Annie Probable NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I was in so much pain. I stopped hearing people around me and everything started to blur in a slow motion.

I knew at that stage that I had to let it go, I didn't want to fight anymore.

I remember telling myself that I could leave, it was ok...

I said good bye to my 3 kids and told them I will always love them. I knew they felt my love and they had heard me, as if we were linked telepathically for a moment.

I remember darkness and something similar to silence. It felt like everything stopped. A sensation I cannot describe with words really...

If I had to refer to my state at the time in a mathematical point of view, I would say I was in the state of 0...

It didn't last very long and I regained some form of emotions and feelings by being surrounded by 7 sort of colored energies.

My body was gone, I was a concentration of those colors/energies.

At the time, I felt complete. I had reached the perfection in my being... Not as a human being but as a part of a great source of energy...

I recovered the ultimate knowledge by becoming that energy again. It was  fulfilling and intense...

After what felt like an eternity, I progressively felt heavier.

I realized I had to go back. At the time, I felt like I had a choice to make.

Going back to start or finish something in my human body...

I knew through the 7 energies/colors that I would have to sacrifice something to go back. 

The return was violent, dark and extremely painful physically and emotionally.

I woke up on life support and felt my body crashing on me. I opened my eyes, and I cried... I cried because I knew I would not feel what I felt until I die again...

Also, I was conscious that something was missing in my body, I thought I had lost my legs...

The surgeon explained me later they had to perform an emergency hysterectomy. The blood transfusion saved me but I stayed on life support for 18h. During that time, they kept putting my 10 days old baby on my breast to feed.  

I believe my baby made me come back...

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     It is very hard to describe something you have never experienced before. As I cannot compare it to anything I know, I cannot use the right vocabulary to define the emotions and the intensity of the experience.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     I had an internal bleeding after a minor surgery. I lost 3L of blood and my body went into choc.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    When I encountered those 7 energies/colors.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            When I encountered those 7 energies/colors.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     My vision also reached it's full potential... I could see "inside and outside", through and the field of my vision was  so much wider. It was not clear and bright. It was deep and wide. The 7 colors were soft but I could feel what I could see...I know it sounds strange... But all my senses were linked, they formed a unity, so they would work better.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     There was no sound but soft vibrations, low pitch.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I do not recall leaving my physical body. I just remember going through the experience without it. I also remember the ultimate pain by waking up in it...

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Uncertain      I don't know if I could qualify those energies/colors as other beings as I felt we were parts of each others... I didn't know those energies/colors initially. What has been communicated to me is that I am made of those energies/colors. With the knowledge of those energies/colors we could reach our full potential... Using every single part of our brain to it's full potential, auto regulating our system... Adapt better to the outside environment. In a way, make our body and mind stronger...

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Uncertain      I do not fear death anymore as I do believe our body is just an envelope. I believe we as human being only use very little of our potential. Feeling that I am part of something so much more bigger made me more humble. Also, I do believe that we choose  to die or to live at the critical moment...

Today I feel a strong connection to any life form in general and their process of evolution and adaptation. I'm more sensitive to my environment emotionally, but also physically.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Uncertain      the environment that surrounded me was very dark but I felt lift like I was in the heart of something similar to a universe...

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     I was clearly not in the "world" I know... In another dimension maybe...

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     we are part of something bigger... It is link to the process of life. As I explained earlier, I accessed to an amazing amount of knowledge but it is left of it today is just a sensation that we could use our vital energy in a much more powerful way...

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain      I think there was more to know and understand but I decided not to go any further.

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes
            When I woke up I knew that something had been taken of my body during my journey. It appeared that the surgeon had to take my uterus out...