Experience description: 
      The first few times I died and went through the void/curtain/wall that divides mortals with "heaven"- I saw a light and an old friend. All I was told was that it was not my time. It was as if I was in a room w/no lights, sounds or feelings and all of a sudden a white light and a shadow appeared that told me that it was not my time. This happened several times, maybe 5-

The last time it happened I felt "awake" on the OR table- I could hear the nurse and the doctor, the heart machine. I heard a female voice say we're loosing him. Then I felt as if my soul<?> had been grabbed and pulled upwards to the ceiling. I was floating, I tried to look back- but that is not allowed. The sounds of the OR slowly faded- as if someone was turning down the volume control, slowly. I felt scared, but had a strange feeling of comfort or being told to be calm. I went through a dark tunnel where the light slowly became brighter. Then a shadow appeared- an old friend told me that it was not my time and then things went black/gone/etc.
 
I somehow figured out that the shadow was a friend who died 5 years earlier. I am glad to see that he made it to "heaven", he deserved it.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  Uncertain
      Explanation:  I was medicated and in surgery often, but- they did not impair my experiences.
Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Uncertain
      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  I have no problem talking about it- but I hafta be careful of who I tell because I don't wanna go to a loony bin.
At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Uncertain
      Describe:  What kind of response are you looking for ?

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  I was in an Intensive care unit, fatal injuries- the docs came and looked at me after the surgeries,
many could not believe that I lived. Sure- they were good docs, but it was not my time.
Was the experience dream like in any way?  Not really.
Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Yes
Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  I felt transparent, or from what I saw when I looked back I seemed that way- I only caught a glimpse
from looking back- but, it could explain why my friend was a shadow. He stood in front of the light so that he could have some kind of form.
What emotions did you feel during the experience?  Scared, fear, calm, relaxed, questioning
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  well, hearing from a deceased person is rather unusual.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Yes
      Describe:  yes, some kind of tunnel/curtain/division or the earth and heavens.

Did you see a light?  Yes
      Describe:  The light started small and grew brighter until I got close and then a shadow appeared.
The light was bright- but more like a glow- not like looking at the sun.

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes
      Describe:  They were in front of the light. Yes, it was a friend who died 5 yrs earlier. He told me repeatedly that it was not my time.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No
      Describe:  I have learned a lot after my NDE. I question many forms of religion.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  No
      Describe:  I cannot verify any of this- No admission tickets or "return to sender" stamps.

I am unsure if I need to verify something that unmistakably happened. 

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  Yes
      Describe:  Yes, "heaven". Very nice place from the outside, I bet is is really great on the inside.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes
      Describe:  Altered space- I went to heaven.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Yes
      Describe:  yes, after the wreck.. But I did question my purpose before the wreck, just not as extensively.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  Yes
      Describe:  I was rejected at the gates. I knew that if I crossed that boundary- things would be beautiful.

Did you become aware of future events?  Yes
      Describe:  yes, but that has been a gift<?> for sometime.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes
      Describe:  I was told repeatedly that it was not my time. Who decided, I dunno- For what reason, I dunno that either.


Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Uncertain
      Describe:  Well, I believe that I have a more direct line to "god". I have asked questions that only
she/he/it/they could have answered.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes
      Describe:  it gave me a "god-complex".. Not only am I a prophet, I also believe that I am immortal.

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  Not much. My religious practices haven't changed- I still do not subscribe to any religion.

But, if  you know a good priest that I can speak with please recommend.

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes
      Describe: 
Various reactions from; you should devote your life to god to you should feel lucky.. Dunno how they were influenced. I don't tell many people-

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Anger, hate, love, question.
What was the best and worst part of your experience?  I do not know, yet.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  Can't think of anything.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes
      Describe:  I am on a mission from god. and I try to use my prophecy to help people.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No
      Describe:  Just my memory