Any associated medications or substances with the potential to
affect the experience:
Explanation: during brain surgery...so I am sure I was given something to knock me out....the body temperature was dropped and the heart rate slowed, for the surgery itself....to prevent the excess bleeding that can occur....
I SAW THE FIGURE OF A MAN MOVING UPWARD , AWAY FROM ME....I REMEMBER
THINKING HOW WARM AND SOFT HIS ROBE LOOKED, ALTHOUGH
IT WAS VERY OLD AND TORN, WITH RAGGED HEMLINE AND A TORN PLACE ON ONE SIDE....IT
WAS THE WARM COLOR OF A GOLDEN BEIGE.....I REMEMBER THINKING THAT IF I COULD
TOUCH IT , IT WOULD BE SO SOFT AND WARM........I FOLLOWED HIM AS HE MOVED UPWARD
AND AWAY...I WAS EAGER TO CATCH UP AND JUST TOUCH HIS ROBE.....I BECAME AWARE OF
A GLOW...A LIGHT. AHEAD
AND ABOVE, BEYOND HIM, THAT WE WERE GOING TO THE LIGHT.....AS IT BECAME BRIGHTER
AND BRIGHTER...I WAS SO INVOLVED IN HIS WARMTH...I DID NOT REALIZE WE HAD COME
TO THE LIGHT...WHEN I LOOKED UP, HE TURNED AND LOOKED ME IN THE EYE...THE LIGHT
WAS BEHIND HIM, THROUGH AN OPEN DOORWAY, KINDA LIKE AN OPENING INTO A WALL BUILT
OF STONE AND MANY VINES AND SHRUBS
ON EITHER SIDE....HE TURNED AND LOOKED AT ME. LOOKED
ME IN THE EYE , BUT THE LIGHT WAS BEHIND HIM AND IT WAS LIKE LOOKING AT SOMEONE
STANDING WITH THE SUN BEHIND THEM, ONLY MUCH BRIGHTER AND MUCH MORE DETAILED
COLORS...HE WAS INDISTINGUISHABLE
EXCEPT TO SEE HIS EYES
AS THEY LOOKED STRAIGHT INTO MINE....I HEARD VERY CLEARLY , IN MY OWN MIND...BUT
NOT MY THOUGHTS...INSIDE BUT NOT ME...I HEARD ,"THE PRAYERS OF THE
RIGHTEOUS ARE ANSWERED" ,I FELT THE LOVE WRAPPED AROUND ME SOLID AS ONLY
TOTAL UNCONDITIONAL LOVE CAN BE............LOVE THAT I CAN NOT ADEQUATELY
EXPRESS IN WORDS...LOVE THAT IS BEYOND KNOWLEDGE.. A
PERFECT AND SOLID AND TOTAL LOVE DIFFERENT THAN WHAT WE UNDERSTAND HERE ON
EARTH...I UNDERSTAND THINGS ABOUT JUDGMENT
AND THE PERFECT JUDGMENT
WE ARE TO JUDGE OURSELVES..AND HIS JUDGMENT
IS RIGHTEOUS...THERE IS NOT ARGUING,
IS WITHIN OURSELVES, IT IS ONE IN US AND IN HIM...IT IS THE SAME......IT IS
TOTAL AND COMPLETE...I FELT THINGS FROM MY CHILDHOOD SO REAL SO BEAUTIFUL...YET
SO SIMPLE, THE SMELL WAS PURE AND THE WARMTH AND FEELING WAS LIKE
A SMALL CHILD WITH WARM SUNSHINE ON MY BACK AND THE FEELING OF COOL GRASS ON
BAREFEET..THE MEMORIES OF GOODNESS AND
PURITY...INNOCENCE...ACCEPTANCE....LOVE....I DID NOT WANT TO LEAVE THERE..I WANTED
TO GO INTO THE WONDERFUL LIGHT...I WANTED TO TOUCH HIM. TO FEEL THE WARMTH OF
HIS ROBE AND TO STAY THERE, BUT I UNDERSTOOD I COULD NOT ENTER INTO THE LIGHT ,
YET...HE WAS BLOCKING THE ENTRANCE WITH TOTAL LOVE AND HIS EYES WERE LOVE ....I
KNEW THAT THE GLORY OF GOD WAS WHAT I WAS LOOKING AT, AND I COULD NOT LOOK
DIRECTLY INTO IT...LIKE LOOKING INTO THE SUN. WHEN I HEARD THE WORDS , I
IMMEDIATELY CRASHED BACK INTO MY BODY WITH THE MOST AWFUL
PAIN AND WEIGHT AND BURDEN...I CAN NOT DESCRIBE THE PAIN THE COLDNESS, THE
HEAVINESS, AND THE SEPARATION
FROM LOVE INTO NOW.......I AWOKE PRAYING AND THANKING GOD , THAT SOMEONE RIGHTEOUS
HAD PRAYED FOR ME...I DID NOT UNDERSTAND THE SCRIPTURE AT THE TIME...THAT ALL
WHO ARE IN CHRIST ARE MADE THE RIGHTEOUSNESS OF GOD , THOUGH
