TS's Angelic Visit

Experience:

IN 1983 I WAS PREGNANT I WAS DUE IN AUG 1983 BEGINNING IN JANUARY AN ANGEL CAME EVERY NIGHT AROUND 0300AM TO TELL ME "SHE IS NOT YOUR BABY TO KEEP" EVERYTHING SEEMED NORMAL TO THE DRS IN JUN 1983 AN ULTRASOUND REVEALED FLUID AROUND ONE OF THE BABY'S LUNGS IT ALSO REVEALED SHE WAS A GIRL. I HAD ALREADY NAMED HER I ALSO ACCEPTED SHE WAS MINE TO ENJOY ONLY DURING THE PREGNANCY FINALLY THE PEDIATRICIAN ASKED ME TO ASK THE ANGEL WHAT WOULD HAPPEN I WAS NOT COMFORTABLE BUT DID AS HE ASKED THE ANGEL SAID  AS LONG AS SHE IS DEPENDENT ON YOU SHE WILL BE FINE WHEN SHE IS BORN WITHIN 20 MINUTES THINGS WILL GO WRONG AND NOTHING THAT IS  DONE WILL HELP SHE WILL DIE AND COME BACK TO BE WITH GOD WE WANT YOU TO KNOW SO YOU ARE READY  I SANG TO HER AND REASSURED HER SHE WAS LOVED AND WANTED I REASSURED HER THAT ALTHOUGH SHE WAS NOT GOING TO BE WITH ME SHE WOULD BE  CARED FOR AND SAFE.  SHE WAS BORN AT 2103.. HER APGAR WAS 8-9 THEY PLACED HER ON ME TO CUT THE CORD I IMMEDIATELY KNEW SHE HAD A COLLAPSED LUNG I TOLD THE PEDIATRICIAN THIS WAS CONFIRMED BY A CHEST X-RAY IN THE NURSERY  AS THEY STARTED TO TAKE HER FROM THE DELIVERY ROOM   I ASKED THEM TO LET ME SEE HER SHE GRASPED MY FINGER I GAVE HER PERMISSION TO GO WHEN SHE WAS READY I SENT MY HUSBAND DOWN WITH HER SO SHE HAD SOMEONE WHO LOVED HER CLOSE BY  WITHIN 20 MINUTES SHE SUFFERED HER FIRST CARDIAC ARREST SHE WAS RESUSCITATED FOR 2 HOURS SHE DIED AT 2303  SHE HAD A HYPOPLASTIC LEFT HEART WHICH DESPITE BEING SENT TO A NEONATOLOGIST  IN MY 8TH MONTH REMAINED UNREVEALED DURING THE PREGNANCY. WHEN I HAD RAISED THE POSSIBILITY OF A HEART PROBLEM WITH HIM, HE PATIENTLY  SHOWED ME ALL 4 CHAMBERS OF HER HEART.. IN FACT THERE WAS ONLY A TINY MINISCULE L VENTRICLE. HE WAS SHOCKED WHEN HE READ THE AUTOPSY REPORT. HE WAS CONDESCENDING AND EGOTISTICAL DURING MY VISIT. HE GLIBLY SAID EVERYTHING WAS FINE I THINK FOR HIM THE LESSON WAS HUMILITY.. I LEARNED ANOTHER WAY TO UNDERSTAND WHAT MY PATIENTS WERE GOING THROUGH. AND TO ACCEPT WHAT I AM ASKED TO.

I DESIGNED HER MARKER
IT SAYS 
"TO GOD WITH LOVE"

I DID NOT DIE..
BUT MEGAN DID...

Additional comments in next e-mail in response to NDERF questions:

