Jackie's NDE
Experience
description:
I
was about 7 years old..I woke up feeling as if lead weights were on my
stomach..I told my dad I felt sick to my stomach...after a few minutes I sat u
and vomited large quantities
of blood..my dad helped me into
the
bathroom..it was dark in my room and he didn't realize
I was bleeding until I threw up again..at that point in the
bathroom I felt my self pass out..I
wasn't concerned
about falling..I think because my dad was holding me up..and i had never fainted
before, so I didn't know what fainting was about!
I remeber briefly a car ride to the
hospital..
The nurses were trying to get me to
drink this grape flavored stuff (barium?) to take the xray..but I kept
gagging..they told me I was not allowed to throw it up..I tried
hard..and they kept pouring the
stuff down my throat..and I threw-up
large amounts of blood..I guess
maybe they realized my parents were not kidding about how much blood I had
vomited..they stopped the x-ray (and forcing me to drink the grape stuff)..I felt
them running by my side while I was on a gurney taking me some place??? I woke
up a bit to see the doctor had already stretched one arm out on a board of some
sort and was inserting a needle..I turned a bit to feel the same thing in my
other arm.I remeber the doc telling me something..maybe words of encouragement?
Than the next thing I knew..I was floating above my self..I could see my parents
on the other side of the curtain on the bed next to me..my mom was smoking a
cigarette... and my dad has his hands folded on his lap,
looking very stressed..I could sorta
see me..mostly I was watching my parents..but I don't remember
having a body..it was like i could see..but had eyes to see it with..It is hard
to describe..as
if you were watching a vidio tape through a camera..you can see everything
except the person
who is video
tapping.thats how it wsa with me..I could see..but not my self who was up in the
air..than the every time after that when I tried
to open my eyes..it was grainy and noisy..Just like when cable goes out on your
tv...same sound and
visual....My first
memory
after that is waking up enough to know my mom was there..she said If I laid
quiet she would read to me....than I drifted in and out..I stayed in the
hospital for week..In my early
20's..I was having a ulcer problem..my upper gi..showed my jugular vein is
misshaped..probably due to the fact i like to sleep with my hand curled up
under chin..the doc thinks years of sleeping like that from
the
gentle pressure of my finger on my
throat...trained my jugular to bend in an awkward
position..a bit closer to my esophagus...enabling
the
glass I swallowed to nick my inside
of my throat..and jugular...one thing..several years later i was telling my mom
about my experience..she said just a
bit after lighting the cigarette
..the doc yelled for her to put it
out..she kept smoking ignoring the doc..until a nurse told her put it out now or
leave..as there was oxygen
tanks present..and they could ignite..THAN my mom said she put it out..but she
was embarrassed
that she was yelled at by the doctor..and that she buckled into them
and put it out (she is very strong willed!)
She also told me at the point she lit
the cigarette
as the doctor had ordered more blood..the nurse had said do you want it
"stat" his response was "stat hell you run and you run fast..she
is already dead..but we can maybe bring her around if we get blood in her quick
enough"..thats when my mom lit up..I told her I floated up and saw all this
happen.. it really scared her and unnerved her..as my
description
of
the situation very accurate..
Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience:
No
response
Explanation:
I
was so young..I am not really sure..the only needle I remember was to give me
back blood..those where going into both arms..
Was
the experience difficult to express in words?
Yes
What
was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?
the
background scenery..was
like when cable goes out on your tv..all grainy and dark..back then we didn't
have cable so it was difficult to explain
At
the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes
What
was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
awake
enough to see the entire room..and both beds with a curtain in between..although
it was very brief
Was
the experience dream like in any way?
no..not
like a
dream..more like I was wondering how
I was seeing all this..how could I be tall enough to see over the curtains..and
then realizing I was still laying down
Did
you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?
Yes
Describe
your appearance or form apart from your body:
there
was no apperence of arms or legs or torso..as I floated above..just awareness I
could see above the curtain..and I was at one point before I got high
enough..looking down face to face with my self..then
I turned around enough to be in the position..of looking down on my self..If i
had feet they would of been standing next to my head as I laid on the
bed..that's the direction I was facing..except I
facing..except i had no awareness of my body..I am just
giving
you a general description
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
curious..and
sorta wondering what was next
Did
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
just
the sound of when cable goes out..the loud sound it makes when the tv is on..but
you aren't
on a channel
Describe:
my
mom smoking..and the doc yelling to put it out..also who was sitting where on
the bed..my mom was closest to the door,,my dad the wall
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes
Describe:
as
an adult some might call it mothers instinct..but
i always know when something life altering is going to happen..A friend was
killed in a
car accident..they were announcing
the wreck on the news..I KNEW it was someone i knew..
Or I have strong feelings of
danger..or uneasiness..that is always correct..sometimes I dream it before it
happens..
Has
the experience affected your relationships?
Daily life? Religious
practices etc.? Career choices?
every
little feeling i get..I worry now it is going to come true..except when I get
the feeling something IS going to happen..it is always when I am in relaxed
mode..and just generally thinking about nothing..
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes
Describe:
My
best friends daughter..was expecting a baby..she
was
wondering when the baby would be born..we just talked in general..after
we hung up..I just KNEW the baby would be 2 weeks late and would arrive on my
birthday..He did! I called her and told her..than 1 month later her daughter Hannah
had a brain tumor on her brain stem..after surgery she was comatose for 4
months..than she bled out needing 32 units of blood..all the steroid made ulcers
in her stomach..the docs felt it was time to let her go..as she was still
bleeding uncontrollably
in surgery..MY friend remembers how i was right about
the
baby's birth, and how I told her over
and over..I felt Hannah
would be well..I knew she would be well.she would not die from this..so my
friend said not to stop life support..after about 2 hrs..they controlled
bleeding..and when the
anesthesia
from surgery wore off..she stunned everyone by coming out of her coma..she is
alive and well today..and has no deficits..all because my friend beleived
me..trusted me..i say she is my friend..but we have always been close..closer
than sisters.
What
emotions did you experience following your experience?
relief!!..I
though..oh my gosh if she dies..I will feel terrible giving her and her family
false hope..
What
was the best and worst part of your experience?
the
best part is knowing that when we die..we do have
a soul.I can believe
in Christ..but i won't know for sure until I meet him...But i know I have
soul..I saw my body..in one part of the room..as my soul watched it and
my mom and dad over
the curtain
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
no..I
just wonder why everyone else sees lights and tunnels and I see scratchy cable
T.V when it is not working correct!
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Describe:
no
because i was so young..I just though everyone had experiences
like those