Angelia D Probable NDE
I passed out at home Friday night, the ambulance came and took me to the hospital around 11 pm. I have no memory of anything between approximately 10:45 pm and 3:30ish the next morning.
The actual experience:
was just suddenly in front of several people, none that I recognized at first.
There was no background or foreground, we were just together.
Then, my husband (deceased for 2 years and 2.5 months) spoke to me and
said only three sentences but he said them to me over and over in his patient
tone (he always knew how to talk to me):
I am here.
it's not time my little white teddy bear.
where there is love.
Others were around that seemed familiar but none were as familiar to me as my husband. The others would sometimes echo what he said but never in the same order.
husband stopped speaking then they all stopped.
At this time, something really strange occurred.
I saw a movement from the bottom of my vision and as I looked down, my
husband was slowly moving his hand away from inside my body.
At this time, a noticeable heart beat started and it was like I hadn't
even noticed it wasn't beating beforehand.
I looked up at him, startled, and his smile became even broader.
As always, I felt comforted and safe just being in his presence and the
experience was over.
woke up distressed, yet exhilarated from seeing my husband again, angry that I
didn't say anything in return, and relieved that I received this message at this
time in my life.
arrived home several hours later (I was severely dehydrated and was discharged
after receiving 3 bags of normal saline).
When I arrived home, I located my cell phone but the battery had died.
When it came back up I checked the phone for missed calls or text
messages. The 'notes' application
was open (which I don't use too often) and the following was typed onto the
io sono qui
non 'e il temp piccolo orsetto bianco
dove c''e amore
This was also sent to my boyfriend in a text message ...at 12:12 am.
I wasn't even HOME at this time and my phone was NOT in my possession.
In addition, there was note in the kitchen where this was roughly written
The nicknames my husband and I had for each other was big brown teddy bear and
little white teddy bear (we were an interracial couple; he was a larger black
man and I was an average sized white woman).
Whenever we had issues come up between us, he could always calm me and
bring me comfort by saying "Where there is love, ...." and then he'd finish by
relating to the subject we were discussing.
husband spoke some Spanish and he knew I was, at one time, learning Italian but
never really even got beyond a beginners knowledge.
I had to look up the translation online because it's been two decades
since I studied the language and I actually thought it was Spanish, but it
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes The feelings I had while it happened and the connection I felt to those around me cannot be explained.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? I was completely unconscious.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No, I've had many dreams and even dreams where I could control what did / didn't happen. This was like no other experience that I've ever had. It was real.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes I felt like I was several different parts of myself just kind of hanging around each other. I couldn't really feel appendages but I knew they were there.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Fear, love, serenity, disbelief, panic, but mostly peace.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? I only heard the words they were saying, no other background noise.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? No
Did you see a light? No
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes My husband and several others that seemed to be older than him... they were familiar to me but I don't know who they were.
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? No response I don't recall smelling or tasting anything. I had odd physical 'feelings' of being jumbled matter instead of a whole being. I saw my husband in his entirety but the others seemed to be less 'whole'.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No Now that I read this question, it seemed like we were in a place that didn't recognize time.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes I knew that I had to fight to keep living that I had things to do or finish.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? No response Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Uncertain I'm questioning the existence of an afterlife that I've not believed in before.
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? None, yet.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Before, I didn't want to fight the illness I have and now I know I can and will beat this illness and finish out doing the things I need to do.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes I've shared some of the experience with my boyfriend, who happens to be a Christian, and he believes me and is glad that it had a positive effect on me.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? Confusion but content with the new knowledge I obtained. It was a whirlwind of emotions.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? Best: I got to see, hear and feel my husband again