THE ANGEL WHICH BY THE WAY SEEMED ASEXUAL HAD LONG HONEY COLORED HAIR IT WAS SITTING WITH ITS FACE AND BODY TURNED TO THE LEFT  WITH JUST THE RIGHT CHEEKBONE AND THE ORBITAL INDENTATION AND CHIN VISIBLE I SAW NO WINGS THE ROBE IT WORE WAS WHITE LONG  IT SEEMED TO BE SEATED ON A ROCK I WOULD BE AWAKENED AT 0300 FROM SLEEP IT ALWAYS APPEARED IN MY BEDROOM I WOULD GET UP AND SIT IN A CHAIR THAT I HAD PUT BY MY BED FOR THIS PURPOSE  AFTER THE 3RD NIGHT ALWAYS AT 0300 I JOKINGLY HAVE REFERRED TO THE INCONSIDERATE HOUR AS  ANGEL STANDARD TIME...  How many times and under what  circumstances?   EVERY NIGHT FROM JAN - AUGUST 1983 Have you had any other angelic visits?, etc.).  I HAVE A "VOICE" MAYBE IT IS GOD MAYBE IT IS A GUARDIAN ANGEL IT WARNS ME MANY TIMES...FROM THE SIMPLISTIC "PICK UP THOSE KEYS NOW OR YOU WILL FORGET THEM "and if I do not pick them up immediately I will always forget them!!! TO THE HUMOROUS "Slowdown there is a trooper ahead" I WARNED MY FRIEND WHO WAS DRIVING  HE SAID THE FUZZ BUSTER DOES NOT AGREE I SAID OK LET THE FUZZBUSTER HELP YOU WITH THE TICKET HE SLOWED TO THE SPEED LIMIT AND WAS GUNNED AS HE CRESTED THE HILL HE IS A BELIEVER...WE ARE MARRIED.  IT IS BOSSY AND DOES NOT LIKE IT IF I DISREGARD REQUESTS IT GETS REALLY INSISTENT IT IS MORE TELEPATHIC SOMETIMES THOUGHTS  SOMETIMES ACTIONS.... If I am inattentive I will suddenly realize the car is slowing down I will find the cruise off and my foot off the gas... 99.9% of the time there is an officer with radar The rest it is my exit or someone does something stupid and I have to swerve  to miss them.  THE FIRST TIME I CAN RECALL THIS VOICE WAS AT AGE 3 WE WERE AT MY MATERNAL GRANDMOTHERS. SHE SEEMED FINE SHE PICKED ME UP IN HER ARMS WHEN WE GOT THERE I REMEMBER HER FACE WAS FLUSHED... LATER AS SHE WAS PICKING UP A CHAIR TO TAKE TO THE TABLE SHE STAGGERED. I WAS 3...YET I INSTANTLY KNEW THERE WAS A PROBLEM I YELLED "HELP GRANDMA DADDY" HE CAUGHT HER AS SHE WAS FALLING AN AMBULANCE WAS CALLED WHEN THEY ARRIVED MY FATHER TOOK ME OUT INTO THE YARD  TO GIVE THEM ROOM.. I REMEMBER STANDING OUT IN THE COOL EVENING AIR TEARS RUNNING DOWN MY CHEEKS  BECAUSE THE VOICE SAID  "SAY GOOD-BYE TO HER YOU WILL NOT SEE HER HERE AGAIN." AS SHE WAS BROUGHT OUT SHE WAVED AND I WAS ALLOWED TO KISS HER. ALTHOUGH SHE WAS NOT CRITICAL THEN SHE DIED 10 DAYS LATER. I NEVER SAW HER AGAIN.  THE NIGHT SHE DIED THE PHONE RANG  I KNEW SHE HAD DIED I BEGAN TO CRY BEFORE IT WAS ANSWERED.  THIS IS MY EARLIEST VOICE MEMORY  BUT I ALREADY KNEW THE VOICE WHEN IT SPOKE TO ME THEN  SO I, AM I MUST HAVE ENCOUNTERED IT PREVIOUSLY. AT 3 THERE WAS NO ROOM IN MY MIND FOR DOUBT   THE WEEK AFTER MY BABY DIED  A VOICE I WAS CERTAIN WAS GOD SPOKE TO ME  "ONE OF YOUR PARENTS WILL DIE SOON" I TREMBLED.. I FELT THE WEIGHT OF IMPENDING DOOM UPON MY SPIRIT I SAID "NO" IT WAS REPEATED I ORDERED THE VOICE TO COME WITH ME... I STOMPED TO THE MASTER BEDROOM. I ENTERED AND SLAMMED AND LOCKED THE DOOR BEHIND ME IT STILL BRINGS A SMILE WHEN I REALIZE I WAS LOCKING GOD IN THE ROOM SO HE  HAD TO LISTEN!!! I SAID "YOU HAVE TOLD US YOU WILL NEVER GIVE US MORE TO BEAR THAN WE CAN  HANDLE" HOW CAN YOU COME HERE A WEEK AFTER MY BABY HAS DIED AND THINK I CAN HANDLE ANOTHER LOSS I WAS HYSTERICALLY SOBBING LOOK INTO MY HEART RIGHT NOW AND TELL ME I CAN HANDLE THIS I NEED BOTH MY PARENTS AND YOU CANNOT EVEN CONSIDER THIS UNLESS YOU WANT ME  TO BE A RAVING MANIAC.  IF YOU THINK I CAN HANDLE THIS YOU JUST ARE NOT PAYING ATTENTION. IF YOU DO THIS THEN YOUR PROMISES ARE WORTHLESS.  AT SOME POINT IN MY TIRADE I HEARD THE VOICE QUIETLY SAYING OK THEN KEEP SAYING OK AND FINALLY EMPHATICALLY REPEATING  OK!  OK!  OK! IT WAS GONE ( I CAN FEEL WHEN IT GOES) THE WEIGHT LIFTED I KNEW THE THREAT  WAS NO LONGER IMMINENT I ALSO KNEW IT WAS POSTPONED NOT REPEALED. I PLANNED A FAMILY VACATION THAT MY PARENTS HAD PUT OFF.  MY MOTHER WAS RESISTING FLYING REALLY HATED THE IDEA WAS UNSURE WHETHER SHE WAS GOING TO GO...  I PRAYED FOR A WAY TO MAKE HER MORE COMFORTABLE THIS WAS THE ANSWER I WAS GIVEN TO RELIEVE HER ...  MOM DO YOU BELIEVE IN GOD (mom) WELL OF COURSE DO YOU BELIEVE THAT GOD IS ALL POWERFUL AND IN CHARGE OF OUR LIVES (mom) YES THEN SURELY YOU UNDERSTAND IF HE WANTS TO KILL YOU WITH AN AIRPLANE AND YOU  REFUSE TO GET ON ONE HE WILL JUST LAND ONE ON YOU? SHE SMILED AND SAID BUY THE TICKETS  MY HUSBAND AND MY PARENTS AND I WENT ON VACATION FOR 2 WEEKS IN 1984 IN SEPT EXACTLY ONE YEAR AFTER THAT CONVERSATION TOOK PLACE MY MOTHER WAS DIAGNOSED WITH CLL (LEUKEMIA)....WBCs 120,000 ...SHE DIED IN 1984.