Kelly's NDE

Experience description: 

      The vagal nerve in my brain was tampered with during surgery causing my heart rate to drop to dangerous levels when I fell into a deep sleep.  Although it was 5 years ago I will remember it like it was yesterday . I had this feeling like something or someone was dragging me down . trying to pull me under the hospital bed.  and it was very dark in the room. There was a window that overlooked the city outside but when I tried to look at it everything was black. Then I heard a noise like a swooping sound like a large pair of wings. Still that feeling of being sucked down was overwhelming. I saw myself in the bed I was about 12 inches over my body  then I heard a very low tone I looked down to my feet and saw that there was a being there  I felt negative feelings surrounding me . The being looked at me , its eyes were red and he had large wings . The being opened his wings and the wings engulfed the entire room. It  said we need you and the powers that you have.  I saw my self shaking my head and telling them I had to much to live for I had two young children to raise and that no power in this world or any other for that matter would take me from my children. at that point that feeling of being sucked down got stronger and I kept trying to fight them . it felt like a very long time that I fought but the next thing I remember is a nurse standing at my bed trying to wake me  and yelling my name . this took place three nights in a row and I saw this large being every night and every night I fought him with all the strength I had at that time. It was like the being knew I was weak and that was why he came to me to see if I could fight

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  Uncertain

      Explanation:  I am unsure they did have me on Demerol at the time but since then I have had demerol and nothing like this has happened since.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

      Describe:  My vagal nerve in my brain was malfunctioning and this cause my heart to stop when I was in a deep sleep

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  I believe the first night I was unconscious and the second and third nights my heart rate had dropped to dangerously low levels

Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Yes

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  The first night I looked down on my body I was only about a foot over it

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  Fear and strength

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  yes

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  No

Did you see a light?  No

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  The being was pure evil it was negative. I did not know the being and it communicated to me it wanted me for my power and strength

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

      Describe:  I knew where I was was not anything I have ever experienced prior to this

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Yes

      Describe:  After the experience I  knew I had some kind of power something that was very special that power helped me get through the  healing of my medical problems and also make me change my way of thinking about religion

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  No

Did you become aware of future events?  No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

      Describe:  I knew I returned to my body when I felt the nurse pulling at my arm yelling my name and saying "Can you hear me"

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I feel I have much greater power within myself to know who and what I am . I have the power to feel changes around me . Looking at auras on people and seeing what they are before I even speak with them

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I went from being married and going to church every Sunday @ a roman catholic church. To completely changing my beliefs. I am now a Wiccian High Priestess.

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  My husband is very loving and he too has changed his religion my  children also practice  Wicca. In my daily life I am much happier knowing I have the strength to get through just about anything. As for my career I am looking to fulfill a dream that I have had for about 4 years now and I would like to open a new age religious shop.

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  My children, husband, my mother and 2 close friends. I believe they were influenced by my experience and I tell them death is something they should not fear but they should embrace because it makes us stronger

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  My emotions were mixed. I felt like I was shown this because I was a bad person but after a few months I realized I was not bad at all I was show this because I am strong and I have a power a power that they wanted to use for negative ways

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  The fear and guilt was bad for a few months and then the best part was realizing that I did have a gift and I should start to use it . Since then I never regretted the experience

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  The experience changed my life and the lives of those around me for the better . Even thought it was a negative one the changes it made have been and continue to be very powerful

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I feel like I know something that the average person does not . I feel at peace with my self and the life that I am living and satisfied with all that I have and I do not wish for material things like I did in the past

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  At times when I am sick and feeling ill I sometimes feel that feeling of sucking me in coming from the ground. I that point I lay back and think of all the positive things that I do have and the feeling seems to leave