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Carol V NDE

Edited lightly for clarity by Judy Shea 1/25/13


I froze to death, at twelve years old.

It was around three in the morning, January 6th, 1963. My family had just returned from our holiday vacation to a frigid house that had no heat or electricity or water, due to an ice storm earlier that evening. The temperature inside the house was below freezing.  We went to icy-cold beds thinking we would deal with the situation in the morning. We were all exhausted from the all-night drive. My body temperature plummeted and hypothermia set in. I was totally numb. Then my spirit (essence) left my body. I traveled up past my body, up through the ceiling of my room and through the roof of our house. I kept going. I traveled through time and space and void towards a light. As I traveled, I experienced a life review. My grandfather's soul greeted me on the other side, where I encountered many other souls, entities, light beings, angels...and experiences and realms that were unlike anything within our human contexts. I recognized great masters such as Buddha, Krishna, and others whom I have no names for but were perfect beings while on Earth. I experienced light beings who were "knowledge" and gave me answers to all the questions of the universe... universal truth and knowledge. I experienced Christ, and finally I experienced total and complete and perfect light, love, joy.... GOD CONSCIOUSNESS. I understood how we are all part of this amazing FREQUENCY that is GOD resonation. I was told it was not my time to stay and that I was being sent back... to my twelve year old body. I was given information and a mission. I was then immediately sent back, against my protests. Gravity hit me at one point and that was the most painful part of the whole experience… Gravity!!! When I came to, I was dazed and my sister, who slept next to me, was crying and visibly upset. She had been trying to wake me because she knew something was horribly wrong. I had stopped breathing and was lifeless. She thought I had died.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Uncertain.  The temperature in our house was below freezing due to lack of electricity and heat.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes.  There is no language, there are no words adequate to describe the experience. The experience transcends anything within the human imagination, realm.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    At  ALL times!

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal. I felt REAL and overwhelmingly loved and joyous.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   My vision was beyond words, beyond anything out human minds can comprehend. 

 Example:  Here =  grainy black & white tiny TV screen of the 50's. There = 3D Technicolor huge IMAX screen where you can almost taste and smell plus feel that you are totally part of the vision experience.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   My hearing was heightened in ways that simply do not exist here, and I became one with the sounds I heard. I communicated without talking, without words.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   Uncertain.   Do not remember…yet.  Who knows, it may come back to me. But at this time, I do not remember.  BUT, two years ago when I visited the house I died in, in France, I was shown the attic, and though I had never been allowed up there as a child, I remember passing through it on my way to... the other side. This happened when I was up there just recently!

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   JOY!!! LOVE!!!! HAPPINESS beyond anything I can describe. Contentment. Complete perfection. RAPTURE!  AND I knew I was part of everything and everyone and GOD. Maybe it is better said this way: We are ALL Connected.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   Uncertain.  I passed through space. Our minds need to put a familiar name to our experiences, yet this was beyond any human experience and reference. The best I can do is... "space."

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes.  PIXILATED LIGHT!!! (That is the best I can do.)

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin.
First, I noticed I was not alone—there were other "light" beings... spirits/souls/entities/angels. Then my grandfather's essence greeted me. (He died before I was born!)

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   Yes.   YES!  I was aware of beings who resonated at very high frequencies whom we call "perfect masters." I did not know about Buddha, Krishna, Muhammad etc. back then, so I was not able to identify them, but I did recognize them and knew they had existed on earth as shining lights.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   Yes.  My grandfather stands out the most in my memory. I remember my son, and many, many others that I have recognized during my lifetime and continue to recognize.

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   Uncertain.   There is... no time, so this is a tricky question. I have since realized that many "dreams" that I have had, over and over, were not dreams at all. They were fragments of past lives that I have had. I don't remember if I had past life recollections during my experience—somehow I vaguely remember something about it, but can not quite remember... yet.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm.
Too much information to write here. If you read my book, it is in there. The short answer is YES! I was part of a world that was AMAZING!!!!

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning.
There is NO TIME!!!!!  Time is something created for our human experience to help us by giving us definitive parameters to exist within. This is not to say there is not an order to everything outside the human experience.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about the universe.
I was shown everything there is to see, was given (and I absorbed) the answers to every question imaginable, and then some. I was in total harmony with all. I was part of everything, and yet I was myself.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No.
I am not sure what you are asking here... where I was, there are no boundaries!

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No.
There was never a BORDER,  My experience just kept expanding!!! Again... I was in an amazing place with no boundaries, basking in infinite love and joy and part of "GOD Consciousness," when I understood that I was going to be sent back to my life on earth.

Did scenes from the future come to you?  Scenes from the world's future. 
I know they did, but I don't remember at this time. I do know my son and I agreed that I would be his mother and assist him while he is here on earth. He is an amazing person!

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes.   I experienced and understood that not only is there life after death but before, too.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   No.   I experienced what GOD is. Different from all other entities I encountered, GOD is the Alpha and Omega and so perfect and saturated in LIGHT and JOY and LOVE that there is no room for anything but perfection. I have a whole chapter just describing GOD, in my book, "My Ever After Chronicles."

