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Brandy M NDE 6311 |
EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
On 17th July my waters broke, and together with my husband we went to the clinic
designated by the university insurer, as I was near the end of the course in
History of Art. This was in the city of Barcelona. When I got there, the
duty midwife examined me, and I did
not cry out or express my pain in
any way (I have never cried out from pain; I breathe deeply, a form of tension
reduction which reduces the pain also, somewhat). Anyway, as I did not make a
sound the midwife said I was not in labor, that I certainly had not broken my
waters, and most probably I had wet myself without knowing it. I replied no,
that my waters had broken and the fluid was transparent and not urine-colored.
She paid no attention and sent me home. At home, the whole day of 17 July I
spent shifting from sofa to chair to bed... finally we decided, the morning of
the 18th, to go back to the clinic. At that time in Spain the 18th July was a
holiday, "The Uprising", a celebration which our fragile democracy had not yet
eliminated from the calendar. On that day bombs went off near the clinic.
Finally the gynaecologist attended and after an exploratory examination opted
for an urgent caesarean section. I was exhausted, no strength was left in me
even for breathing. My whole body hurt and especially the lumbar region. My legs
were very swollen and the lower part of my vagina pained me. They stretchered me
to surgery and did the caesarean. I was put under general anaesthetic.
Suddenly I saw myself outside my body floating around inside the operating-room. I saw my daughter. I saw the reflex-tests being done on her and the doctor listening to her heartbeat. The nurse made notes on a sheet of paper of all my daughter's physical responses, finally saying out loud: "Normal reflexes and excellent lung-function." I could see myself covered with a green-colored sheet with an opening in the middle, and how they were sewing the incision from the caesarean which had had to be made vertically as I was on the point of dying. My heart had no strength. They were all running and putting on the surgical masks. I felt no pain and I was more concerned for my daughter whom they took out after washing her under a tap and wrapping her up in white towels.
After that I fell into a lethargy from which I was awoken by the voice of my
aunt, who was like a mother to me when I arrived from Mexico. The had such a
strong voice that I could hear he quite clearly. She had hoped for a boy, but I
loved my child from right down inside, I didn't care about the sex of him/her. I
knew it was a little girl, but could not speak, so could not tell her. What she
said and which I found very unwelcome was: "I would never have seen you as the
mother of a daughter." I was
feeling happy, and just thinking about my daughter. My husband took my hand, and
as we already knew the name we would give her if it was a girl (I had chosen it
years before!) he said to me "Queralt (this means Quer - Stone and Alt
- High in the Iberian and Latin. It is also the geographical name of a
Virgin, patroness of a village in the Catalan pre-Pyrenees). He said : "Queralt
is great, it's lovely." All this in the Catalan language which is very sweet and
melodic, a language of musical vowel sounds. Queralt is a sacred place from time
immemorial. When my husband to me to this place, as he was and is a lover of
mountaineering, I was enchanted by the surroundings and said to him: "I don't
know if we will get married, but whether or not I marry you, if I ever have a
daughter I am going to call her "Queralt."
Afterwards the gynaecologist confirmed that I had been on the point of death and
that the baby had the cord around her neck, which is why she stayed high and did
not come down. When the midwife examined me and realized the baby was still high
up, she decided I was not in labor.
Now my daughter is an admirable researcher of the history of the Civil War and
the mass graves of the Franco era.
Like her father, a great historian. She weighed 3 kilos.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
No everything should have gone well. The nine months were already gone. My
waters broke at home... normal, everything as normal. The pregnancy was normal,
problem-free.
Was the experience difficult to express in words?
Yes. It is always difficult to put these things in words, define the exact
circumstances of a parallel life moment.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness?
The moment when I saw my daughter.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal. Greatly superior to normal. I was
floating outside my body and my "I" was suspended above it, without a doubt. I
had no sensation of there being a ceiling.
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that
you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
I could see very clearly with great precision, and I was able also to see
everyone in the OR, a surgeon-doctor-gynaecologist, an anaesthetist and three
nurses. I saw my daughter, her little body when they placed it under a gush of
water.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that
you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
I heard with clarity the voices of everyone present and everything they were
saying to each other. Their voices were anxious and speeded up, as were their
movements. I hear my daughter cry when she was put under the water-tap.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that
your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
Yes. Everything was of this earth and everything was exactly as happens in an
urgent caesarean operation. As well as seeing the tubes, the mask, how the
aesthetic was being administered, I saw a nurse passing operating instruments to
the surgeon-gynaecologist who was trying to solve the problem. I only had the
experience within the room. I saw no event parallel to that.
