Brian T's NDE
One summer when the temperature was soaring above 105 degree. My brother begged and persuaded my mother and my other two sisters to go to the Comal river to escape the summer heat. My mother was little uncomfortable about going but she understood about the escape of Texas's unbearable heat.
We went to Comal River nearby New Braunfels, Texas. To make this story brief. Hundreds or probably thousands of Texas teens swarmed over the fence and ignored the warning sign of dangers there. Some teens jumped over the bridge into the river, about 20 feet or more. The heat was really unbearable during that time. Imagine people walking with bare feet on hot rocks or hot sidewalk, they were hopping to avoid the feeling of burning bare feet.
One afternoon I was about 10 years old, friends or family members could get separated easily by water's currents and get lost somewhere in the river.
I was pulled down to the side and I grabbed the sidewalk and arrived to the ladder to get out then I searched for my brother or sisters with no luck. I walked to a farther, small dam, looking less danger than the first one. I decided to walk over the small dam which has a lot of water falling over. The water falling down was about 4 feet to 6 feet, I believe. I walked and slipped down because the algae was so slippery. I was rather an excellent swimmer. I did not panic but was very aware of water's strong current.
Down the water fall, I tried to fight the current and get my body away. I got caught by undertow current and I tried to swim out, the direction out was lost on me. I could not figure which direction was up, down or right, or even left. I panicked and was very scared what happened to me. I screamed in the water for help, my thought was on my mother and family. Water got into my mouth and the breathing ceased to none. My body felt so cold and my brain sort of closed down on me. Blackness covered everything around me. I realized that the Door of Life was closed on me. My body said, "Is that the death experience? Is that it?" then I sort of black out.
Then ticking of electricity jolts hit my feet and swarmed all way from feet to my head and my body found such awe over the feeling. Right away, my life was shown in a flashing increments of "Movie" rolling year by year, individual by individual. My first favorite flashing was when I was born out and my mother's beautiful face was shown for the first time in my life! I did not realize how much love my mother has for me. Second flashing was- I was playing with my brother and sisters and how closeness I felt being with them. Third flashing was my father throwing my body up in the air, a lot of laughter and some puzzled feeling flashing.. then the rolls went fast, faster and I felt so many stars bursting all over my head or body. It was so unreal. Then I saw light at the end of the tunnel bursting toward me. My spirit or soul was caught into the Light Tunnel. I flew through the light tunnel. I could still remember the feeling even today! Only description I could give you is the feeling was almost identical to the movie, "Contact" The New Built Ball Spacecraft falling down the Giant Gyro-Space machine. The actress went through tunnel right away and she could see outside space by her "ball space shuttle." That's what I saw when I was zoomed through the tunnel. I could see some universe by the tunnel's transparency. Such awesome feeling flying through the tunnel at Light-Speed.
I arrived at the boundary while floating my body near the boundary. I was shocked how much load was lifted off my shoulder such as many ridiculous rules or laws being imposed on us people. For the first time I realized how much bondage we had from the government or churches was lifted off my shoulder. And at the same time all of the light "Conscience of Laws" was, I could not find the right word to describe the experience. It's much like hurricane drawing all energy toward eye of the storm. It's almost the same feeling of drawing all knowledge and conscience of real-beings into my body and mind!
One example when I approached the boundary. No explanation was necessary for me to understand, at the age of 10, that once I cross the boundary, I could never come back - period. I was more than thrilled to cross. I intended to cross but my ancestors over another boundary side caught my attention. They were talking in Telepathy which caught my attention. I was born profoundly DEAF and had all hearing family members, which all of them knew sign language! I could read or communicate with about 20 ancestors of mine and others through telepathic methods. It overwhelmed me. I could not believe how many people I could telepathize with simultaneously.
I saw the unexplained community, scenic and buildings, not built by people by obviously by some kind of Supernatural builder. The Mega-city was almost so perfect and flawless. I saw the perfect mega-city through my ancestors. One of my grandmother or great-grandmother or even great-great grandmother was surprised and puzzled that I arrive at the boundary. All of them showed their shocking surprise that I arrived. They were not expecting me at all. But they opened their arms welcoming me to come over. One of my ancestor telepathized, "Why is he here? Is he supposed to be here now?" asking others "I am surprised too. I thought his time was in short future but not now." Another jumped in radiantly full of love and joy to see my presence and opened my eyes to our new future. I could not even describe in words what I saw.. Sorry I am lost with the words.
In a flashing second. An angel approached me firmly and questioned me, "What are you doing here?" I was so shocked at his question. At the first glimpse of my Guardian Angel, I knew that he was there when My mother gave birth to me and that he shared the joy and said that my birth was a completed task in his "Listing." I looked at him with such inspiring feeling. I felt so closed to him but he pushed me one step away. He asked me telepathically, "What happened?" I did not care what happened, I was fulfilled and burst with joy and love. I wanted to go over the boundary right away. My angel approached me firmly then scanned me and saw right through me that I drowned! I was so shocked that he knew by "scanning through me" without any conversation. The firm statement from my own Guardian Angel was "Your time is not up now. You have some unfinished business to do. Go Back." At first I shrugged and tried to sneak beside him. He moved like lightning and put his hand toward me. I felt my body being pulled at incredible speed backward and the light of tunnel zoomed out of my eyes and I was slapped back into my body with such forcible hands.
