Carmen D NDEs
I had 2 near death experiences, at 5 years old and at 15. My 1st near death experience was when I was 5 years old. I lived in an apartment with my mother and siblings in Chicago, IL. My mother who battled from depression was given green and black capsules for her illness. At the time my mother would hide candy from us and would only give us candy after dinner. I used to see her take medicine in the bathroom and thought that she was taking candy. After she took her medicine she went and attended to my younger brother and sister. I climbed on top of the sink and opened the medicine cabinet and opened her pills and swallowed a few. When my mother called for me I ran from the bathroom and everything around me went black. I don't know how long I was out, (later on, I found out it was almost 2 hours) my mother did not drive and she called my father from work. I was taken to Cook County Hospital. My near death experience went like this:
I was climbing up a long golden ladder up through the clouds, and I was climbing very very high and at the end of the ladder, there was a man, (for me, it was God) who met me. He was of medium built with white shoulder length hair, with a white shiny white beard like angel hair and had on a white robe with sash. He took me by my hand and we walked towards a marble bench where he sat me in his lap. I felt very weak and tired from the long climb. As he sat me on his lap and laid in his arms, I reached up and touched his beard with my right hand and felt the most immense sense of love and understanding, (until this day this feeling has never left me). He stood me up and took me by the hand and as we were walking, we went to a white marble room where there was a huge screen and pictures of my life were flashing very fast. In the screen, were the most surprising images that has never left me, it was of a previous life. From backward images I saw myself as a young blond haired young man. I was killed in a car accident and I saw myself leaving the scene with a briefcase walking towards the screen. Before that I saw that I had lived in a suburb in a pale yellow ranch home with a long driveway. Outside the driveway next to the car, I was saying good bye to my wife, my almost 2 year old daughter, and son about 4 years old. After the kisses and good byes I got in my car with my briefcase to go to work. After the review, I was lead to another marble room where there was a huge open book on a marble table. My guide sat behind the table, and with his index finger pointed in the book, he scanned through the page to see if he found my name on the book. His head lifted up and looked at me, a wave of guilt overwhelmed me. I did something very very wrong, no one had to judge me. I judged myself and knew I did wrong. My guide spoke to me through my mind and I was shown a picture through a cloud of my mother dead in the center of the floor with my father, brother and sister crying around her. He told me it was not my time and that I had to go back for her. After what was shown to me I went down very quickly and found myself in the hospital room with doctors and nurses working on me. I had rubber tubes through my nose and was strapped down. I stayed in the hospital for 2 weeks. Till this day after the review of the previous life I do not drive a car. Since this near death experience I have not forgotten this. I also had another near death experience at the age of 15 since these experiences I always felt that I have one foot in heaven and one foot on earth and not truly or completely here.
Judged by Works: "And I saw the dead, small and great, stand before God; and the books were opened: and another book was opened, which is the book of life: and the dead were judged out of those things which were written in the books, according to their works. And the sea gave up the dead which were in it; and death and hell delivered up the dead which were in them: and they were judged every man according to their works.
My second near death
experience was when I was 15 years old in Hartford, CT. I had gotten out of a
day of high school classes and went alone to a dentist appointment to have a
molar removed. The dentist had given me ether in a mask for me to breath into
and I was completely out. In the experience I saw a black and white circle going
round and round then there was a noise as if someone had turned off an
electrical signal or switch. After hearing the signal turned off, I felt
complete detachment from my body and detachment for what I had on earth. I was
in a vast black & white circle that turned into a tunnel and was drawn to it in
a vacuum going very fast. While going through the tunnel, I heard what sounded
to me a roaring freight train with fast ding ding ding sounds. I was pulled by
the top back of my head going very fast into the vast semi-clouded tunnel. As I
was going through the tunnel, I also heard wind chimes ringing. As I was midway
through the long tunnel, I found myself diverted to a long hallway. There were 3
large oak doors, one the left, one across to the right and one going straight. I
was drawn to opened the first door to the left. When I went inside the room the
door closed behind me by it self and I was in pitch black darkness. I was
conscious of where I was and it seemed that there were other people there in the
dark mumbling. I couldn't understand why I was there and I felt very sad. I was
saying in my mind, Jesus, I don't belong here and feeling very sad. I was
praying to Jesus for help. As I prayed the Our Father, I saw a pin prick circle
of light and the circle was getting larger and larger, as I saw myself in the
dentist room. I saw myself, (my body) on the dentist chair with the dentist and
nurse violently pulling me and shaking me to wake up. I saw the doctor extremely
upset and the nurse very distraught. As I was seeing this I was pulled right
back into my body. After going into my body, I was very weak like a ton of brick
were piled right on top of me, and the dentist and nurse were very upset with
me. The nurse right away held my head down by my knees to bring blood flow to my
head. I did not go home till about an hour later because of the weakness. This
experience was real and it has never left me. I know now that when you die, you
loose close attachments to the ones you leave behind and to personal
possessions. There is care but not heartache. To me there is a mission why we
are here. There was total detachment of feelings no sorrow but care and there is