CHRIST JESUS....SO I WAS PRAYING THANK YOU GOD THAT SOMEONE RIGHTEOUS HAD PRAYED
FOR ME...I HAVE NOT STOPPED PRAYING FROM THAT TIME UNTIL NOW , AND I TEACH THE
POWER OF PRAYER TO ANYONE WILLING TO LISTEN...I WILL SOMEDAY BE GIVEN THE WORDS
TO DESCRIBE THE INDESCRIBABLE
PERHAPS, BUT THE MOST I HAVE EXPERIENCED IS THE ABILITY TO LET LOVE FLOW THROUGH
ME TOWARD OTHERS....TOTAL UNCONDITIONAL LOVE ..TOWARD ALL OTHERS....THERE ARE
MANY MORE CHANGES I HAVE EXPERIENCED SINCE THAT TIME..AND I HAVE MUCH LEARNING
TO DO..I WAS RAISED IN THE SOUTHERN BAPTIST
FAITH, AND DID NOT FEEL LIKE THESE THINGS WERE STILL TODAY,,,,BUT NOW I BELIEVE
, BECAUSE I KNOW.....GOD IS LOVE AND HIS LOVE IS TOTAL AND SOLID AND
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
What was it
about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?
there are NO HUMAN WORDS to
describe the perfect LOVE , the colors and the LIGHT, is indescribable in our
terms....there are some things that can not be said, and some things that should
not be said...there is a sense of KNOWING and a feeling of KNOWLEDGE that can
not be spoken in words...the overpowering
total LOVE..... is very hard to describe.
At the time of the experience, was there an associated life
the time of the experience...was during brain surgery...an aneurysm
on the main artery to the brain...I had been told it was to deep and could not
be operated on..that there was only one surgeon who might attempt
to do the surgery....and that there was not technology to do the
procedure......I was aware of the dangers and the risk involved....I had been
told the aneurisms usually burst a 1 centimeter and this one was only 9 tenths
of a cm.....so I was aware of the risk...
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the
I was in surgery...and had been placed in a controlled death
simulation...so as to perform the brain surgery...the flow of blood had been
almost totally stopped to the brain to prevent hemorrhage,
and stroke...the aneurysm
was on the bifurcation
the main artery supplying
the brain with blood and oxygen...what seemed like only moments to me was in
fact 7 hours....
Was the experience dream like in any way? NO,
there was no feeling of this being anything, other than; more real than real is
here...in fact it is much more real than here...
Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body? Uncertain
Describe your appearance or form apart from your body: I
was not encumbered by weight or body, but did not see my self...my eyes were
fixed upon Him and His robe and the other things around me..
What emotions did you feel during the experience? LOVE.....TOTAL
SOLID LOVE , PERFECT LOVE....LOVE BEYOND KNOWLEDGE...LOVE AND THE experience of
LOVE that I can not really put into human words....there are no words to express
the feeling....solid TOTAL LOVE
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
what I heard....I KNEW...more than
hearing ...it was a knowing inside...and I heard Him speak inside of me , yet it
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Uncertain
Him and was unaware of my surroundings until He stopped and turned...He stood in
a doorway that lead to LIGHT.
