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Cedric G NDE


Since my memory being what it is (bad) I am going to tell you what I recall from my own vantage point and also what the others have told me (mother, father, brother, doctors)           

- The first thing I remember is being strapped down to a hospital bed, my wrists and legs shackled. I fight with all my strength to detach myself but without success. 

-then I remember there's a pitcher of water on a little table at the level of my knees. I am dying of thirst but I can't reach the water since I'm still tied down. To my left is the "chief" but I don't dare ask him for a drink (I don't know why). 

- then I remember my father and brother sitting before me, I don't know if I'm still tied down, in short I remember feeling only that I have insulted the nurses in front of my father which I never would have normally done. My brother is making me do some simple mathematical calculations but I am having trouble figuring them out. 

- I have enormous blue bruises on my wrists and ankles, and where they have put the intravenous needle on my arm is a gigantic blue and yellow bruise at least 20 cm around. 

later they explain, I don't know who, that I was systematically tearing out the IVs (even though if I had been myself I can assure you that I would never had even thought of doing such a thing). 

Slowly but surely I come back to myself, they explain that I've had a sort of cardiac arrest while I was sitting comfortably at my parents' house, the firemen came to take me to the hospital. The doctors induced me into a coma, then they told my mother that I had an 80% chance of not coming back from it. There was no more brain activity, my heart was beating courtesy of a machine. The day they were going to take me off life support was the day I magically woke up  :D 

It wasn't until a few days later that I regained consciousness, and I was tied to the bed because apparently I was very violent with the medical personnel while unconscious (my brother explained that I was telling him they were "torturing" me and that certainly seems to be a legitimate defense

Later they announced that I would be transferred to another hospital to take tests. 

A pretty painful period while I was constantly attached to a machine that took my cardiac readings, I had no freedom of movement. Every morning around 5 am a nurse came to take a liter of blood (at least lol). Then the "test" day arrived. At 10 am they brought me into a room equipped with a monitor, I was naked under my blue transparent hospital gown, therefore not very comfortable. And one of the two doctors present began to explain what they were going to do to me. I can assure you they told me nothing up to that point, it was the last minute, they were going to insert a tube into my artery (femoral I think something like that). In sum they made an incision in my groin, inserted the tube and then snaked it up to my heart (the probe which I felt travelling through the interior of my body). Once the probe was in place it was going to increase my heart rate to 300 beats per minute to see if my heart would remain stable at that rate. (Total stress for me). When my heart rate reach 280 beats per minute the doctor turned to me and asked if I was okay. I remember it was precisely at that moment that I felt that I was going to faint. I therefore responded "not really" and "let go". That's when I climbed slowly towards the ceiling, my vision was tunnel vision, pretty clear in the center and blurry on the sides, I climb for a few seconds, I don't hear anything, I don't feel anything, I understand that I am going up and then am violently pulled back down. That's the only thing I feel for real, the ceiling gets farther away and the descent to the bottom is at an unnatural speed. Once I'm out of that room I regain consciousness, a nurse realizes that my entire body is trembling. The first thing I tell myself is to above all else not forget what I just experienced. The next day I wake up, I see a red mark on my torso as though someone had place a hot iron there, I realize that they shocked me with that instrument you see in the movies, a defibrillator or something like that, and that's what probably provoked the brutal return to my body. 

Then they implanted a cardiac defibrillator which I have today. 

I told this story to a cardiologist who explained that is probably what happened and I never asked again. 

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?         No        

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?         No        

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?           

during the experience I seemed to be perfectly lucid and conscious, I can say the experience lasted around 5 or 6 seconds not longer (surely the time to exit the body, then the defibrillator and the shocking), I didn't have any thoughts, no feelings, no exaltation, fear, surprise, not the least little feeling of peace or well-being lol nothing except the return to the body which I did feel 

ps: your question 5 I can't respond to it, I was perfectly conscious and lucid but nor feeling anything and that's not what I would call "normal" 

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?  Less consciousness and alertness than normal 

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please  explain:            during the experience I seemed to be perfectly lucid and conscious, I can say the experience lasted around 5 or 6 seconds not longer (surely the time to exit the body, then the defibrillator and the shocking), I didn't have any thoughts, no feelings, no exaltation, fear, surprise, not the least little feeling of peace or well-being lol nothing except the return to the body which I did feel

ps: votre question 5 ci-apres je ne peux pas y répondre, j'etais parfaitement conscient et lucide mais sans rien ressentir c'est pas ce que j'appels "normal" 

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?   Yes   tunnel vision, sharp in the center fuzzy on the sides 

my memory isn't clear on what I saw but afterwards the lights that I observed were probably the fluorescent lights on the ceiling during this experience I didn't say to myself "hey I'm going to the ceiling" or "let me try to look to my left" 

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?               Yes      no sounds 

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes 

What emotions did you feel during the experience?       absolutely none 

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?      No        

Did you see a light?  Uncertain       my vision was tunnel-like but the lights I saw must certainly have been the ceiling lights 

Did you meet or see any other beings?     No        

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?            No 

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  No        

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            No        

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?           No        

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?       No        

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?          No        

Did you become aware of future events?  No     

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?    No      

Have you shared this experience with others?    Yes      2 years later I told my mother, then my brother, then my father, then my best friend 

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?     Yes      I think in the movies 

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real       

the first thing I told myself after the experience was to absolutely not forget it because it was so real especially the violent return to my body and I was afraid that the details of it would be erased right away (I know that my recall has always been mediocre) 

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    

I didn't lose the notion of time, I saw that the experience lasted a few seconds, the violent return into my body corresponding to the moment they shocked me back to life  

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:        Experience was definitely real       

same as question 40, even if I can't describe exactly what I saw the return to my body, the swiftness with which it happened, I can never forget 

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?  No        

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No        

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?   No

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?   I would really like to relive it to see whether I could go through the ceiling 

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?      Yes