EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
An ex and I were arguing in his mom and his apartment. I had been kicked
out of my families house on disagreement. I didn't want to leave home, It was an
abusive relationship. We were arguing about ridiculous things and I decided to
start packing to leave. He then started pushing me, so I pushed back to get
through the bedroom door. And he flung me onto the bed and started choking me. I
tried to speak but nothing came out. I was fighting him to get him off me. I
remember kicking him in the ribs and him squeezing tighter and putting his
weight on me. I couldn't fight anymore. I felt my muscles flexing but I wasn't
moving anymore. then I didn't even feel my muscles flex. I felt this really
irritating numbing feeling all over my body to my finger tips and I was cold.
I stared off to the light in the room. I remember it looking so pretty to me. My
vision seemed to revolve around that light. Then it went black. I felt light.
Like I was a feather floating up towards the sky. Then I saw the color baby
blue. At this point I didn't feel anything. I was fine.. Then I stopped
floating, I was stuck. And in that baby blue setting my sister appeared like a
photograph and I started hearing voices. After I saw her my emotions took hold
of me. I was sad and determined to stop going up. I kept saying to myself "No!
I'm not done yet"
I felt myself fall down. And I saw black again. When all
this was happening my eyes were open the whole time, so my vision came back and
I started gasping for air. I wasn't able to move for a couple seconds after
that. The tingly feeling was all over and my head hurt so bad I felt like
vomiting and my heart was hurting. My ex was threatening me to stop gasping with
tears in his eyes. Isn't that sweet.(<-sarcasm)
At the time of your experience was there an
associated life-threatening event?
Yes
My boyfriend at the time flung me on the
bed in a rage and started choking me. I was kicking and throwing punches, then
he put his weight on me.
Was
the experience difficult to express in words?
No
At what time during the
experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and
alertness?
When I saw my sisters face I realized what
was going on.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness
than normal
I was more alert than conscious I believe.
After I saw her face I wasn't okay with it anymore. I was trying to come up with
how I was going to get back. And after that I fell. I knew I had to come back, I
wanted to see her grow up.
Please compare your vision during the experience to
your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the
experience.
My vision was like the sky, just like this background
actually. But I was not outside before than.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to
your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the
experience.
Actually there was some ringing
in my ears, then I heard nothing. Before the experience my hearing was normal
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were
occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your
physical / earthly body?
Uncertain
Does voices count? I don't remember what
they were saying, they were in low volume and there were a lot.
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
At the beginning I was fine, I was floating it felt nice. Then
I started feeling strange when I stopped going up. When I saw my sisters face I
was overwhelmed with emotion.
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel?
No
Did
you see an unearthly light?
No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or
presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?
I heard a voice I could not
identify
I don't know what the voices said. there were a
lot of voices I could barely hear them and they were all whispering out of order
from each other.
Did
you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who
are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?
No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or
alive) beings?
No
Did you become aware of past events in your life
during your experience?
No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down?
Everything
seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
It felt like time stopped. I was by myself in that baby
blue scene until the picture of my sister faded in.
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?
No
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Uncertain
I'm not sure what your asking
Did you come to a border or point of no return?
No
Did scenes from the future come to you?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any
specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not)
continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any
specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or
does not) exist?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any
specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to
this lifetime?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any
specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or
unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?
Uncertain
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding love?
Yes
I realized despite me and my sister not
getting along, that she meant everything to me and I had to be there for her.
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information /
awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living
our earthly lives?
No
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?
No
What
occurred during your experience included:
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the
beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Before this happened I didn't believe in a higher
power. I felt. If god was so great why did I have to go through so much at such
a young age? I felt cursed. When I was little I had to go to church with my
family. But I never thought like a catholic. After hearing those voices I kind
of feel like something else is out there watching my back in extreme cases.
Unless it was just my many voices trying to reach out to myself to go back down.
How
accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events
that occurred around the time of the experience?
I remember the experience more
accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the
experience
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life
after your experience:
I am closer
with my sister than ever before. I am back home, things aren't the same but I
feel cared about again. I was quiet even when I needed to speak, and I wasn't
social. Now I am independent. I am hard at trusting now though, but I have had
healthy relationships since then.
My experience directly resulted in:
Moderate changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that
occurred as a result of the experience?
Uncertain
I believed in the afterlife before this and I
still do, just a little more than before. I know I lived at least once before
but not because of this experience. I value my life and love more than before.
Are
there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or
significant to you?
I feel I came
back because I was reminded of what mattered the most. My little sister needed
me. She still does, but I think since I didn't see her for so long. Seeing her
was a memory I would of lost if I had given up.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other
special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?
No
Are there one or several parts of your experience
that are especially meaningful or significant to you?
I feel I came back because I was
reminded of what mattered the most. My little sister needed me. She still does,
but I think since I didn't see her for so long. Seeing her was a memory I would
of lost if I had given up.
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
No
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Yes
I know of nde because I cheated death
twice. The first time was a suicide attempt to hang myself when I was 15. These
experiences were far apart, I had actually forgotten about my attempt until now.
What
did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks)
after it happened:
Experience was
definitely real
I tried to stay with a mutual friend we
had after that. But that started to involve her and her mom. They were so sweet
he easily took advantage of them. They helped me run away from all I knew. I
moved half way across town to avoid seeing him. I was just so determined to get
out of there, I didn't think of anything else.
What
do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:
Experience was definitely real
Have your relationships changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I am harder to
approach now. My sister and I are really close.
Have your religious
beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the
experience?
No
Did the questions asked and information that you
provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
Please offer any suggestions that
you may have to improve this questionnaire.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate
your experience? there are a lot of
repeated questions asked in different forms.