Did you see a light? Yes
I wish I could, but words fail me...every light and one light....sorta
like the light of the sun but more , because it contained all Light...there are
no words , and there are no comparisons to it...it was and is THE
LIGHT.....LIGHT with feelings and brilliance
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Yes
IS RIGHTEOUS AND COMPLETE
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during
your experience that could be verified later? Uncertain
have verified most of the experience by scripture...some I have not tried to
verify at all...there is no need for it is.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive
locations, levels or dimensions?
upward, past levels of light...To the entrance of LIGHT....a walled enclosure
and a doorway through the wall....the Great Light was beyond the door....
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Uncertain
seemed like only moments to me ...was in fact 7 hours...but did not realize it
until after coming back
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order
doorway is narrow and few will enter into it....the Way has been made....but
many are deceived and will not enter in....
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
I had no option if I could go in or not...is was and always will be up to
HIM and the judgment
Did you become aware of future events? Yes
I am not allowed to repeat anything, except that it is soon,,be prepared
and practice righteousness....doing
good and Loving God and man...look up....IT IS ALL TRUE AND HE IS LONGSUFFERING
TOWARD US, not willing that any should perish....
Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body? Yes
I did not want to leave, but it was good at the same time...I understood
that and there was no reason to question it...it was RIGHT AND JUST...
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts
following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes
I HAVE BEEN GIVEN SOME GIFTS AND THEY ARE NOT FOR ME , BUT THOSE WHO ARE
IN NEED AT THE DISCRETION
AND TIME OF GOD. IT WOULD BE VAIN OF ME TO THINK I HAVE ANY CONTROL EXCEPT BY
PRAYER AND SUPPLICATION TO GOD...praying on behalf of others and letting God do
His perfect Work...
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the
I had not believed the gifts
we are taught of in scripture were for today.....now I believe, I know! HIS Word
is True down to the smallest jot ...and is for everlasting to everlasting....it
will always be true...
Has the experience affected your relationships?
Daily life? Religious
practices etc.? Career choices?
very much so....I BELIEVE ...I practice and practice, and practice HIS
Word in my life...forgiveness, love , compassion, repentance, prayer, worship
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
and unbelief usually , sometimes doubt about my sanity....sometimes just
shrugged off as unimportant....
What emotions did you experience following your experience?
Love for all others, fear and respect for GOD. There are many feelings
and emotions that I receive now about
others , but the most overwhelming thing is COMPASSION.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? THE
BEST PART....THE LOVE THAT PASSES KNOWLEDGE
WORST PART.....THE SEPARATION,
WHEN I CAME BACK
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the
SO MUCH MORE....TIME IS SHORT AND WE MUST BELIEVE.....GOD IS LOVE AND HIS
LOVE IS FOR ALL....WE CAN TRUST AND BELIEVE....IY IS MORE REAL THAN
REALITY......MORE TRUE AND MORE ETERNAL..........JUST BELIEVE!
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes
I have learned forgiveness and , I have learned that to love others is ,
in fact LOVE IS something that moves through us and not from us....I HAVE
LEARNED COMPASSION, PATIENCE, JOY, CONTENTMENT
IN ALL SITUATIONS,
FOR THERE IS ONE GOD....ONE HEAVEN....AND ONE WAY....IT IS THROUGH HIM.....JESUS
the CHRIST, the SON of GOD,......a free gift of LOVE...
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your
life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain
There have been events that have been close ,,,,and usually it is when I
am in prayer in the privacy of my own room....sometimes at church...once or
twice completely unexpectedly...and
without my actively thinking
about it at the time...MANY TIMES i HAVE FELT THE PRESENCE OF A TYPE OF CLOUD
AND SPELLED THE WONDERFUL SMELL... (KINDA LIKE ROSES, BUT MORE PURE, more sweet
and simple) I have experienced many
things that would be hard to explain to anyone , the thoughts and pains of other
people...the hurt and the broken heartedness
of the lost...the compassion for the ones without compassion , and Love for
those without love and those who are unlovable...
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
what , but there is much , much more unsaid...and unexplainable
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pray that I may be allowed to share more soon...there is so much more,
yet.....it is so simple really....just BELIEVE , Love the Lord our God , with
all our hearts and souls and minds, and LOVE
all others as ourselves.....and remember
that His judgment
is righteous...and perfect and without doubt , we will all
face the judgment
of LOVE...the final judgment