Bonnie H Probable NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I was laying back in the dental chair with a nasal mask on through which I was receiving laughing gas.  The dentist had instructed me to inhale the laughing gas whenever I started feeling anxious. I had no problem with that procedure and nothing particularly painful or scary was happening. One minute I was doing that, and the next minute I was in the top of a fichus tree standing in the corner. I felt like I was "one with it"; I wasn't climbing its limbs, I was just part of it. I can't describe from where or how I heard or sensed what was being told to me. It was more like I was receiving information telepathically from some source that was simply telling me all the answers to everything in the world - things that I never even cared or understood anything about, like wars, mathematical equations, solutions. The subjects were beyond vast, they were boundless, and the information about them was flying through my head faster than a millisecond.

Whoosh! Whoosh! Whoosh! I was fascinated by the amount of knowledge being shared with me. I was in AWE of it and wanted to share it with others, although I simultaneously knew, somehow, that I wouldn't be allowed to take that information "back".  I say "back" because what I was experiencing didn't feel like what people describe as a before or after experience. I had no concept of having to go anywhere. I just was there and I liked it. My greatest thought was how badly I wanted to tell others what I was being told. The answers, themselves, were indescribably exciting, thrilling, especially because I didn't even know what half of them pertained to, but I simply KNEW they were very important and I felt so privileged in hearing all of it. Suddenly I somehow heard my dentist (like behind and below me) say "OH SHIT! I'm standing on the line!"  I didn't know what that meant, but didn't care either, I was just happy to be where I was. Then I heard him hollering my name several times. "Bonnie! Bonnie! Are you alright?!"

I was totally irritated that he was interrupting what I was enjoying and wouldn't answer him. He hollered my name again and finally it was like I relented in answering just to shut him up so I could go back to what I was experiencing. I just wanted him to leave me the heck alone! Then he put something cold on my forehead and the dental assistant started patting my face or something. I was REALLY mad at them! They took the laughing gas mask off of my face. Suddenly it felt like my body was, literally, sucked downward and I was, then, back in the chair looking up at the dentist and giving him an evil stare because I was still mad at him. Neither he nor the assistant said anything to me about something having gone wrong. They just finished whatever they were doing to me, then said I could leave and they disappeared real fast.  I felt extremely out of it, though, like dazed, confused or something. I paid my bill, then asked if I could talk to the dentist. They went to get him, but said his door was closed which meant he was unavailable. I left and as I drove away, I was FILLED with bewilderment and confusion. I honestly don't think I even remembered at that point what I had experienced. It took a few days, and even weeks, for me to begin putting things together in my head. I never spoke of it to anyone until several years later.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   No 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes     I didn't even tell anyone about the experience for years because I couldn't find the words to articulate it fully. I still don't think I've ever been able to describe the totality of it to anyone.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    Yes. I was in a state of such high consciousness and alertness that I can't even describe it.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   Everything was instantaneous. What I remember most is how many ANSWERS there were to everything in and of this world and beyond. It is too vast to describe.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   I can't say I had an actual "vision" during the experience. It was more of a mental telepathic experience, where things were happening inside my mind and there was like an explosion of light and answers and things flashing all over the place.  Prior to that, I was just sitting in the chair getting the hang of relying on the laughing gas. I wasn't particularly feeling anything other than a little anxiety.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   Again, it's not like I was "hearing" anything. It was more like telepathic energy flying through my mind like an explosion so fast and powerful that I can't even describe it fully.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   Uncertain   I didn't see or hear anything else until the dentist started hollering my name. I kept ignoring him.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   I felt absolutely in AWE of the magnificence and power and knowledge that was encompassing me. I really wanted to stay there and hear and learn more. In the next question you ask if I felt "peace or pleasantness" and I can't even rely on those words to describe what I felt. I guess I have to rely on the last answer, but only because I know I wasn't afraid.  I was simple in AWE and THRILLED by what I was feeling, but it's like my "joy" with it was detached; I was stuck in the "awe".  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   Uncertain   From what I recall, I did not see a light, per se, or anything I affiliated (at the time) with anything spiritual.  It was more like you see in pictures of the universe in space where there is just infinite space and things flying about, which to me at the time, seemed like the answers flying by.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
I can't even describe whatever it was as a "being". As I've said, this was a deeply telepathic experience. I saw no faces, heard no particular voices, etc.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
The best description I can offer is that I just felt absorbed by the universe, like I had become part of it. But it was such a comfortable experience that I wasn't really thinking of anything other than the awe I felt.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
It was like there was no such thing as "time" as we know it. Everything happened, was thought, was answered, simultaneously.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about the universe
Like I said, I was given all the answers to EVERYTHING in the world - from nuclear stuff, to medical solutions, to whatever. What was most frustrating, however, was that I was told I could not bring those answers back with me; I somehow knew I was only allowed to bring back the memory of having experienced what I did.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Uncertain   I may have been given such information, but as I've said, I was not allowed to bring those answers back with me.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   I can't call it "God" or anything else. I simply knew from this experience that SOMETHING much greater than myself exists.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   Uncertain   I don't know, because I wasn't allowed to bring back such information if I DID hear of it.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   Something knows ALL the answers to EVERYTHING. Whether or not that means there is a mystical connection or unity, I cannot say. I simply know there is something greater than all of us and all of everything on this planet and in the universe.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   Uncertain   I do remember knowing somehow of all these parts of life and that there were answers for every one of them, but we just don't know it on earth.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   Yes   I do remember knowing somehow of all these parts of life and that there were answers for every one of them, but we just don't know it on earth.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Uncertain   I don't recall any particular information about that, but I am CERTAIN that the source communicating with me was of something even greater than mere love.

