Gina's NDE

Experience description:  

During the car accident, I can remember feeling and sensing my body rolling with the car.  I remember flying threw the air and landing softly on the ground.  All the time I felt like I was watching a moving .  After I landed on the ground, I remember thinking, that I should scream so I screamed a slow calm scream. I remember being in intensive care before the surgery and a man of cloth (that's all I know, there was no face, just a presence)  he took my hand and told me I would be alright after the surgery.  When he took my hand, there was energy passed from him to me, I could feel it go through my whole body.  I wouldn't let go of his hand, so he gently pried my hand off of his. 

The next thing I knew, I was passing through a tunnel towards a beautiful bright light that was so peaceful.  I was meet by moving forms, that were pure energy.  It was a beautiful loving place. I remember loving it there and was astounded by the love that I was receiving.  I reviewed my life and I did the judging.  I went back to about 2 years old.  I know I was given all types of information, but I don't know what it is.  sometimes, I just know things and I don't know how I know them...almost another sense.

I had no choice but to return, I didn't want to and I begged to stay.  I was told that I had much to do before I could return.

When I came back, there was an angel (a glowing bright light) at the foot of my bed, and as my health improved the light became more distant.

I was very upset that I had to come back, in fact, I thought that I was such an awful person that even God did not want me.

I told no one of this experience until I was in my 30's, after seeing an interview with James Moody.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:   Uncertain

Explanation:   I was in intensive care for a week, hooked up to machines and perhaps on regular medication

Was the experience difficult to express in words?   Yes

What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?   no words in our language describe the experience correctly

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?   Yes

Describe:  I had dreamed of the car accident for three days in a row.  Each night I had dreams that gave me more details of the accident until finally on the third night of dreaming, it was a dream of my funeral, but I was up in a tree trying to let the people attending the funeral know that I was not dead.  The only difference between my dream of the accident and the accident itself was, in my dream my friend Bill was in the car.  The day of the accident, Bill got out of the car to let me in and decided not to go with us.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?   I was very alert and conscious of my surrounds and of the presence of others.

Was the experience dream like in any way?   During the actual accident it felt dream like, but after I went through the tunnel it didn't feel dreamlike at all. I was very much aware of my surrounding and where I was.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?   Yes

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:   During the accident, I did not feel pain when I saw my body smashing against the vehicle and the ground.  When I went through the tunnel I had no physical body as such, but was aware of an energy field (body)?

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   completely at peace, a knowing of returning from where I came from, complete pure love, anger at having to return and being very sad after returning.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?   When I went through the tunnel, the forms spoke but not with words, more like mind thoughts.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?   Yes

Describe:   a long tunnel with a bright, peaceful light wanting me to come to it.

Did you see a light?   Yes

Describe:   bright, but did not hurt your eyes.  It was welcoming.

Did you meet or see any other beings?   Yes

Describe:   I knew them, but they were not the same human forms.  It was like they were pure energy but I knew who they were.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?   Yes

   Describe:   I was in a room with others present. I reviewed by life and made judgments on it - the judgments were not harsh, it was more of an acknowledgement of what I did was not right.  Everything I learned, helped me live my life .  I received knowledge and it comes to me when I need it.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?   No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?   Yes

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   Uncertain

Did you become aware of future events?   Yes

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?   Yes

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?   Uncertain

 Describe:   I think I always had a gift, but since the NDE I'm more in tune with the gift.  I can remember a presence coming to me when I was about 2 years olds.  He stayed with me until I was about 32 then told me I no longer needed him.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?   I have spent years looking at different religions, and talking to people about their beliefs.  I don't believe in organized religion for myself, I believe that I have a guardian angel and I believe that there is good in everyone.  I have worked in the helping fields and have been given the gift of being able to get along well with almost all people.  I have learned from almost everyone I have met - mind you, both good and bad stuff - i.e.  I don't want to be angry like this person when I reach her age.  I have more compassion for people and I try not to be judgmental - but, unfortunately, I'm human with all the faults we have.  I guess I'm trying to be more non judgmental.

Have you shared this experience with others?   Yes

Describe:   Most people accepted it.  Mind you, I only discuss it with people that I think want to hear it.  It's not a matter of them believing it, it's just a moment of sharing and they can take it any way they want, and I don't defend my experience.  It's what happened and no one will make me believe it was drugs for pain, or that I was dreaming, etc.  I know deep in my self that this is real.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes

Before the NDE I was on a self destructive road constantly doing stupid things i.e. walking out in front of cars to see if they would hit me, the faster the car the better etc.  Now, I don't tempt my guardian angel.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?   Yes