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Brandy M NDE 6311

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

On 17th July my waters broke, and together with my husband we went to the clinic designated by the university insurer, as I was near the end of the course in History of Art. This was  in the city of Barcelona. When I got there, the duty midwife examined me, and  I did not cry out or express  my pain in any way (I have never cried out from pain; I breathe deeply, a form of tension reduction which reduces the pain also, somewhat). Anyway, as I did not make a sound the midwife said I was not in labor, that I certainly had not broken my waters, and most probably I had wet myself without knowing it. I replied no, that my waters had broken and the fluid was transparent and not urine-colored. She paid no attention and sent me home. At home, the whole day of 17 July I spent shifting from sofa to chair to bed... finally we decided, the morning of the 18th, to go back to the clinic. At that time in Spain the 18th July was a holiday, "The Uprising", a celebration which our fragile democracy had not yet eliminated from the calendar. On that day bombs went off near the clinic. Finally the gynaecologist attended and after an exploratory examination opted for an urgent caesarean section. I was exhausted, no strength was left in me even for breathing. My whole body hurt and especially the lumbar region. My legs were very swollen and the lower part of my vagina pained me. They stretchered me to surgery and did the caesarean. I was put under general anaesthetic.

Suddenly I saw myself outside my body floating around inside the operating-room. I saw my daughter. I saw the reflex-tests being done on her and the doctor listening to her heartbeat. The nurse made notes on a sheet of paper of all my daughter's physical responses, finally saying out loud: "Normal reflexes and excellent lung-function." I could see myself covered with a green-colored sheet with an opening in the middle, and how they were sewing the incision from the caesarean which had had to be made vertically as I was on the point of dying. My heart had no strength. They were all running and putting on the surgical masks. I felt no pain and I was more concerned for my daughter whom they took out after washing her under a tap and wrapping her up in white towels.

After that I fell into a lethargy from which I was awoken by the voice of my aunt, who was like a mother to me when I arrived from Mexico. The had such a strong voice that I could hear he quite clearly. She had hoped for a boy, but I loved my child from right down inside, I didn't care about the sex of him/her. I knew it was a little girl, but could not speak, so could not tell her. What she said and which I found very unwelcome was: "I would never have seen you as the mother of a daughter."  I was feeling happy, and just thinking about my daughter. My husband took my hand, and as we already knew the name we would give her if it was a girl (I had chosen it years before!) he said to me "Queralt (this means Quer - Stone and Alt - High in the Iberian and Latin. It is also the geographical name of a Virgin, patroness of a village in the Catalan pre-Pyrenees). He said : "Queralt is great, it's lovely." All this in the Catalan language which is very sweet and melodic, a language of musical vowel sounds. Queralt is a sacred place from time immemorial. When my husband to me to this place, as he was and is a lover of mountaineering, I was enchanted by the surroundings and said to him: "I don't know if we will get married, but whether or not I marry you, if I ever have a daughter I am going to call her "Queralt."

Afterwards the gynaecologist confirmed that I had been on the point of death and that the baby had the cord around her neck, which is why she stayed high and did not come down. When the midwife examined me and realized the baby was still high up, she decided I was not in labor.  Now my daughter is an admirable researcher of the history of the Civil War and the mass graves of  the Franco era. Like her father, a great historian. She weighed 3 kilos.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?

No everything should have gone well. The nine months were already gone. My waters broke at home... normal, everything as normal. The pregnancy was normal, problem-free.

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes. It is always difficult to put these things in words, define the exact circumstances of a parallel life moment.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The moment when I saw my daughter.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?

More consciousness and alertness than normal. Greatly superior to normal. I was floating outside my body and my "I" was suspended above it, without a doubt. I had no sensation of there being a ceiling.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.

I could see very clearly with great precision, and I was able also to see everyone in the OR, a surgeon-doctor-gynaecologist, an anaesthetist and three nurses. I saw my daughter, her little body when they placed it under a gush of water.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.