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   I knew the answer to every little thing in the universe. Why that information was shared with ME is beyond anything I can imagine, because I am just a normal person who has always gone about their day doing daily rituals, raising kids, earning what money I could on crafts to supplement our income, etc. I don't get it.

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   I could understand if this experience happened to me NOW, because in more recent years I have been drawn to the same thing many women of my age are drawn to - self improvement, finding our purpose, understanding what makes us tick.  But back then, when this experience occurred, I wasn't curious about much of anything other than raising my children and being a housewife. Just ordinary stuff, you know? I couldn't have cared LESS about the world or religion or wars, etc.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience   There is not a single part of this experience that I don't remember vividly. It's like it is stuck in my head with cement.

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   As time has gone by, I've come to believe we worry too much about "control". I also believe that no matter what occurs or why, we aren't really supposed to know the answers. I believe answers are revealed to us in their own time, and many times those answers aren't that important. I believe we just worry too much.

My experience directly resulted in:   Slight changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Uncertain   I don't know if it was because of my experience or a result of just maturing and experiencing life as I've gone along, but I'm not so scared or desperate now.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?   Foremost is the FACT that I KNOW there are answers to everything.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No  

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     Foremost is the FACT that I KNOW there are answers to everything.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  I didn't share it with anyone until I started seeing books come out talking about NDEs.  That's the first time I started thinking "wow, something really did happen!"

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No   

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely not real   I couldn't make sense of it. It was too surreal and didn't fit in with what I knew to be "real".

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   I have since read many books about NDEs and watched programs about it. It's more acceptable, today, to talk about it. I have no problem discussing it any more.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No  

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   If I know nothing else, I DO know there are answers to every thing in this life.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes   but it's still very difficult to articulate the sensation I had during my experience because I don't remember seeing the typical "light" or "tunnel" and people that some people see in their experiences. What I experienced was a totally telepathic thing, devoid of emotion one way or the other, other than the sense of awe I felt in knowing there were answers to so many things.  I wanted SO BADLY to bring the answers back with me and was greatly disappointed that I couldn't.

Please offer any suggestions that you may have to improve this questionnaire.  Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience?                    None.