Adam N NDE
had taken 24 pills in a four hour period to get high. I was so high that I
forgot that I had already taken some and that's the only reason any of this even
happened to me. I was at a friends house sitting on the back porch with him and
felt something really wrong inside my body all of the sudden. Like something
very bad was about to happen. I felt like I might not be able to communicate
shortly so I quickly blurted out to him "Nick, I took a whole bunch of pills
today. I think I'm dying. I have to lay down". He panicked and started yelling
that I shouldn't lay down and I got up and crashed onto the couch face down
suddenly and fast. I heard him say "Oh Shit" really loud and start freaking out
and then suddenly I was not in my body in an instant. I was above it looking
down at it and saw him and what he was doing to me. He was yelling and shaking
me and telling me to wake up. My lips looked very blue and dark. Even though I
wasn't in my body anymore I felt like I could feel my heart stop. It was calming
as soon as the beating ceased. I was exactly who I am now only without a body.
Everything was the same, but I was just a consciousness, not a body. I remember
feeling very very scared, but not for myself, but at what was happening. I
thought about my son Jackson. I was worried not for the pain that I went through
but for his loss of me. I knew and felt that he needed me and would be very
upset going through life without me. I heard my grandmothers voice (who passed
away two years ago) she said my name three times in a very distinct tone.
"Adam...Adam...Adam..." and that was it. I didn't see her or anything, just
heard her. Then something told me, not literally, I just felt this, that said it
wasn't time yet and I had to "help save the little girl". I don't know what
this means. But I feel like my purpose on this earth is to find that girl when
our paths cross and I will be in a situation where I'll have to save her life. I
don't know who she is or where she is, but I'm on the lookout now.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes I feel like after having this experience I cannot explain it to others that haven't had it. The human mind and consciousness is not capable of comprehending what happened to me. And I only know this now that I have lived through this experience. It was fantastically amazing.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes I overdosed on drugs. Unintentionally. I was a recreational drug user and took three times a lethal dose I found out later.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The entire thing felt like extreme consciousness. It felt more real and dimensional then anything I've ever felt.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: The entire thing felt like extreme consciousness. It felt more real and dimensional then anything I've ever felt.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes Everything just seemed more clear. I was more alert and aware of what was happening.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calm. Peace. Love. Every positive emotion that can run through you is what I felt all at once. It sounds strange but I would describe it as a mental orgasm that felt like it lasted forever.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? No
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes My description of what happened while I was "dead" matched exactly what my friend said happened.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes Time didn't exist. Everything was just everything. It was all one consciousness and being and thing.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes I felt love. Incredibly warming love. And comfort. I was told I had to return to save a little girl and feel like that's now my mission in life. Whether it occurs tomorrow or in 30 years I feel like this event will happen to me.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? Yes The girl I'm supposed to save. This was told to me somehow and I feel like it's what I have to do now.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes I shared it within a day with several family members and friends. All of whom seemed very supportive and believed everything I said. Even if they hadn't, I presented it in a way in which I knew that they wouldn't understand having not experienced themselves.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real After my experience I spent about 15 hours on the internet researching others experiences and wanting to compare them to my own to know if I was crazy or not. The similarities were insane. That made me truly believe that what happened to me was real and I did experience it.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? The whole experience was amazing. There aren't really proper adjectives in the English language to describe what I felt. It was beautiful and OK. I guess that was my biggest "take away". I have absolutely no fear of death now and realize that it's an amazing transition that occurs and we are still our minds and consciousnesses, just not bodies. When we die all we leave behind are bodies. Nothing else. We still exist.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real After my experience I spent about 15 hours on the internet researching others experiences and wanting to compare them to my own to know if I was crazy or not. The similarities were insane. That made me truly believe that what happened to me was real and I did experience it.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I'm so focused on love and peace in my life now. Nothing materialistic is important to me. Were all just here having to go through the motions until we arrive where we're meant to be.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No I was not religious before and remain that way. This experience only confirmed to me that man's mind needs religion to grasp onto to believe in something, but at the end of the day, love in being good is that matters. Intentions are important.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? It was fantastic.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes There was nothing missing on this survey.