I felt my body once again and I was puzzled to why I am still my body and I woke up and realize that I was still in the water and I felt that I actually breathed in the water, which is not the case. I heard voice speaking, "Stand straight firmly." Without any question, I stood straight and I felt a big hand wrapping around my body and took my body out of the fall current. And my body was pushed to the end of the land where I grabbed for control. I got out of the water and my mouth poured all the water out of my body on the land. I did not believe how much water got into my body and how much it got out. My life and perspective changed after that!! I knew for the moment I will not be the same person!! For the first time I saw my life ahead of me and the jolts feeling that I experienced while throwing water out of my mouth hit me so hard. I was so filled with hope and love and felt almost all of nature or people all around me.
I never told my mother, brother or sisters what I experienced! Something deeply inside me reminded me to keep silent about the situation. All I felt was more enlightening feeling enfolding around me. The words of incredible experience right there is not possible to explain in Earthly sense. I felt that I was standing right by Twilight Door and the 6th or 7th Dimension Door of the future unfolding in front of me.
many visions and dreams, some of them are pleasant and some of them are
terrifying.. I stop at here. By the way My parents, brother and sisters found
out about my experience when I was about 31 years old. I just felt that the
timing was right to break my news. My mother was so shocked and it hit her
hard!! My sisters looked at me and ran then hugged me. She could not imagine the
life without me. I just smiled.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes The experience that I had was very difficult to express in words, beyond what normal people would understand or relate to. It's full of awes and 360 degree of perspective changed after experiencing Near Death Experience (NDE). Often I questioned myself why I am still back here and I am ready to go back anytime even if I have a wonderful family- wife and two dearest children. If I was given two choices- to stay or go back to the so-called Kingdom, I would choose the latter one without any question asked or raised at all.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was at my highest level of consciousness and alertness at the whole time and I remembered every details of it. I did not for a minute lost a minute or a second of consciousness except for the black-out experience but I was aware of my black-out moment.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: I felt so much stimulating energy all around me including the Police using their radar gun to catch the speedsters. I felt their radar gun's gamma or whatever it is called. I even reduced my speed to a specific location and saw the police car, once I pass them, naturally, I speed up way pass 80 mph without any fear of being caught by police. I realized that I really took advantage of the special gifts given to me. That is one of the smallest example I could give.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? No
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
No I remain profoundly deaf and I am proud of it.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? There is no words that I could describe what kind of emotions I felt during my experience. I was stimulated fully energetically and with such euphoria jolting all around and throughout my soul, spirit or even body. My body, as I perceive right now, is just a tool for my spirit and soul.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Yes I passed fully through a tunnel till I arrived to the boundary. Unspoken rules or law was radiating right through me without any explanation at all. I understood them all at once. Wow.. It feels like I understood about one thousand of books of laws at once without reading or hearing it!! Wow. How it could evolve our society!! Wished we had it here earthly!
Did you see a light? Yes I did not see a light but all spectrum of light all around me!! A light is not the same as light we see on our normal daily life. It is more of light being alive and we are aware of all light all around us. Even when touching my feet on the grass. I could feel every movement of each grass itself!!
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes Best part was meeting my ancestors and my own Guardian Angel. Wow. I did not realize that every details of my life was written accordingly although I was still given some choices.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Yes As mentioned above. I saw increments of reviews of my past events in my life.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Uncertain I never bothered to get into the verification, it is meaningless to me in terms of America's obsession of proofs or verifications.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes It is even more beautiful than the scene of "Sounds of Music" It is so magically and so filled with light. Not even one of man-made building or road, or sidewalk was detected! Even animals and farms were there in my presence. Different kind of community not seen alike on our earth. Simply I could not explain how their system work.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes I felt that I got stuck with twilight of space and time. I saw my past and my present along with my future happening at the same time. Is it altered. No it is not altered at all but we just missed the hidden realms.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes I was shown something that would occurs in the future. It scares me to even mention what would happen. It's like "hearing" or "seeing" millions of people screaming at the same time when the natural disasters would fall upon them. It's beyond the control of government. My purpose has not been revealed to me yet but I am aware of why I am being sent back.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes I wished that I crossed the boundary!! It would be the best thing ever happened to me.
Did you become aware of future events? Yes
A lot of dreams and visions have been revealed to me. More than 10 events has occurred and there are many more to come yet that I saw in my visions or dreams. Some of the dreams are so symbolism and it is hard to interpret.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes With only few of my friends. I finally shared my experiences with my friends in college and more out of college. Their reactions were "Wow. it is beyond their understandings." Some of my friends have experienced my dream of vision revealed to them, they thought I was out of my mind. But when it happened to them. They ran to me to verify more details of my vision or dream. Please.. Once I reveal those visions or dreams to them. I tend to leave them behind.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No I found more about the Near Death Experience book written by Dr. Moody and I begun to share my experiences with some reservations. His book really awake me up how some people went through and how deep I was through compared to many of them. I felt that I passed every phrases except for the crossing the boundary.
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real I just returned back to my normal childhood life but with more alertness.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? I had many experiences. I could name them endless. One of my experience on a dream. I dreamed that I was standing bare feet on the grass. I saw my toenail. I was zoomed to the toenail and I felt like I was standing on my own toenail. I saw million of butterflies coming out of my toenail's edge to the point when it became few till it constraints up to one at a time and I was helping pulling one by one out. Then I was zoomed right through my toe nail to see how many cocoons were wrapped by my skin's side. That was just one of my many dreams shared.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real I don't have to explain how real it was. I have been there and I am not obligated to give any proofs because it is out of our realms.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes In many ways. Yes.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes My view on religions has changed. I perceive the churches more to be institutionalized than to be in a very close relationship with God or nature around them. I still applaud the churches for spreading the Good News. I just wished that they would be more in touch with people outside their churches and I understand why Jesus backed off from the religious path and get into more reality of people's needs.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain Pretty much covered but there are more questions that could be asked!!