Ruthie's NDE

Here is my NDE--the Miracle in my Life=)  

  Back in April of 1991, I had bought some fish at the store, and brought it home and cooked it.  At the time, I thought it was delicious!!.  The next day, I went on to work, although, I didn't feel to well, but I have stomach problems anyway, so held it down to that.  By the end of the day--I could not walk, and was starting to get really sick, and thought it was intestinal flu.  I had to go in the women's restroom and lay down, and was crying, as being this way--was NOT how I normally am.  I made it home and went in and laid down.  Hub kept checking on me, and I couldn't eat anything at all.     Throughout the night, I spent most of it in the bathroom, most of the time having to crawl there, as I never considered myself a sissy, and never ask for help.  Thank God the shower was next to the toilet is all I can say.  I manage to go thru about 13 pair of underwear that night.     When morning came, I knew I had to stay home, as I was weak, and could hardly walk!  VERY unusual for me, as I had not missed one day of work in 10 years at this job. Actually--I never missed work on the other job I had before this one, as I don't believe in it=) Not even when I was sick:  I still went to work, and always gave my very best.     Throughout the morning my hubby called a few times to see how I was, and at one point he asked my temperature, and I told him--I was just to weak to even care what it was, although an hour earlier I had taken it and it was 104.  My hub told me to take it again, and he would call me back.  I said okay--and thinking I had hung up the phone--I went back to sleep.  He tried to call, and got a busy signal, so he left work, and told me later he drove 110 MPH to get there, knowing something was not right.     By the time he got there, I was at the point, of beginning to cross over--going to the Light.  My Mom and brother who had been dead for 5 years (they died 6 months apart, to the day) were  the ones who came to take me Home.  I did not realize at the time, though, that it was my brother--to me--he looked like a guy who looked like Howdy Dowdy, and smiling and saying " Come with us Ruthie, we are having FUN!!" He said this over and over.  It was about a month after my NDE to figure out it was my brother, as he really DID look like Howdy Dowdy, in younger days--reddish hair and freckles!!LOL=)    We went thru thousands of Souls, and did not hurt any of them.  There was one little girl--when I looked into her eyes--I looked into her Soul, and knew I knew her. I just figured out, this year, that little girl was ME--who had left when I was seven because I was sexually abused, and when that happens to a child, all innocence is lost, so she left. My Child Spirit.  She showed herself to me several other times since the first time--trying to get me to recognize, no matter what happens, you have to learn to love yourself . Until you can do that, you cannot love others.     My Mom would not say anything to me--nothing at all--but kept watching me in a mirror-sorta.  I stroked her hair, as it was our thing when she was alive--I loved to comb her hair and stroke it. I did this for a long time, and kept trying to get her to talk to me, to no avail. To this day, I only have to close my eyes and imagine--and I can still feel her hair=). I figured out about 2 weeks after why she would not talk to me---She knew if she said one word to me--I would allow myself to cross on over to the Light--and she knew it was not my time.  My heart ached to be with my Mom, but--she knew my work was not done here.     There was a being-beside me--took me a long time to figure out---he was hooded and had his arm around my shoulder. At first I thought he was the Grimm reaper, complete with Skelton bones and hood, but I did not know who he was, at the time-and I never spoke of him for years--as I considered him to be evil--but  I didn't pay him any mind. I have since read of others who have seen this hooded being, and I am still not sure who he really was.  I was too busy stroking my Mom's hair, at the time--and wanting to be with her--as I missed her so badly.     Finally my hubby woke me up, shaking me till I almost fell off the bed. When I looked into his eyes, I saw what I thought to be pure Hate--but figured out later it was fear, as he knew I was dead at that time.  It scared him so badly--even to this day, he will not speak of my NDE with me.     When I was finally able to crawl out of bed, I crawled down the hall and to the front doors, naked, as I didn't have energy to get dressed, and I looked out the doors, and I had NEVER seen so much color and beauty in my life! I swear, I thought it was Eden, as it did not look that way 5 days before. Flowers had bloomed leaves on the trees--which usually takes longer than 5 days in Ks--but--it all happened, during my NDE.  I considered that to be a miracle too=) It absolutely amazed me this could happen so quick!     I went to the doctors on the fifth day of a temperature of 105. I do not know why my brain did not cook, and the doctors called it a miracle.  They did a full exam, and found that ALL of my female organs were gone. I hold this to being a Re-birthing thing=). Another odd thing, is my skin had turned red as a stoplight and they did not know why--didn't have a clue--as they had never seen anything like this before. About 2 weeks later even inch of my skin peeled off--like a snake skin, even the bottoms of my feet. Not one iota of skin I had--was the old skin. I returned to work on Monday--and had so much energy--that I could toss an Oak pallet-and they re HEAVY!!!!-about 10 feet.  I should not have been able to do this, considering the 17 pounds I had just lost, and what I had just been thru=). I only weighed 98 pounds, when I went back to work.    It was months before I found--every thing I saw--to really have happened. I did not understand at all, but--I knew--what had happened to me--was something that would forever change my life.  I would do it all over again--to become what I am today=) 

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