After observing a frightening injury of a loved one, I ran as fast as I could to summon help. Upon returning to the scene, I felt a feeling of light-headedness and my heart was racing and my ears ringing. Then I experienced darkness and then proceeded to the indescribably bright light. The scene was a pastoral setting with brilliant colors but not distinguishable as flowers or objects. Approaching me were beings that I can only describe as individual entities that appeared to be bright, not earthy beings, familiar but not identifiable to me. They welcomed me and the light presence gave a feeling of love and peace and knowing that I have never felt before. The communication was not in words but in thoughts.
I did not want to leave the place or feeling but I was aware of a floating feeling back into by physical body and my husband desperately trying to revive me. I hesitated to come back but knew that I had to try to get back. Something told me that I had to try to help my husband who was attending to me. Obviously, I came back but my husband reported that I had stopped breathing and my eyes were open and fixated and I lost bladder control and of course muscle control. When I had gone limp, he had laid me down on the ground. My husband, an Orthodontist, thought that I was dead. I returned to my physical body before the Emergency Medical Services arrived or before my husband had started CPR. I was taken to our room, vital signs were taken, and I was asked if I wanted to go to the hospital. I declined. When I returned home, to the states, I did see my family physician and had a cardiologist follow-up. All tests were within the normal range.
I must say, I think about this experience daily. It has changed my life in a positive way. I feel that the message that I received was one of love and I feel compelled to express and show loving kindness in every way that I can. I have recently retired. Although I have always done volunteer work for various causes, I now have had Hospice training and am working with folks in their later stages of life. I feel a spirituality that I never felt before and a serenity that I have never felt before. I also have shared my experience with only a few people and after reading about Dr. Long's research, felt that it was a good opportunity to share with more people.
Date NDE Occurred: 6/6/09
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Stressful emotional and physical situation Other 'Became unconscious after physical and stressful activity with eyes fixated and no blinking, no breathing, loss of bodily functions. Presumed dead by attendees. 3-5 minutes duration.'
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I experienced the highest level of consciousness when in the presence of the beings and light. Fortunately, I have brought a little of that back with me.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
It was unclear to me how long that I was in this unearthly realm. My husband reports three to five minutes perhaps.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Clarity, colors, brightness, depth perception were all enhanced.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My recollection is that it was a peaceful and serene setting and the communication with the light and beings was not in words but thoughts.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain A darkness which could have been a tunnel or enclosure. Not sure.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Bright beings who were familiar and welcoming. I felt that I knew them all, but could not identify them upon my returning. Love was communicated.
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Brilliant all encompassing.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The indescribably white light and the vivid colors of the pastoral setting.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, peace, happiness, contentment, AWE.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control Love is the message. Love each other and be kind in any and every way that you can while on this earthly voyage.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal 'Catholic childhood, Episcopal adult'
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain I believe that I was more spiritual than religious before the experience but definitely so now. Meditation and contemplative thought is more important than religious dogmas and rituals.
What is your religion now? Liberal 'Buddhist meditation, Episcopal'
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I believe that I was more spiritual than religious before the experience but definitely so now. Meditation and contemplative thought is more important than religious dogmas and rituals.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Love, love, love! That is what I felt and that is what I have come to know and share with others.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes It appears to me that I have an intense sensitivity to others and I feel a love for family and friends that is more unconditional and accepting.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The emotional and indescribable feelings of love, peace, acceptance.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I am able to see auras around people and around my hands. I feel that when I am physically close to someone e.g. hugging, that an energy leaves me and transfers to the other.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Seeing loved ones was particularly significant and of course the love from the bright light and the knowing!
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared with my husband immediately. I shared with my physician and a nurse friend about a month after it happened. All total, I have shared with about ten people.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Why this happened to me is a message to live my life with more love and kindness to others. It is as real today as it was when it happened. I am thankful for the experience and being able to share it with your project. I have no fear of death. I KNOW there is an afterlife because I have been there.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I am blessed to have had the experience and blessed to return to this earthly realm and live a better life from now until my death.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Thank you for the NDE research and I am most happy to share my experience with you.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? None that come to mind at this time.