I heard with clarity the voices of everyone present and everything they were saying to each other. Their voices were anxious and speeded up, as were their movements. I hear my daughter cry when she was put under the water-tap.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?

Yes. Everything was of this earth and everything was exactly as happens in an urgent caesarean operation. As well as seeing the tubes, the mask, how the aesthetic was being administered, I saw a nurse passing operating instruments to the surgeon-gynaecologist who was trying to solve the problem. I only had the experience within the room. I saw no event parallel to that.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Fear of leaving my daughter without a mom. I had to come back for love of my daughter and my husband.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain. I did not get to go into it, but there was a sort of entry, or exit, of light above me. I decided not to go there, I couldn't leave my daughter and husband.

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes. A light circling above me as I explained above.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?

Some unfamiliar and strange place. I think that levitating out of the body is in itself to be in a supernatural world.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?

Everything about myself or others. But I was so concerned for my daughter that it is all I was thinking of. Out of my body, but without paying attention to the Light which was above me.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes. The Light which filled the whole space above me.

Did you come to a border or point of no return?

I came to a definite conscious decision to "return" to life. I could not leave, as the angel told me when I was 4 years old. I still had his words very present to me. "Margarita, it is not yet Time," and so I came back to my body.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?

Yes, because I had already had an experience at 4 years old and it did not bother me to return to life with serenity and enormous joy at being near the people I love, and with no fear of death.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?

Yes. It reinforced what I experienced at 4 years old. God exists because He is inside us. We bear him within and he always lets us choose, though his message may not be welcome to us.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?

Yes. I believe I lived in Egyptian times, which I think were the same as the Atlanteans or Aztecs.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?

Yes. There is a universal thinking. Jung already predicted this. Universal thought is the same as the All in All.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?

No. I was sad and it seemed bad to me that the doctors and their team should suffer, this was specific and their pain filled the room.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?

No. I was sad and it seemed bad to me that the doctors and their team should suffer, this was specific and their pain filled the room.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?

Yes. The love of life of everyone who was present there. The generosity and the fight for survival were not just to do with my own life, but also the interior life of the doctors and the team themselves. I think every doctor who has a vocation is pained at the thought of losing the life of a patient.

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? Yes. Actually I have answered this in the previous question. I discovered the love which is offered in the practice of doctoring or nursing.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? No

What occurred during your experience included:

Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. My belief in the quantum All of the Universe dates from when I was 4 years old. It validated my previous experience, helped me not to despair and to see what unfolded with serenity. But of course with concern for my daughter.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?

 I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience . My two extraterrestrial experiences are and have been very precise and recalled in great detail. Ah! and in what colors! I was only afraid of death not for itself but for the thought of leaving my daughter and husband by themselves.

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: It reaffirmed for me that we are all part of a Whole, which is ethical, harmonious, musical and enveloping.

My experience directly resulted in: No changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? No. I had them from 4 years old, the the Angel appeared in front of me.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes. I had it and still have it. Today my son sent me a message saying that he really liked La Contra de la Vanguardia for the inter view which Lluis Amiguet had done with Pin van Lommel. I had been thinking of my son when he sent me the message.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? They all are and I have had that thing call "What a coincidence." I am someone who believes coincidences do not exist; they happen, and we just need to pay attention to the meaning of them.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes. With my husband, now ex-husband.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes. I already explained this morning.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real . Luminous reality, joyful and full of light.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time? Experience was definitely real. I had it and it was real.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes. We change every day, if we pay attention to changes.

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Yes, that situations happen to me which are linked one to another, without wanting or seeking it.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes. I said in the previous experience sent this morning.

What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to you? I already answered this too, this morning.

Please offer any suggestions that you may have to improve this questionnaire. Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience?

I would like it if one day there were a Universal Concerto. Played in churches and concert-halls, all together, playing in unison. To sent a musical message to the vibrating Universe.