a higher power one we have no control over.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes When I sat down on God's lap and touched his beard I felt the most purest form of love and understanding there is nothing like it in this earth. I was accepted with pure love. I cry and miss this the most.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes At the age of 5 everything turned pitched black after the accidental overdose of my mothers pills. In the dentist office an accidental overdose of ether and almost didn't wake up.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During the 2 experiences I was alert and aware of everything that was happening.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: During the 2 experiences I was alert and aware of everything that was happening.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes I see colors more vivid and cannot be out in the sun to long it hurts my eyes.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Yes My hearing is more heightened and cannot stand loud noise.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? At the age of 5 I experienced unconditional love, acceptance, I judged myself for what I did wrong the overdose of my mothers pills. I also felt that I broke the rule of life it was not to be taken by this way. I also felt that I had to fulfill a mission and had a commitment to my mother and the family. At the age of 15 it was not my time to go home.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Yes I was in a vast black & white circle that turned into a tunnel and was drawn to it in a vacuum going very fast. While going through the tunnel, I heard what sounded to me a roaring freight train with fast ding ding ding sounds. I was pulled by the top back of my head going very fast into the vast semi-clouded tunnel. As I was going through the tunnel, I also heard wind chimes ringing.
Did you see a light? Yes I did see light when I entered the hallway of doors. I found myself diverted to a long hallway. There were 3 large oak doors, one the left, one across to the right and one going straight. I was drawn to opened the first door to the left. When I went inside the room the door closed behind me by it self and I was in pitch black darkness.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes Yes, I felt that I have met God and my spirit guide. We spoke through our minds.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Yes At 5, I was given a short life review and was shown that I had a previous life. In the review, I was a male and had a ready made family and that I died in a car accident. Till this day, I don't drive a car.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes My parents at age 5 thought that I would not survive the night. At 15 the dentist had a record on what happened. He no longer practices.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes Yes, I visited a place in light and clouds with multiple white rooms in white marble.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes It seemed that there was no sense of time.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes At the age of 5 I experienced unconditional love, acceptance, I judged myself for what I did wrong the overdose of my mothers pills. I also felt that I broke the rule of life it was not to be taken by this way. I also felt that I had to fulfill a mission and had a commitment to my mother and the family. At the age of 15 it was not my time to go home.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes I had to fulfill a mission to my mother and the family and had to return.
Did you become aware of future events? No
While I was in the other side, I did not see or became aware of future events.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes I sense and dream when danger is about to happen to my family and of world future events that I have no control of. I also dream of deceased relatives and friends and they give me messages or I travel where they are.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes When I tell my family of the previous life review as a man they try to understand. I also told them of my fear of driving.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No Not until Dr. Raymond Moody came out with his book and movie of these experiences. When I read and saw the movie I cried. There were others out there like me. I also read Dannion Brinkley's book Saved By The Light.
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real At first I thought it was a dream but with dreams you tend to forget. This was not a dream it was real and I will never forget it. I feel that these experiences has been imbedded in my soul. Dr. Raymond Moody's book and Dannion Brinkley's book verified to me that these experiences also happened to me.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes, when I met GOD and he sat me in his lap and I laid in his arms, I reached up and touched his beard with my right hand and felt the most immense sense of love and understanding, until this day this feeling has never left me. I wish the world would feel like this with one another. I miss his light of acceptance and love.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real The reality of my experience that no one has the right to take a life or of your own. Only GOD has that right. Everyone is here for a purpose or lesson to learn. We all have an expiration date.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Yes, I feel closer to GOD and Jesus because of these experiences. I am compassionate of those less fortunate. I am closer to my mother and family.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No I was brought up in a Catholic home and attended Catholic schools and attended mass on Sundays with the family. I have not stopped praying the rosary.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No No, but I am highly sensitive to medicines. I cannot take morphine for pain after 1 C-section nor can I take codeine for colds.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? That GOD and Jesus are real. There is a total detachment of the body and of the ones we leave behind, that there is care but not heartache. I do not fear death.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes Yes, the questions did ask of the experience.
Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Yes, would like to know if other experiencers also read books on this subject and verified experiences through Dr. Raymond Moody's books or Dannion Brinkley's books. Thank you.