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Fear of leaving my daughter without a mom. I had to come back for love of my
daughter and my husband.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel?
Uncertain. I did not get to go into it, but there was a sort of entry, or exit,
of light above me. I decided not to go there, I couldn't leave my daughter and
husband.
Did you see an unearthly light?
Yes. A light circling above me as I explained above.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an
unidentifiable voice?
No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth
who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha,
etc.)?
No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?
No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
Some unfamiliar and strange place. I think that levitating out of the body is in
itself to be in a supernatural world.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down?
Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?
Everything about myself or others. But I was so concerned for my daughter that
it is all I was thinking of. Out of my body, but without paying attention to the
Light which was above me.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes. The Light which filled the whole space above me.
Did you come to a border or point of no return?
I came to a definite conscious decision to "return" to life. I could not leave,
as the angel told me when I was 4 years old. I still had his words very present
to me. "Margarita, it is not yet Time," and so I came back to my body.
Did scenes from the future come to you?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly
life (“life after death”)?
Yes, because I had already had an experience at 4 years old and it did not
bother me to return to life with serenity and enormous joy at being near the
people I love, and with no fear of death.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?
Yes. It reinforced what I experienced at 4 years old. God exists because He is
inside us. We bear him within and he always lets us choose, though his message
may not be welcome to us.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?
Yes. I believe I lived in Egyptian times, which I think were the same as the
Atlanteans or Aztecs.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not)
exist?
Yes. There is a universal thinking. Jung already predicted this. Universal
thought is the same as the All in All.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?
No. I was sad and it seemed bad to me that the doctors and their team should
suffer, this was specific and their pain filled the room.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?
No. I was sad and it seemed bad to me that the doctors and their team should
suffer, this was specific and their pain filled the room.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding love?
Yes. The love of life of everyone who was present there. The generosity and the
fight for survival were not just to do with my own life, but also the interior
life of the doctors and the team themselves. I think every doctor who has a
vocation is pained at the thought of losing the life of a patient.
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information /
awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living
our earthly lives?
Yes. Actually I have answered this in the previous question. I discovered the
love which is offered in the practice of doctoring or nursing.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?
No
What occurred during your experience included:
Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of
your experience. My belief in the quantum All of the Universe dates from when I
was 4 years old. It validated my previous experience, helped me not to despair
and to see what unfolded with serenity. But of course with concern for my
daughter.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events
that occurred around the time of the experience?
I remember the experience as accurately
as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience . My two
extraterrestrial experiences are and have been very precise and recalled in
great detail. Ah! and in what colors! I was only afraid of death not for itself
but for the thought of leaving my daughter and husband by themselves.
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:
It reaffirmed for me that we are all part of a Whole, which is ethical,
harmonious, musical and enveloping.
My experience directly resulted in:
No changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that
occurred as a result of the experience?
No. I had them from 4 years old, the the Angel appeared in front of me.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your
experience that you did not have before the experience?
Yes. I had it and still have it. Today my son sent me a message saying that he
really liked La Contra de la Vanguardia for the inter view which Lluis
Amiguet had done with Pin van Lommel. I had been thinking of my son when he sent
me the message.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful
or significant to you?
They all are and I have had that thing call "What a coincidence." I am someone
who believes coincidences do not exist; they happen, and we just need to pay
attention to the meaning of them.
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes. With my husband, now ex-husband.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your
experience?
Yes. I already explained this morning.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to
weeks) after it happened?
Experience was definitely real . Luminous reality, joyful and full of light.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time?
Experience was definitely real. I had it and it was real.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes. We change every day, if we pay attention to changes.
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result
of your experience?
No
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the
experience?
No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?
Yes, that situations happen to me which are linked one to another, without
wanting or seeking it.
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes. I said in the previous experience sent this morning.
What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience
(NDE) do that would be of interest to you?
I already answered this too, this morning.
Please offer any suggestions that you may have to improve this questionnaire.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your
experience?
I would like it if one day there were a Universal Concerto. Played in churches
and concert-halls, all together, playing in unison. To sent a musical message to
the vibrating Universe.