Brandy M NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I had been seeing a doctor for sickness and weight gain. He never took blood tests or took my blood pressure into account, which turned out to be very low and that was why I tended to faint (I didn't know this till later). When I complained of weight gain, exceptional tiredness, bloat and a really sick feeling, all he did was take two samples of pills from his drawer and he gave them to me. He said to take one each day and call him in a month. I almost didn't make it to a month. He didn't tell me what these drugs were for, but I followed his instructions and took one each day. I didn't sleep for three nights and didn't know why. The morning after Labor Day, I had to get up early to start a new job, and when I got out of bed, I began to feel a loud buzzing in my head. As I entered the bathroom, my husband was just getting out of the shower and saw my eyes rolling back in my head as I collapsed to the floor. It scared the life out of him.

At the same time, the buzzing in my head got very loud and everything began to go black. I could hear my husband calling to me from a distance as I began to be pulled very fast down a long, dark tunnel at the end of which was an incredibly bright light. He dragged me back to the bed and kept calling to me and I began to fight this thing that was happening to me. I knew I was dying but did not want to die; I wanted to live so that I could have children. Also, my brother had recently died and that was number two for my father; I did not want it to happen to him again. I fought this thing as my husband kept calling to me so that in a few seconds, I was whisked back the opposite way and realized I was on the bed. He called a doctor, who came to the apartment (those were the days!) and looked askance at my husband, then said that I never should have been given those pills. I could have died, and almost did. This new doctor took my blood pressure and blood for testing. Later he told me that I had very low blood pressure, hypothyroidism and anemia. He stopped short of saying that the other doctor was negligent, but we all knew that was the case.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     Drugs given to me by a doctor that almost killed me when he didn't even check me for health problems that would preclude these drugs.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    All the time; I knew what was happening to me; death was looming.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            All the time; I knew what was happening to me; death was looming.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     I never saw darkness that deep, or brightness that white, and it didn't hurt my eyes. Being a redhead, brightness has always hurt my eyes, but this brightness did not.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     Loudness; the buzzing was the loudest thing I have ever heard, and along with it came the realization that death was near.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Total, abject fear.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     I was pulled through a long, dark tunnel at an incredibly fast rate of speed, and I didn't want to be there.

Did you see a light?           Yes     The brilliant light was a pinpoint at the end of the long, dark tunnel. It very quickly became bigger and bigger as I was being pulled through the tunnel.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No       I didn't get that far.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No       I didn't get that far. I fought it.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No      

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     I wasn't supposed to be there; I had work to do on earth. I wanted to have children, and I knew that was God's work for me.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Uncertain      Most of the women in my family have some form of intuition, and I have always had some of it too. Since this happened to me, I have become aware of some things that are going to happen and then do happen, or being told something that I don't understand until later. For instance, when my daughter and second child was born in 1978, I instantly knew that she was my last, and she turned out to be. It was not a conscious decision, it was probably infused knowledge. Also, my oldest sister was always very abusive to the family members around her. She seemed to have a particular hostility toward me. I ended our "relationship" in 2002 after much soul-searching and difficulty. She called me twice after that and sounded like she didn't really want to be on the phone with me and her hostility was still there, and never apologized for her behavior. A few months later, I was making my bed one Saturday morning, and began to get a strange feeling of having been released from something. I don't know who was telling me such a thing, but, two mornings later, my brother's caretaker (he had Down Syndrome and needed 24/7 care) called and said that my sister had died the past Friday. I put two and two together in my mind and realized that when she died, I was released from the emotional bondage she had had me entwined with.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     Immediately. Everyone was flabbergasted and they all seemed to accept and believe that it did really happen. I do not know if they were influenced by it at all.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I viewed it as an event that happened for a reason, and still do. I know that God has His reasons for allowing everything that happens to us, and that He has ultimate control.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            That God allowed me to come back; I think my children were, of course, meant to be born, and He cooperated with that desire of mine, for which I am so grateful to Him.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    I still feel the same about it.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I understood certain things about my marriage better, but since I have a lot of trouble communicating (speaking my thoughts), I could not make myself understood to my husband. I saw him as completely unchanged and that was very frustrating for me. He never tried to understand my feelings or ideas.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Uncertain      Sometimes there is a slight buzzing in my head which scares the life out of me; I don't want that event to happen to me again. I think this time it has to do with my sinus and ear problems but am afraid to find out.           

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     Your questions ask about things that really did happen to me. When I first heard that this type of event has happened to so many other people (in the '80s), I felt validated, and your questions reflect that fact. At first, I thought it happened only to me. But in telling people about it and reading about it, I know it is not rare.