Gina's NDE

edited for clarity by Judy Shea 5/20/11

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:  

During the car accident, I can remember feeling and sensing my body rolling with the car.  I remember flying through the air and landing softly on the ground.  The whole time I felt like I was watching a movie.  After I landed on the ground, I remember thinking that I should scream, so I screamed a slow, calm scream. I remember being in intensive care before the surgery, and a man of the cloth (that's all I know - there was no face, just a presence) took my hand and told me I would be all right after the surgery.  When he took my hand, energy passed from him to me. I could feel it go through my whole body.  I wouldn't let go of his hand, so he gently pried my hand off of his. 

The next thing I knew, I was passing through a tunnel towards a very peaceful and beautiful bright light.  I was met by moving forms that were pure energy.  It was such a beautiful, loving place. I remember loving it there, and feeling astounded by the love that I was receiving.  I reviewed my life, and I did the judging.  I went back to when I was about 2 years old.  I know I was given all types of information, but now I don't remember just what it was.  But sometimes, I just know things and I don't know how I know them...almost as if I have an additional sense.

I had no choice but to return; I didn't want to and I begged to stay.  I was told that I had much to do before I could return.

When I came back, there was an angel  (a glowing bright light) at the foot of my bed; and it stayed there as I recovered.  As my health improved, the light faded and became more distant.

I was very upset that I had to come back. In fact, I thought it was because I was such an awful person that even God did not want me.

I told no one of this experience until I was in my 30's, after seeing an interview with James Moody.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:   Uncertain

Explanation:   I was in intensive care for a week, hooked up to machines and perhaps on regular medication.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?   Yes

What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?   There are no words in our language that can describe the experience accurately.

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?   Yes

Describe:  I had dreamed of the car accident for three nights in a row.  Each night the dreams gave me more details about the accident, until finally, on the third night of dreaming, the dream was of my funeral.  In it, I was up in a tree trying to let the people attending the funeral know that I was not dead.  The only difference between my dream of the accident and the accident itself was that in my dream, my friend Bill was in the car.  The day of the accident, Bill got out of the car to let me in and decided not to go with us.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?   I was very alert and conscious of my surroundings and of the presence of others.

Was the experience dream like in any way?   During the actual accident, it felt dream-like, but after I went through the tunnel, it didn't feel dream-like at all. I was very much aware of my surroundings and of what was happening.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?   Yes

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:   During the accident, I did not feel any pain while I saw my body smashing against the vehicle and onto the ground.  When I went through the tunnel, I had no physical body as such, but was aware of an energy field around me (me? my body?) 

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   I was completely at peace, I felt a knowing feeling that I was returning to where I had come from. Also, I felt complete, pure love.  And after returning, I felt very sad that I had to come back here .

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?   When I went through the tunnel, the forms spoke, but not with words - more like with thoughts.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?   Yes

Describe:   It was a long tunnel with a bright, peaceful light that was wanting me to come to it.

Did you see a light?   Yes

Describe:   The light was very bright, but did not hurt my eyes.  It was welcoming.

Did you meet or see any other beings?   Yes

Describe:   I knew them, but their appearance was not the same as it had been when I knew them as humans.   It was like they were pure energy, but I knew who they were.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?   Yes

   Describe:   I was in a room with others present.  I reviewed my life and made judgments on it. The judgments were not harsh, it was more of an acknowledgement of what I had done that was not right.  Everything I learned has been helping me to live my life since then.  I received knowledge, and it comes to me when I need it.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?   No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?   Yes

Describe:   Sometimes I just know things to be true.  I can sense certain things.  I can get people to call me by thinking about them; and sometimes I get the feeling that something is going to happen, and it usually does.  Sometimes my dreams carry warnings about future events. 

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   Uncertain

Did you become aware of future events?   Yes

Describe:   I became aware of future events in my personal life, not on a worldly base.  I can sense danger/warnings from family members.  I know when something is going to happen before it does. 

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?   Yes

Describe:   I was forced to come back. I remember begging to stay, but I was told I had much to do.  I feel that I was told what I had to accomplish, but unfortunately, I don't know what that is now. 

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?   Uncertain

 Describe:   I think I have always had a gift, but since the NDE, I'm more in tune with my gift.  I can remember a presence coming to me when I was about 2 years old.  He stayed with me until I was about 32 and then told me I no longer needed him.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

Describe:   After the accident, I knew that we are responsible for what we say, what we think, and what we do to ourselves and others.   We will judge ourselves.  One of the biggest "no no's" is to kill, meaning killing others or ourselves. 

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?   I have spent years looking at different religions, and talking to people about their beliefs.  I don't believe in organized religion for myself. I believe that I have a guardian angel, and I believe that there is good in everyone.  I have worked in the helping fields and have been given the gift of being able to get along well with almost all people.  I have learned from almost everyone I have met - mind you, both good and bad stuff, such as  "I don't want to be angry like this person when I reach her age."  I have more compassion for people, and I try not to be judgmental - but, unfortunately, I'm human, with all the faults we have.  I guess I'm trying to be more non-judgmental.

Have you shared this experience with others?   Yes

Describe:   Most people have accepted it.  Mind you, I only discuss it with people that I think want to hear about it.  For me, it's not a matter whether they believe it or not, it's just a moment of sharing. They can take it any way they want to. I don't defend my experience.  It's what happened, and no one will convince me that it was caused by drugs for pain, or that I was dreaming, etc.  I know deep in myself that this is real.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?   I felt anger that I was sent back, sadness that I was not good enough to stay,  and a knowing that I had to change my life if I wanted to return. 

What was the best and worst part of your experience?   The best part was knowing and feeling the love.   There was no worst part. 

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes

Before the NDE, I was on a self destructive course, constantly doing stupid things e.g. walking out in front of cars to see if they would hit me - the faster the car, the better etc.  Now, I don't tempt my guardian angel.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?   Yes

Describe:   I went to a woman who helped me relive the NDE.  It was a wonderful experience.  I could feel that bright light on the right side of my face, and I went through the tunnel again, but just for a very quick second.  After I awoke, the woman that lead me through the relaxation exercise was crying.  She told me that my face had lit up, and I had been so radiant. 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes