Jennifer's NDE
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Experience:
I am glad to see that people
are acknowledging their experiences. I have only very recently thought that I
should think in more detail about my own experience, since it may hold keys to
my purpose here.
My family was building our house, which was about halfway finished, in August
of 1978. My mother was in the woods gathering wood for the new woodpile she
was fashioning and I was playing in the mostly-shell of a house we had with a
neighbor friend of mine. That day the stonemason had been scheduled to stop by
and look at our chimney/basement area so that he could get a good idea of
starting his work shortly thereafter. Normally, the holes for the future
chimney on each floor were covered with heavy boards so that no one would fall
through them. They had removed these, unbeknownst to me, that day for his
measurements and not replaced the boards. The basement had also been
steamrolled that day in preparation for the cement to be poured. Two floors
above the basement, I prepared to yell "Boo!" at my friend coming
down the top stairs, and instead fell through the uncovered hole. I remember
specifically thinking how wonderful it was to fly, and then how scary it was
that the ground was racing up toward me so quickly. I then screamed, which my
mother heard out in the woods. I was told that I landed on the back of my
neck, flat on my back, where the spinal column joins the brain stem. I
remember at first being very cold and scared, in a place completely black
except for a tiny shining light at the end, like a pinhole. I could feel the
wind as I moved forward toward that light, slowly enough for me to see that I
was in a fairly small tunnel as the light increased. I could see the texture
of the sides of the tunnel looking like a rough, earthen tunnel might. As I
approached the light, my speed slowed and I noticed the incredible warmth
emanating from the light, unlike any warmth I had ever felt. When I was nearly
in the light, if such a thing can be described as such, I had stopped and was
floating in front of a figure which looked human, though the background light
was so bright that no face could be made out. The arms were held out as if to
embrace me and I wanted nothing more than to be in that light. I experienced
an acceptance and love unparalleled by anything on earth. I was perhaps feet
away from entering those amazing arms when I (we) heard my mother scream my
name. This was the only sound or vocalization I heard during my entire
journey. I hesitated, looking to see whether this person had also heard her,
and felt angrier than I have ever been at my mother that she was going to
prevent me from going into that light. Sure enough. The figure's arms crossed
and then were held out in front, pushing me slowly back where I had come from,
back into the darkness and cold. I have never wanted anything in my life as
much as I wanted to be in that light. I now know that I will never again
experience anything so wonderful as to return to that place and finally be
accepted. I look forward to that day, yet do not feel that I have completed
what I have been put here to accomplish. In the tunnel, as I floated farther
from the light, I could see my long hair streaming in front of me. I was very
angry and panicked when I awoke on my back with my thumb in my mouth, to my
mother sitting over me crying and looking more scared than I have ever seen
her again. The ambulance was arriving from 25 miles away with its siren on,
and I could feel the burning of my lungs as they struggled to intake air. My
back was quite sore as they packed me away to tests, shots, and finally the
children's intensive care unit for the night. I don't remember thinking about
my tunnel experience until I heard another, similar story when I was about 14.
It was then that I realized what had happened. I can still recall that tunnel
and the light as if I had experienced it just last night. I know it was not a
dream, because dreams fade quickly and become less distinct with the passing
hours. For all of the doctors who claim that near-death experiences are
induced by the use of drugs, I say that I was a healthy, active 8-year old
child who had never been to a hospital after birth until that day. I emerged
from the hospital the next day, after my parents had been assured that I would
be paraplegic at best and that I would have suffered long-term brain damage
from the trauma to my head/neck. I never had even a bruise and have gone on
unscathed to graduate from college with no adverse side effects.
I am very open to answering any questions you might have. If I need to
elaborate on certain parts of my experience, please let me know. I admire your
courage in this research and believe that it is very important that NDEs
become accepted for what they are in society in general.
In the meantime, those of us who have been chosen will go forward loving and
knowing what the real importance of our tenure here on earth is.