Jon's NDE

Experience description: 

      I grew up in San Antonio , Texas and had (compared to others) a bad childhood. I was often truant from school and got into a lot of fights. One of these fights took place at a bowling alley in the video game room. Two friends of mine and myself of course, had instigated a little trouble with this one kid and, well, he and his GANG came a' calling. It didn't go well for us: 7 against 3. When they showed up, I was terrified! (<- I include this because I think it is an important factor). To get straight to the point though, I ended up having the side of my head smashed into a brick wall... that's when it happened. At first all was black, but then I found myself looking down upon the whole scene. The first thing I noticed, was that I was somehow seeing the events before me from within the top of the wall to this video-game room. I saw a larger and older boy pulling the guy who had been kicking me in the side of the head off of me. Then I noticed two younger kids, a boy and a girl, run up to the game-room window, under me, and look in. All the while I heard nothing. The terror I felt before everything went black was gone. I felt... well, I want to say relaxed, but I think the better way to describe it is "neutral", like observing without feeling. As I observed, the skeletal features of my face were not present. Let me explain that: when you look at the world, your whole life, you have obstructions which limit your view. Since you have ALWAYS had these obstructions, you don't really notice them till their gone: eyebrows, nose, eyelashes, cheekbones and so on. That I believe, is one of the oddest parts about the entire event. Behind me (in the wall itself or the ceiling) was blackness. I could see adults from the billiard-room next door rushing towards the game-room.

Then all went black again. I then remember going in and out of consciousness on the way to the hospital.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  No

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

      Describe:  It was a street-fight in a bowling alley game room. My head was between a steel-toed boot and a brick wall. I think it qualifies as life-threatening.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  Totally alert!

Was the experience dream like in any way?  No, I don't think so. I have had some pretty realistic dreams in my time though.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Yes

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  see above. That pretty much explains it.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  No emotions. Total neutrality.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  No. If there were sounds, then they were muffled and were almost inaudible.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  No

Did you see a light?  No

Did you meet or see any other beings?  No

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  Yes

      Describe:  That the bigger kid pulled the other kid off of me while I was "K.O.". 

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Uncertain

      Describe:  You know, I was thirteen at the time... something was certainly different, but whether or not it had to do with time or space... I just don't know.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  No

Did you become aware of future events?  No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  No

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  since then, I am no longer afraid to die...

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  If it affected me in anyway back then, I don't remember it now. The experience however, I'll never forget.

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  They just say things like "cool" and "that's weird!". Whether or not they take it seriously is not a concern to me.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Pain.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  The best: I wasn't scared anymore. The worst: the blackness surrounding me (thinking about it after the fact) was an uncomfortable thought. I think now that it was most likely because I was looking through the wall and perhaps there was just nothing to see in the stone behind me. Still an odd feeling though.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  nah.