I tried to call to the nurse that I was
not well. She put a mask over my
face and told me to breathe, but I could only get a few breaths in and I passed
out. I was still in my body, but could hear everything that was going on.
She checked my pulse, I could still feel for a while. She called the anesthesiologist
and OB-gyn back. One of them shined
a light in my eye and I could not move. I
felt my heart race and then stop. I
began to float up above my body and a white light encompassed me.
I felt no pain and it was such a relief from what I was going through,
that I forgot about going anywhere. I
just wanted to remain suspended there forever.
The emotions that surrounded me felt like nothing I've ever experienced
on earth. It was like love was
magnified multiple times, peaceful and secure.
I saw some people I didn't recognize.
One was a woman dressed in a long brown dress from the 1800's, with her
dark hair tied in a bun. She said
she would help me go back, because by then I had said, "Dear Lord, please
let me go back and take care of my new baby girl.
She may need me right now." I
was violently sucked back into my body and started to feel pain and pressure in
my body. My heart was skipping and
beating. I took a breath from the
mask that was still over my mouth and nose.
I started feeling again. I
opened my eyes when I could and tried to look into the overhead mirror that was
set up for observing the birth. I
looked ashen and gray. My lips were
discolored. The nurse kept watching
my fingers. I felt very anxious. I
had wires and patches all over my chest. No
one around that looked familiar. They
had chased my husband out a long time ago when this all started.
I felt all alone. No one to
turn to for questions. Where's my
baby? Was she ok?
The nurse nodded and said because of the way I bled, I had reversed the
umbilical cord bleeding and had sucked some of it backwards to me instead of the
baby. Was that ok for the baby? I
never saw any indications but that she had an "outward" belly button
instead of an "innie" after she grew later on in life.
I laid in
recovery for a few hours and continued to bleed a little more.
Finally, I was brought to a room and left by myself to recover.
I was very weak, but very glad to see my Laura and have time to bond with
her afterwards. The next day, I
delivered the rest of the placenta in the toilet and showed it to the nurse, who
proceeded to get rid of the evidence when she saw it.
It was the size of an adult liver, and took a while to get it flushed,
but she managed.
I went back to the hospital a couple months later to read the
medical reports. It just said that I
bled heavily. No indications of all
the machinery that I woke up to. I never went back to that hospital and never
had another child or used that doctor again.
Today, I have Mark, my first child, 23 years old, and Laura, 20 years old
and both healthy and normal. I spent
the next 4 years in therapy for anxiety attacks and help in understanding my
lessons. I became allergic to
certain foods that I had previously loved. No
chicken, no dairy, no cauliflower and other loved items, but I learned to eat
other foods that I had never experienced before, or had never liked,
sushi, tofu, and other soy products.
and local anesthetic during childbirth.
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate? remembering
all the details of all that happened. Trying to be alert to what was all
happening. Just wanting to take more time with the wonderful experience, but
realizing I had to make a quick decision or I might not be able to come back to
a newborn baby.
At the time of the experience, was there an
associated life threatening event? Yes
had just given birth and had bled so heavily and was not breathing, and the
heart was stopped from so much blood loss. The
placenta had not been completely removed and the doctor had left the room,
thinking all was well and he was done.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No,
never would this be in the same state as a dream.
And I can have a vivid dream where I'm flying, but I don't feel the same
Did you experience a separation of consciousness
from your body?
Describe your appearance or form apart from your
I did not look at my body.
I just felt the vibrations, like a high frequency, not a slow vibration.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love
was what I described it as, but it was never experienced on earth by me before.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? I
was not aware of noises except by my own thinking and the other entities, maybe
one or two of them in addition to the woman in the dark dress.
was just aware of the light when I got out of my body.
I don't remember it coming from any certain direction.
was told by an earth psychic that it was a great grandmother of mine that I had
never met. When I described the
woman to my father, he said it sounded like my father's maternal grandmother.
Mary. To this day, I wear my
hair in a bun sometimes.
know any witnesses. All was covered
up as far as I could find.
not know how much time had elapsed. Laura was born around
on that Saturday, and I couldn't see the clock when I woke up in the delivery
room. I remember
getting back to my room after recovery around
came through out the next few years and then dwindled off, but was strong at
first: I could sense danger before it was about to happen.
I could tell what was going on in an ambulance that passed by.
I could feel pain in my body that someone else was having.
I was able to hear thoughts of others.
I knew why certain foods were good for my body and how the energy of the
food affected me.
would come to a crossing in a road and slow down in time for a wild elk to dash
by. I didn't know what was going to happen, just felt the need to slow down.
I asked to come back and then I was rushed back.
a little psychic, I don't think it lasted long.
don't get attached to trying to change people and their attitude toward my
and patients who have lost loved ones, I tell them that John Edward is not a
hoax and they can talk to their loved ones on the other side all they want and
they will hear.
What was the best and worst part of your
Not being in control, not knowing if I
would be sent back or I had to stay. Thankful
for the extra time with my children.
Is there anything else you would like to add
concerning the experience?
Sensing the body every day is a great
experience for me. Every cell has a
consciousness and I want to use that consciousness to know better what to do in
life's school of lessons.
teacher, better student.
live every day with new and interesting thoughts on that experience.
Good background for me to see with.