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   Yes.   I remembered being there before I was born, and I saw that I would return again after I die. I will go "HOME" again.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes.  ABSOLUTELY !!!! WE ARE ALL CONNECTED!!!!

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   Yes.   I understood how we get to make choices and choose how we interpret everything that happens in our life. By doing this we get to control how our life plays out, while it is playing out. I saw how EVERY SINGLE INCIDENT that we encounter as human is part of a perfect plan for us!!!!  Knowing this makes living and everyday incidents easier to understand and handle.  We can decide to label something as difficult or challenging or hardship or ... recognize these same things are gifts, opportunities and blessings.  AGAIN... there are no mistakes. It is all how you look at life.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   Yes.   I understood how we get to make choices and choose how we interpret everything that happens in our life.  By doing this, we get to control how our life plays out, while it is playing out. I saw how EVERY SINGLE INCIDENT that we encounter as humans is part of a perfect plan for us!!!! Knowing this makes living and everyday incidents easier to understand and handle. We can decide to label something as "difficult" or "challenging" or "hardship" or... recognize these same things as "gifts," "opportunities" and "blessings." AGAIN... there are no mistakes. It is all how you look at life.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes.   LOVE is really all there is!!!!!!!! LOVE realized in "the experience" is BEYOND HUMAN COMPREHENSION!!! As humans, we would probably explode if love were experienced without filters.

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   Yes.   Way too many to list here. I am constantly thrilled to discover that someone has given a lifetime of study to some aspect of some of the "UNIVERSAL" knowledge & wisdom that was "downloaded" into my "heavenly" spirit, soul, light-being. Examples:  Universal Harmonics, The Golden Ratio, Fibonacci Sequence, Flower of Life... to name a few.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes.   I was shown (downloaded into me) knowledge beyond our human comprehension and also given a special assignment to carry out here on earth.

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs I had at the time of my experience.   My experience was nothing like what I was taught to believe as a child. It was light-years past what I had been told heaven was like. There is no language to describe what I experienced.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.  I have only a vague memory of life events that occurred around the time of my experience.  MY EXPERIENCE is crystal clear and I remember even more and more, the more I think about it.

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   At twelve I had to go to church with my parents; I enjoyed Sunday School and our minister gave great sermons. However, once I had my experience, I felt I knew ALL the answers to Christianity and that the church was misrepresenting Christ and his teachings.  Oops... not a popular view for a twelve year old. I remember saying to my family and minister (right after the experience) that there are other "masters" and that our way of believing is not the only way. That GOD loves everyone and not just Presbyterians and Baptists. That all people are going to be ok after we die and that what we are being taught here does not make sense. Today I am aligned with spiritual beliefs that encompass universal truths.  As a rule, I do not go to church or temple. I go sailing, for long walks on the beach, star gaze, listen to music, wind chimes, crystal bowls, and I love nature! I do pray, meditate, sing, write, draw, paint, intend and attend services from time to time. I am part of weekly groups: Course In Miracles and The Intenders Group. I am a "Spiritual" computer surfer.

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life.

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes.   I was and still am totally in love with Christ and feel I know him personally.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No.   I always known "things," I've always had a good imagination and I was and still am very creative. I know that ANYTHING is possible!!! My life is a miracle!

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     Not really, it was/is all amazing.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes.  I told my parents and siblings my experience, IMMEDIATELY after I returned. I told our minister within a week and was ordered not to mention it ever again. They we all upset with me and thought I had lost my mind. They did not believe me and thought it was a dream.  Again, this was 1963 and I was twelve years old.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No.  In 1963, in my world, this was UNHEARD of. The only one who died and came back was Jesus. End of story!

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real.  I KNEW beyond a shadow of a doubt that what had happened, happened. BUT no one else understood or believed me. Very frustrating for me. Very confusing.  Add that to trying to make sense of and merge the supernatural experience with my life here, and it was even more bizarre and distracting. I felt a higher calling but was not of an age to be able to follow my heart and soul and spirit. I went from the highest of highs to a deep sadness. I was forbidden to complete my mission. I was ordered to never talk about my experience ever again. I was devastated!!!!

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real. The more I hear and read about others who have had similar experiences, the more excited I get. YEA!!

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes.   Sure. I tolerate and love everyone. (well, almost everyone.)  Hey, I have lived in harmony with my husband (who is my polar opposite) for over 30+ years and grow more and more in love with each passing day. This truly is inspired by heaven! I taught my son to always acknowledge each and every person he encounters by looking into their eyes and really, really listening to what they have to say. He gets it (understands) too!!!  We are all connected and we all just want to be acknowledged. That, is a specific result of my experience. Remembering that each and every one of us is special, is a gift, and that we are all CONNECTED!

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes.   Absolutely.  I get frustrated with organized Christian religions that I am familiar with. I am a believer in Christ only because I remember CHRIST from the other side. He was/is AWESOME.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   Uncertain.  I will have to think about this.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   Read my book?

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Uncertain.   It is humanly impossible to describe the experience.  But I tried : )