all of a sudden when I was in the total darkness, a petal of a White Rose came down from the upper right should and wrapped around me. It was warm, loving and so very light. Then a petal came down from the left and surrounded me in an even lighter experience. This continued on and on until I thought I was going to explode in the lightness of being enveloped in the LIGHT of the petals of a White Rose, with each petal surrounding me, until it became brighter and brighter and lighter and lighter, to the point of an all encompassing explosion into the Light. The translucent petals held me in their fragrance and carried me to higher heights. There is a void here of words – in other words, there are none for what I then saw. I turned to look up to the left and literally feel that I was looking into the light of the creator - of God - of whatever you want to call it. All I could feel at the moment was that I wanted to go into that light even more. It was joyous, all encompassing love. But at one point, I realized that I had two little boys at home and was immediately pulled back to where I was sitting. I was dumbfounded - as I really was willing to give everything up to go into that Light. Is this what it is like when we leave the earth plane? If so, then I am ready to go! All Knowing was contained in this suspension of time, this moment of being I AM…and then the “I” falling off to the pure state of being—AM. Yes, there is no fear of death. There is a Knowing that we live forever and just go to other realms. In my experience, it is indeed so!
From the moment this experience happened in 1987, music began to flow through my fingers. It began with that experience when I picked up the harp, sitting by that stream in Philo and my fingers began playing with no music and my thinking part of my brain out of the way. That day, my first piece, White Rose was born. And it has not stopped. All of the compositions on the Illuminations CD have been divinely given. All of the improvisations and the compositions for patients in hospitals and hospices come from the same place. For many years, I had heard the phrase, “just let go and it will happen”—but for me, the question was, “How do you let go?” Well, by some kind of grace, it did happen. I let go with the music and it flowed.
My life has been completely changed from that experience. I work with people in hospice and sometimes I am the last person they have contact with before they leave their earthly bodies. I see and hear them reach out to their loved ones who have gone on before. I have witnessed many profound experiences in the last 20 years being by the bedside and teaching others how to provide music for these sacred situations.
About 10 years later, I had surgery where the doctor and nurses were unable to bring me back. They finally went to call upon my friend in the waiting room to bring me up. My only recollection at that time was that there was someone beckoning for me to come - neither male or female nor anyone that I recognized. All I remember is that I wanted to go with that person.
I am not unhappy with my life although I must say there was a period of about 12 years where I got rid of everything in my life and wanted to go to the other side. But then I had a visitation from my 4 grandparents - they were as real as if they were on this earth plane. They simply said. "It took you this long to figure out what you are supposed to do, so now you need to do it for awhile." After that, I re-entered into living with more of a purpose.
Our school is in it's
17th year now (2011) and we train musicians throughout the world in many
continents to try to understand the process of dying and delve into NDE studies,
to develop their musical skills and to realize that they are really just
creating a Cradle of Sound for a person to float upon when those final tender
moments come. For more information about the program, please go to
http://Harprealm.com. There will be a link to our campus on that website.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No the second time, I would say yes when they actually had to bring in a friend to help resuscitate me.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? time? not sure of your question. Probably the total amount of time that the experience took was 15-20 minutes but I lingered there for hours after trying to make sense of what had happened.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: time? not sure of your question. Probably the total amount of time that the experience took was 15-20 minutes but I lingered there for hours after trying to make sense of what had happened.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes I've never seen anything like the Light that I saw - no matter how light the sun gets or the lightest light - what I saw was a combination of Light - seeing it but feeling it and it was combined with emotion - love and joyfulness.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Yes I could hear things I couldn't before and since then, I have had some kind of ability to interpret these sounds into music on the harp.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love and Joy - LOVE and JOY -
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? Yes Amazing
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes on my second experience
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes I hovered in the Light which felt like and appeared to be HOME
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes It seemed like a very long time that I was in this space.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes Absolutely, my life changed after. There is not a day that goes by that I do not remember the experience - I wash with Rose, I honor the symbol that was given to me to see what life is all about.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes probably when I realized I needed to be there for my young children at the time.
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes many - from creating music which I never had to creating programs that others would think twice before putting themselves on the line to risk financially. They have all been fruitful with no losses. I know and trust what it is I am supposed to be doing.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes I was in a group of people where I could confide in one person and she was fairly open about it. My husband never understood and we separated shortly after the experience. I now openly share my experience with my students but my editor in my book wanted me to be careful of the wording lest people wouldn't take our program seriously!
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No Everything opened up from that day forth - for instance, I walked into a shop in Santa Rosa CA and saw a painting that related to the experience. After seeing the painting that it was a Waldorf Steiner painting, I was led to the Steiner school where I went for training to be come a Steiner teacher. That type of thing was the unfolding from the experience.
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? The LIGHT
The KNOWINGThe never turning backward